Hello from an old friend :)

It's been a very long time since I've posted online. I truly miss all the
great friends I made in here. I know many have moved on to the moderated
group, so I'll have to go and say hello over there too.

But it looks like a few of you still post here and from what I can see the
trolls seems to have stayed away. Well this week anyway

I've been doing really well anxiety wise that I felt too guilty to post
about it as I know so many are suffering so much at the moment. But
hopefully I can give a little hope and inspiration. I don't expect to be
able to reply to many people but I'll try and pop in now and them and do my
best.

~So my history in brief for the newbies:
First PA at age 14. Misdiagnosed with epilepsy for several years and not
properly diagnosed until 20. Proper CBT treatment not started until mid 20's
by which stage panic/anxiety had resulted in agoraphobia. But through help
of supportive hubby, family and great psychiatrist (and klonopin) I finally
got my life somewhat together. Didn't happen overnight, lots and lots of
hard work and gradual exposure but got to a stage where I had regained
control of the anxiety monster. Sometimes I wonder how I got to work or to
social events but I forced myself and did it. Have had lots of ups and
downs, mostly regressed after the birth of each of my four children. But
once again worked through it and got back to manageable life including
working and raising a family.

~That brings me to now:
I'm doing very very well. Haven't had a major Panic attack (with full
derealisation/depersonalisation) for about a year. Have had some little ones
but have worked through them ok. I'm able to use public transport and fly on
a plane with a lot more ease (still don't like it). My driving distances are
improving but very slowly.

We've just built a brand new home and despite the stress that created I
breezed through it anxiety wise (I think it kept my mind too busy to panic).
We've now moved in and have settled nicely. I'm a lot more laid back than I
used to be. I still don't have all my furnishings but that's ok, life goes
on. My eldest has just finished mid year exams in year 11 (Australia) which
me under more stress than it did him. I'm so glad my son doesn't get anxious
about exams like I used to

I'm now working full time as all my kids are all in school and I need extra
money to pay off this house. I've received a temporary promotion at work and
will be working as an executive manager for the next couple of months but
feel quietly confident. My klonopin dosage at one point was 5mg per day but
it's now down to 1.25mg per day. Just shows you that it's not addictive.

Well that's all my news in a nutshell.

Belated birthday wishes to Laurie and anyone else I've missed

Vanessa

On Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:33:26 +1000, "V~anessa"
<flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:

>It's been a very long time since I've posted online. I truly miss all the
>great friends I made in here. I know many have moved on to the moderated
>group, so I'll have to go and say hello over there too.

hi sweet vanessa! how nice to see you!
i left the moderated group when the moderators accused me of being a
troll.
i'm sure they'll read this (or at least jackie will, since she
obsessively reads this group), and send you all kinds of emails and
explanations...but it wasn't me. they did me a favor though, because
now i know what kind of people the moderators are! since that time,
they've gone behind my back to many of my friends, and attempted to
destroy my friendships. never again will i be part of that
group...even considering the fact that they told me i could still post
in there. LOL

so if i pop in, i pop in HERE.
how are you doing?


>But it looks like a few of you still post here and from what I can see the
>trolls seems to have stayed away. Well this week anyway


i don't really see trolls in here much.

many regulars left asapm because of the moderator's god-complex.
i think they are worse than trolls! :-)

except anna...she is as sweet as the pie she lives for :-D
don't know if she's a moderator any more.


>I've been doing really well anxiety wise that I felt too guilty to post
>about it as I know so many are suffering so much at the moment. But
>hopefully I can give a little hope and inspiration. I don't expect to be
>able to reply to many people but I'll try and pop in now and them and do my
>best.

i'm so happy to hear this. you should NEVER EVER feel guilty that you
are doing so well. this is just wonderful news, sweetie!

>~So my history in brief for the newbies:
>First PA at age 14. Misdiagnosed with epilepsy for several years and not
>properly diagnosed until 20. Proper CBT treatment not started until mid 20's
>by which stage panic/anxiety had resulted in agoraphobia. But through help
>of supportive hubby, family and great psychiatrist (and klonopin) I finally
>got my life somewhat together. Didn't happen overnight, lots and lots of
>hard work and gradual exposure but got to a stage where I had regained
>control of the anxiety monster. Sometimes I wonder how I got to work or to
>social events but I forced myself and did it. Have had lots of ups and
>downs, mostly regressed after the birth of each of my four children. But
>once again worked through it and got back to manageable life including
>working and raising a family.

YOU are outstanding, vanessa! you came back from some major problems.
good for you!


>~That brings me to now:
>I'm doing very very well. Haven't had a major Panic attack (with full
>derealisation/depersonalisation) for about a year. Have had some little ones
>but have worked through them ok. I'm able to use public transport and fly on
>a plane with a lot more ease (still don't like it). My driving distances are
>improving but very slowly.

wow, look at you!
i would LOVE to be able to get on a plane. i even have a ticket.
maybe you could give me some pointers.
it really is a little at a time, isn't it?


>We've just built a brand new home and despite the stress that created I
>breezed through it anxiety wise (I think it kept my mind too busy to panic).
>We've now moved in and have settled nicely. I'm a lot more laid back than I
>used to be. I still don't have all my furnishings but that's ok, life goes
>on. My eldest has just finished mid year exams in year 11 (Australia) which
>me under more stress than it did him. I'm so glad my son doesn't get anxious
>about exams like I used to

ohhhhhhh vanessa, this is incredible. can you email me pictures? i
would love to see your new home.
i am also glad that your son didn't get anxious for his exams :-)


>I'm now working full time as all my kids are all in school and I need extra
>money to pay off this house. I've received a temporary promotion at work and
>will be working as an executive manager for the next couple of months but
>feel quietly confident. My klonopin dosage at one point was 5mg per day but
>it's now down to 1.25mg per day. Just shows you that it's not addictive.
>
>Well that's all my news in a nutshell.
>
>Belated birthday wishes to Laurie and anyone else I've missed
>
>Vanessa


i'm so proud of you vanessa. you did this with A LOT of hard work.
you are extremely courageous, and someone i truly admire!

hugs and love,

your friend always,

gigglz


>

I felt happy after reading your post Vannesa. You have practically put
that 'beast' called panic and anxiety in its proper place...which is
back to hell where it came from. Enjoy life. That is the best revenge
against a disease that has ruined many lives, including mine. Stay well
and happy.
Mister Goldfinger, NYC

"Gigglz" <Frekklz@Hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:ik9654d5r8124lnam78q61dcoht6o22ode@4ax.com...
> On Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:33:26 +1000, "V~anessa"
> <flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:
> hi sweet vanessa! how nice to see you!
> i left the moderated group when the moderators accused me of being a
> troll.
> i'm sure they'll read this (or at least jackie will, since she
> obsessively reads this group), and send you all kinds of emails and
> explanations...but it wasn't me. they did me a favor though, because
> now i know what kind of people the moderators are! since that time,
> they've gone behind my back to many of my friends, and attempted to
> destroy my friendships. never again will i be part of that
> group...even considering the fact that they told me i could still post
> in there. LOL
>
> so if i pop in, i pop in HERE.
> how are you doing?

Hiya Giggz
Always nice to have a chat with you. I'm doing very well. Busy as usual but
healthy wise quite good. How's your health going? You've been through a fair
bit.

Sorry to hear about what's happened with the mods in ASAPM. I've never
received any warnings about you but i've been out of the loop a while.
Hopefully it was just a misunderstanding (not trying to trivialise what
you've been through though).


> i don't really see trolls in here much.
>
> many regulars left asapm because of the moderator's god-complex.
> i think they are worse than trolls! :-)
>
> except anna...she is as sweet as the pie she lives for :-D
> don't know if she's a moderator any more.

Glad to hear the trolls are staying away
Anna and her applie pies <vbg>


> i'm so happy to hear this. you should NEVER EVER feel guilty that you
> are doing so well. this is just wonderful news, sweetie!

I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't help it. But I do know people
appreciate the inspiration.

> YOU are outstanding, vanessa! you came back from some major problems.
> good for you!

Sure have. I'm thinking of putting a blog together that traces my full
battle. I wish i'd kept a diary over the years as it's hard to recall
exactly how i felt during the worst panic attacks. But some things I will
never forget. Anticipatory anxiety in particular.


> wow, look at you!
> i would LOVE to be able to get on a plane. i even have a ticket.
> maybe you could give me some pointers.
> it really is a little at a time, isn't it?

Literally one baby step at a time. I have been frozen with fear just as I'm
about to step into the plane and i've forced myself to take a step forward.
Distractions work quite well. I now take puzzles with me on a trip so I can
focus on them and not remind myself of where I am. The build up is the worst
part, as the catastrophic thinking can take over and make them become self
fullfilling prophecies. I do still avoid flying if i can, but my work
sometimes requires me to go interstate. Thankfully it's very rare. I'm
hoping later this year or next year to go to Queensland for a family
holiday... this would be longer than my normal work trips but having the
kids with me would feel better than flying solo.


> ohhhhhhh vanessa, this is incredible. can you email me pictures? i
> would love to see your new home.
> i am also glad that your son didn't get anxious for his exams :-)

Thanks Giggz. I haven't taken many pics and I keep meaning to get myself a
digital camera as I've promised lots of people pics. I must be the only one
who doesn't have a digital camera. My mobile phone has one but it's very
poor quality.

> i'm so proud of you vanessa. you did this with A LOT of hard work.
> you are extremely courageous, and someone i truly admire!
>
> hugs and love,
>
> your friend always,
>
> gigglz

Hugs back at you Giggz. Let me know how you're going. Once I get some pics
I'll send them to you.

Vanessa

"Mister Goldfinger" <MisterGoldfinger@webtv.net> wrote in message
news:9914-48533FAA-1138@storefull-3351.bay.webtv.net...
>I felt happy after reading your post Vannesa. You have practically put
> that 'beast' called panic and anxiety in its proper place...which is
> back to hell where it came from. Enjoy life. That is the best revenge
> against a disease that has ruined many lives, including mine. Stay well
> and happy.
> Mister Goldfinger, NYC

Hi Mister Goldfinger

I've certainly had many battles with the anxiety beast over the past 25+
years. In some crazy way I think the disease has made me appreciate life
more and not take simple things for granted. Simply walking on a beach or
strolling through a park on a sunny day is a beautiful thing yet it in the
past it would have been very difficult to do without my instinct
flight/fight response trying to kick in and get me outta there quick smart.

My boss's daughter lives in NY and will be coming to Melbourne, Australia
for a visit.

Thanks for your encouraging words.

Vanessa

On Fri, 13 Jun 2008 23:48:58 -0400, MisterGoldfinger@webtv.net (Mister
Goldfinger) wrote:

>I felt happy after reading your post Vannesa. You have practically put
>that 'beast' called panic and anxiety in its proper place...which is
>back to hell where it came from. Enjoy life. That is the best revenge
>against a disease that has ruined many lives, including mine. Stay well
>and happy.
>Mister Goldfinger, NYC

sorry to hear you suffered too, MG. :-(

take good care,
gigglz

On Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:31:48 +1000, "V~anessa"
<flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:


>Hiya Giggz
>Always nice to have a chat with you. I'm doing very well. Busy as usual but
>healthy wise quite good. How's your health going? You've been through a fair
>bit.

my health is not good right now...but i should be used to it.
my life is also in major turmoil. i will get thru it.


>Sorry to hear about what's happened with the mods in ASAPM. I've never
>received any warnings about you but i've been out of the loop a while.
>Hopefully it was just a misunderstanding (not trying to trivialise what
>you've been through though).

oh just wait. you'll probably get an email soon. they even make
phone calls! i'm sorry too. i'm sorry that my WORD meant nothing to
them. i'm sorry that someone screwed with my life...to the max.
but i will get past this, too.



>> i don't really see trolls in here much.
>>
>> many regulars left asapm because of the moderator's god-complex.
>> i think they are worse than trolls! :-)
>>
>> except anna...she is as sweet as the pie she lives for :-D
>> don't know if she's a moderator any more.


>Glad to hear the trolls are staying away
>Anna and her applie pies <vbg>


yes, anna and her apple pies. she is so funny, and extremely
priceless.
i'll go to my grave loving anna!


>> i'm so happy to hear this. you should NEVER EVER feel guilty that you
>> are doing so well. this is just wonderful news, sweetie!


>I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't help it. But I do know people
>appreciate the inspiration.


well any time you feel guilty, just email me :-) i'll remind you NOT
to, OK? you are an inspiration to EVERYONE, vanessa!



>> YOU are outstanding, vanessa! you came back from some major problems.
>> good for you!

>Sure have. I'm thinking of putting a blog together that traces my full
>battle. I wish i'd kept a diary over the years as it's hard to recall
>exactly how i felt during the worst panic attacks. But some things I will
>never forget. Anticipatory anxiety in particular.


that is a wonderful idea, vanessa. if you do, please let me read it.
we never do forget stress like this. your blog would help so many
people to see that life is NOT hopeless when you live with anxiety and
panic!



>> wow, look at you!
>> i would LOVE to be able to get on a plane. i even have a ticket.
>> maybe you could give me some pointers.
>> it really is a little at a time, isn't it?


>Literally one baby step at a time. I have been frozen with fear just as I'm
>about to step into the plane and i've forced myself to take a step forward.
>Distractions work quite well. I now take puzzles with me on a trip so I can
>focus on them and not remind myself of where I am. The build up is the worst
>part, as the catastrophic thinking can take over and make them become self
>fullfilling prophecies. I do still avoid flying if i can, but my work
>sometimes requires me to go interstate. Thankfully it's very rare. I'm
>hoping later this year or next year to go to Queensland for a family
>holiday... this would be longer than my normal work trips but having the
>kids with me would feel better than flying solo.

amazing! puzzles are a great idea. i would DEFINITELY need
distractions! the minute i look up and see that i'm in this small
space, i feel 'trapped', and i panic. not sure i could get myself
into a plane right now, but i'm going to have to attempt it soon!



>> ohhhhhhh vanessa, this is incredible. can you email me pictures? i
>> would love to see your new home.
>> i am also glad that your son didn't get anxious for his exams :-)


>Thanks Giggz. I haven't taken many pics and I keep meaning to get myself a
>digital camera as I've promised lots of people pics. I must be the only one
>who doesn't have a digital camera. My mobile phone has one but it's very
>poor quality.


well now is the time to get one :-) if you need any camera advice,
let me know. my husband and i are photo and camera buffs...and we
will help you!


>> i'm so proud of you vanessa. you did this with A LOT of hard work.
>> you are extremely courageous, and someone i truly admire!
>>
>> hugs and love,
>>
>> your friend always,
>>
>> gigglz


>Hugs back at you Giggz. Let me know how you're going. Once I get some pics
>I'll send them to you.
>
>Vanessa

thank you, vanessa. life is really hard right now, but i'll focus on
trying to keep sane. i look forward to your pictures.

love ya,
gigglz

VANESSA!!!!!!!!!!! What a happy surprise!! It's sooooo nice to read you!!
Thanks for the belated birthday wishes, and congrats on your new home!! It
sounds like you're doing really good, and that makes me happy for you.
)))) 'Hoping you stick around and partake in some of our fun posts.
Whether you're suffering right now or not, I'm sure you have some excellent
advice to give to those that can't see past the next minute w/out being
scared to death.

It is *SO GOOD* to read you!!! {{{{Nessaaaa}}}}!!! xo

--

·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
Laurie
((¸¸.·´ ..·´
-:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·

*~*LiveLoveLaugh*~*

All that I am or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother.
~Abraham Lincoln


"V~anessa" <flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:6bglf8F3bq5kkU1@mid.individual.net...
> It's been a very long time since I've posted online. I truly miss all the
> great friends I made in here. I know many have moved on to the moderated
> group, so I'll have to go and say hello over there too.
>
> But it looks like a few of you still post here and from what I can see the
> trolls seems to have stayed away. Well this week anyway
>
> I've been doing really well anxiety wise that I felt too guilty to post
> about it as I know so many are suffering so much at the moment. But
> hopefully I can give a little hope and inspiration. I don't expect to be
> able to reply to many people but I'll try and pop in now and them and do
> my best.
>
> ~So my history in brief for the newbies:
> First PA at age 14. Misdiagnosed with epilepsy for several years and not
> properly diagnosed until 20. Proper CBT treatment not started until mid
> 20's by which stage panic/anxiety had resulted in agoraphobia. But through
> help of supportive hubby, family and great psychiatrist (and klonopin) I
> finally got my life somewhat together. Didn't happen overnight, lots and
> lots of hard work and gradual exposure but got to a stage where I had
> regained control of the anxiety monster. Sometimes I wonder how I got to
> work or to social events but I forced myself and did it. Have had lots of
> ups and downs, mostly regressed after the birth of each of my four
> children. But once again worked through it and got back to manageable life
> including working and raising a family.
>
> ~That brings me to now:
> I'm doing very very well. Haven't had a major Panic attack (with full
> derealisation/depersonalisation) for about a year. Have had some little
> ones but have worked through them ok. I'm able to use public transport and
> fly on a plane with a lot more ease (still don't like it). My driving
> distances are improving but very slowly.
>
> We've just built a brand new home and despite the stress that created I
> breezed through it anxiety wise (I think it kept my mind too busy to
> panic). We've now moved in and have settled nicely. I'm a lot more laid
> back than I used to be. I still don't have all my furnishings but that's
> ok, life goes on. My eldest has just finished mid year exams in year 11
> (Australia) which me under more stress than it did him. I'm so glad my son
> doesn't get anxious about exams like I used to
>
> I'm now working full time as all my kids are all in school and I need
> extra money to pay off this house. I've received a temporary promotion at
> work and will be working as an executive manager for the next couple of
> months but feel quietly confident. My klonopin dosage at one point was 5mg
> per day but it's now down to 1.25mg per day. Just shows you that it's not
> addictive.
>
> Well that's all my news in a nutshell.
>
> Belated birthday wishes to Laurie and anyone else I've missed
>
> Vanessa
>

Hi Giggz,

Sorry about your health not being too good. Is it more than just anx/pan?
Hugs to you and wishing you better days health wise and life wise. My sister
is going to Hong Kong for a business trip and I'm hoping she can get me a
camera very cheap over there. So I will send pics once I have them.

Sorry for top posting but i'm in a rush. Have parent teacher interview to
attend which is why I'm home today. Running late~~~~~

Vanessa



"Gigglz" <Frekklz@Hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:avl7545ltrl9dc2qerkfigcbt77715prud@4ax.com...
> On Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:31:48 +1000, "V~anessa"
> <flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:
>
>
>>Hiya Giggz
>>Always nice to have a chat with you. I'm doing very well. Busy as usual
>>but
>>healthy wise quite good. How's your health going? You've been through a
>>fair
>>bit.
>
> my health is not good right now...but i should be used to it.
> my life is also in major turmoil. i will get thru it.
>
>
>>Sorry to hear about what's happened with the mods in ASAPM. I've never
>>received any warnings about you but i've been out of the loop a while.
>>Hopefully it was just a misunderstanding (not trying to trivialise what
>>you've been through though).
>
> oh just wait. you'll probably get an email soon. they even make
> phone calls! i'm sorry too. i'm sorry that my WORD meant nothing to
> them. i'm sorry that someone screwed with my life...to the max.
> but i will get past this, too.
>
>
>
>>> i don't really see trolls in here much.
>>>
>>> many regulars left asapm because of the moderator's god-complex.
>>> i think they are worse than trolls! :-)
>>>
>>> except anna...she is as sweet as the pie she lives for :-D
>>> don't know if she's a moderator any more.
>
>
>>Glad to hear the trolls are staying away
>>Anna and her applie pies <vbg>
>
>
> yes, anna and her apple pies. she is so funny, and extremely
> priceless.
> i'll go to my grave loving anna!
>
>
>>> i'm so happy to hear this. you should NEVER EVER feel guilty that you
>>> are doing so well. this is just wonderful news, sweetie!
>
>
>>I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't help it. But I do know people
>>appreciate the inspiration.
>
>
> well any time you feel guilty, just email me :-) i'll remind you NOT
> to, OK? you are an inspiration to EVERYONE, vanessa!
>
>
>
>>> YOU are outstanding, vanessa! you came back from some major problems.
>>> good for you!
>
>>Sure have. I'm thinking of putting a blog together that traces my full
>>battle. I wish i'd kept a diary over the years as it's hard to recall
>>exactly how i felt during the worst panic attacks. But some things I will
>>never forget. Anticipatory anxiety in particular.
>
>
> that is a wonderful idea, vanessa. if you do, please let me read it.
> we never do forget stress like this. your blog would help so many
> people to see that life is NOT hopeless when you live with anxiety and
> panic!
>
>
>
>>> wow, look at you!
>>> i would LOVE to be able to get on a plane. i even have a ticket.
>>> maybe you could give me some pointers.
>>> it really is a little at a time, isn't it?
>
>
>>Literally one baby step at a time. I have been frozen with fear just as
>>I'm
>>about to step into the plane and i've forced myself to take a step
>>forward.
>>Distractions work quite well. I now take puzzles with me on a trip so I
>>can
>>focus on them and not remind myself of where I am. The build up is the
>>worst
>>part, as the catastrophic thinking can take over and make them become self
>>fullfilling prophecies. I do still avoid flying if i can, but my work
>>sometimes requires me to go interstate. Thankfully it's very rare. I'm
>>hoping later this year or next year to go to Queensland for a family
>>holiday... this would be longer than my normal work trips but having the
>>kids with me would feel better than flying solo.
>
> amazing! puzzles are a great idea. i would DEFINITELY need
> distractions! the minute i look up and see that i'm in this small
> space, i feel 'trapped', and i panic. not sure i could get myself
> into a plane right now, but i'm going to have to attempt it soon!
>
>
>
>>> ohhhhhhh vanessa, this is incredible. can you email me pictures? i
>>> would love to see your new home.
>>> i am also glad that your son didn't get anxious for his exams :-)
>
>
>>Thanks Giggz. I haven't taken many pics and I keep meaning to get myself a
>>digital camera as I've promised lots of people pics. I must be the only
>>one
>>who doesn't have a digital camera. My mobile phone has one but it's very
>>poor quality.
>
>
> well now is the time to get one :-) if you need any camera advice,
> let me know. my husband and i are photo and camera buffs...and we
> will help you!
>
>
>>> i'm so proud of you vanessa. you did this with A LOT of hard work.
>>> you are extremely courageous, and someone i truly admire!
>>>
>>> hugs and love,
>>>
>>> your friend always,
>>>
>>> gigglz
>
>
>>Hugs back at you Giggz. Let me know how you're going. Once I get some pics
>>I'll send them to you.
>>
>>Vanessa
>
> thank you, vanessa. life is really hard right now, but i'll focus on
> trying to keep sane. i look forward to your pictures.
>
> love ya,
> gigglz
>
>
>
>
>
>

"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news:4853daec$0$5092$4c368faf@roadrunner.com...
> VANESSA!!!!!!!!!!! What a happy surprise!! It's sooooo nice to read
> you!! Thanks for the belated birthday wishes, and congrats on your new
> home!! It sounds like you're doing really good, and that makes me happy
> for you. )))) 'Hoping you stick around and partake in some of our fun
> posts. Whether you're suffering right now or not, I'm sure you have some
> excellent advice to give to those that can't see past the next minute
> w/out being scared to death.
>
> It is *SO GOOD* to read you!!! {{{{Nessaaaa}}}}!!! xo


thanks Laurie,

I'll try my best to hang around especially if you're promising fun posts
I always enjoy giving advice to newbies And ofcouse the fun posts and
support to those who know anx/pan all too well.

V

hey, you can top post any time! :-) no apologies required. i do it
all the time, and i actually like it!

i hope the parent teacher interview went well.

thanks for your good thoughts. yup, my health issues are definitely
more than the anxiety/panic. i won't bore you with 'em though.

very cool you can get a camera right from hong kong. i'm really
excited to see pictures.

hugs,
giggz



On Mon, 16 Jun 2008 09:30:29 +1000, "V~anessa"
<flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:

>Hi Giggz,
>
>Sorry about your health not being too good. Is it more than just anx/pan?
>Hugs to you and wishing you better days health wise and life wise. My sister
>is going to Hong Kong for a business trip and I'm hoping she can get me a
>camera very cheap over there. So I will send pics once I have them.
>
>Sorry for top posting but i'm in a rush. Have parent teacher interview to
>attend which is why I'm home today. Running late~~~~~
>
>Vanessa
>
>
>
>"Gigglz" <Frekklz@Hotmail.com> wrote in message
>news:avl7545ltrl9dc2qerkfigcbt77715prud@4ax.com.. .
>> On Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:31:48 +1000, "V~anessa"
>> <flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:
>>
>>
>>>Hiya Giggz
>>>Always nice to have a chat with you. I'm doing very well. Busy as usual
>>>but
>>>healthy wise quite good. How's your health going? You've been through a
>>>fair
>>>bit.
>>
>> my health is not good right now...but i should be used to it.
>> my life is also in major turmoil. i will get thru it.
>>
>>
>>>Sorry to hear about what's happened with the mods in ASAPM. I've never
>>>received any warnings about you but i've been out of the loop a while.
>>>Hopefully it was just a misunderstanding (not trying to trivialise what
>>>you've been through though).
>>
>> oh just wait. you'll probably get an email soon. they even make
>> phone calls! i'm sorry too. i'm sorry that my WORD meant nothing to
>> them. i'm sorry that someone screwed with my life...to the max.
>> but i will get past this, too.
>>
>>
>>
>>>> i don't really see trolls in here much.
>>>>
>>>> many regulars left asapm because of the moderator's god-complex.
>>>> i think they are worse than trolls! :-)
>>>>
>>>> except anna...she is as sweet as the pie she lives for :-D
>>>> don't know if she's a moderator any more.
>>
>>
>>>Glad to hear the trolls are staying away
>>>Anna and her applie pies <vbg>
>>
>>
>> yes, anna and her apple pies. she is so funny, and extremely
>> priceless.
>> i'll go to my grave loving anna!
>>
>>
>>>> i'm so happy to hear this. you should NEVER EVER feel guilty that you
>>>> are doing so well. this is just wonderful news, sweetie!
>>
>>
>>>I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I can't help it. But I do know people
>>>appreciate the inspiration.
>>
>>
>> well any time you feel guilty, just email me :-) i'll remind you NOT
>> to, OK? you are an inspiration to EVERYONE, vanessa!
>>
>>
>>
>>>> YOU are outstanding, vanessa! you came back from some major problems.
>>>> good for you!
>>
>>>Sure have. I'm thinking of putting a blog together that traces my full
>>>battle. I wish i'd kept a diary over the years as it's hard to recall
>>>exactly how i felt during the worst panic attacks. But some things I will
>>>never forget. Anticipatory anxiety in particular.
>>
>>
>> that is a wonderful idea, vanessa. if you do, please let me read it.
>> we never do forget stress like this. your blog would help so many
>> people to see that life is NOT hopeless when you live with anxiety and
>> panic!
>>
>>
>>
>>>> wow, look at you!
>>>> i would LOVE to be able to get on a plane. i even have a ticket.
>>>> maybe you could give me some pointers.
>>>> it really is a little at a time, isn't it?
>>
>>
>>>Literally one baby step at a time. I have been frozen with fear just as
>>>I'm
>>>about to step into the plane and i've forced myself to take a step
>>>forward.
>>>Distractions work quite well. I now take puzzles with me on a trip so I
>>>can
>>>focus on them and not remind myself of where I am. The build up is the
>>>worst
>>>part, as the catastrophic thinking can take over and make them become self
>>>fullfilling prophecies. I do still avoid flying if i can, but my work
>>>sometimes requires me to go interstate. Thankfully it's very rare. I'm
>>>hoping later this year or next year to go to Queensland for a family
>>>holiday... this would be longer than my normal work trips but having the
>>>kids with me would feel better than flying solo.
>>
>> amazing! puzzles are a great idea. i would DEFINITELY need
>> distractions! the minute i look up and see that i'm in this small
>> space, i feel 'trapped', and i panic. not sure i could get myself
>> into a plane right now, but i'm going to have to attempt it soon!
>>
>>
>>
>>>> ohhhhhhh vanessa, this is incredible. can you email me pictures? i
>>>> would love to see your new home.
>>>> i am also glad that your son didn't get anxious for his exams :-)
>>
>>
>>>Thanks Giggz. I haven't taken many pics and I keep meaning to get myself a
>>>digital camera as I've promised lots of people pics. I must be the only
>>>one
>>>who doesn't have a digital camera. My mobile phone has one but it's very
>>>poor quality.
>>
>>
>> well now is the time to get one :-) if you need any camera advice,
>> let me know. my husband and i are photo and camera buffs...and we
>> will help you!
>>
>>
>>>> i'm so proud of you vanessa. you did this with A LOT of hard work.
>>>> you are extremely courageous, and someone i truly admire!
>>>>
>>>> hugs and love,
>>>>
>>>> your friend always,
>>>>
>>>> gigglz
>>
>>
>>>Hugs back at you Giggz. Let me know how you're going. Once I get some pics
>>>I'll send them to you.
>>>
>>>Vanessa
>>
>> thank you, vanessa. life is really hard right now, but i'll focus on
>> trying to keep sane. i look forward to your pictures.
>>
>> love ya,
>> gigglz
>>
>>
>>
>>
>>
>>
>

On Mon, 16 Jun 2008 09:27:04 +1000, "V~anessa"
<flekka24nospam@hotmail.com> wrote:

>
>"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
>news:4853daec$0$5092$4c368faf@roadrunner.com...
>> VANESSA!!!!!!!!!!! What a happy surprise!! It's sooooo nice to read
>> you!! Thanks for the belated birthday wishes, and congrats on your new
>> home!! It sounds like you're doing really good, and that makes me happy
>> for you. )))) 'Hoping you stick around and partake in some of our fun
>> posts. Whether you're suffering right now or not, I'm sure you have some
>> excellent advice to give to those that can't see past the next minute
>> w/out being scared to death.
>>
>> It is *SO GOOD* to read you!!! {{{{Nessaaaa}}}}!!! xo
>
>
>thanks Laurie,
>
>I'll try my best to hang around especially if you're promising fun posts
>I always enjoy giving advice to newbies And ofcouse the fun posts and
>support to those who know anx/pan all too well.
>
>V


let the fun begin! i could sure use some :-)

giggz