Help me please

Hi

I was diagnosed with OCD a few years ago and started Zoloft. I saw
three Doctors each of whom diagnosed the condition identically.

Zoloft worked like a charm for me but the side effects did not wear
off. Also, I was scared of the side effects so I stopped eating the
pills 6 months ago. My condition is worsening and I cannot get better
on some days. I am quite desperate. I have a loving wife who is doing
all she can to help me.

Please help me. Can you please advise some way to get over this
without medicine. I am a very good graduate student with a loving wife
and child. But I guess you people understand how bad this condition
gets. Sometimes I just feel like jumping into a river, never to come
back. The only thing which keeps me back is what will happen to my
wife.

Please help me. I know many of you in this group are knowledgeable.
Please help.

thank you.