Pitfalls of panic

Today I was struck again by that strange and vile beast that is known
as panicus maximus...It is a strange creature. I have never
encountered two that looked the same. They all have different traits
and features...each one you encounter alienating you further and
reinstating the fact that you know not of it's secrets...

Yeah I had another panic attack. This one, however was different.
Instead of blindly running around the place like a headless chicken I
sat in the best armchair in the house and simply called my best
friend, Mary. We talked for about ten minutes and other than the
inevitable compulsive pulse checking I was out of it in less than 15
minutes!

This was a strange one also because I did not feel it coming on. I was
coming back from the bathroom, then all of a sudden it started,
without warning...this is strange because I usually feel them coming
on and take preventative measures.

I must say that was the hardest my heart has ever beaten in my
life...I have sprinted miles and never has it pounded so horribly
fast.

I must also add that I really thought that this attack was "the one".
No not the saviour of the Matrix, but the time that I was going to
die...I make no bones about it I feel genuinely lucky to have lived
through that one.

I am now, perhaps, in a better mood having had today's
attack...strange! Yes I know...


-Joe


P.S. This is a day late thanks to google eating it the first time!

On Thu, 17 Apr 2008 10:58:47 -0700 (PDT), Joe.P.Mannion@googlemail.com
wrote:

>Today I was struck again by that strange and vile beast that is known
>as panicus maximus...It is a strange creature. I have never
>encountered two that looked the same. They all have different traits
>and features...each one you encounter alienating you further and
>reinstating the fact that you know not of it's secrets...
>
>Yeah I had another panic attack. This one, however was different.
>Instead of blindly running around the place like a headless chicken I
>sat in the best armchair in the house and simply called my best
>friend, Mary. We talked for about ten minutes and other than the
>inevitable compulsive pulse checking I was out of it in less than 15
>minutes!

way to handle it, joe!
i'm sorry you had the attack, but you made a really good decision in
distracting yourself as you did!


>This was a strange one also because I did not feel it coming on. I was
>coming back from the bathroom, then all of a sudden it started,
>without warning...this is strange because I usually feel them coming
>on and take preventative measures.

that IS really strange. was there any 'trigger' that you can think
of?


>I must say that was the hardest my heart has ever beaten in my
>life...I have sprinted miles and never has it pounded so horribly
>fast.

damn scary :-(


>I must also add that I really thought that this attack was "the one".
>No not the saviour of the Matrix, but the time that I was going to
>die...I make no bones about it I feel genuinely lucky to have lived
>through that one.

you did, because you distracted yourself. you did a really good job.
it's too bad it had to happen, joe. this disorder can really suck :-(


>I am now, perhaps, in a better mood having had today's
>attack...strange! Yes I know...

that IS strange. LOL


>-Joe
>
>
>P.S. This is a day late thanks to google eating it the first time!

google has issues ;-(

hang in there, joe!

gigglz

> google has issues ;-(
>
> hang in there, joe!
>
> gigglz

Google sucks but I only go on a few groups so I'll have to put up with
it lol.

Thanks for the well wishes!

-Joe

On Apr 17, 10:58*am, Joe.P.Mann...@googlemail.com wrote:
> Today I was struck again by that strange and vile beast that is known
> as panicus maximus...It is a strange creature. I have never
> encountered two that looked the same. They all have different traits
> and features...each one you encounter alienating you further and
> reinstating the fact that you know not of it's secrets...
>
> Yeah I had another panic attack. This one, however was different.
> Instead of blindly running around the place like a headless chicken I
> sat in the best armchair in the house and simply called my best
> friend, Mary. We talked for about ten minutes and other than the
> inevitable compulsive pulse checking I was out of it in less than 15
> minutes!

Good job. I usually go for cleaning out a closet for a distraction.
Once in awhile I can talk to someone while it happens, not face to
face, but on the phone or online.

>
> This was a strange one also because I did not feel it coming on. I was
> coming back from the bathroom, then all of a sudden it started,
> without warning...this is strange because I usually feel them coming
> on and take preventative measures.

Those are the worst, in my opinion. Kind of like going from 0 to 100
in seconds.

>
> I must say that was the hardest my heart has ever beaten in my
> life...I have sprinted miles and never has it pounded so horribly
> fast.
>
> I must also add that I really thought that this attack was "the one".
> No not the saviour of the Matrix, but the time that I was going to
> die...I make no bones about it I feel genuinely lucky to have lived
> through that one.

Strangely enough, I fear death less than going insane.
At my worst I feel that this will be the time I am committed to some
creepy-ass aslyum, where I am on display (a human menagerie) like in
the Regency period.

>
> I am now, perhaps, in a better mood having had today's
> attack...strange! Yes I know...

Not so strange. It being over, at least for now, can be a relief.

Hang in there.

>
> P.S. This is a day late thanks to google eating it the first time!

Gotta love the google, eh?

Vickie

On Apr 17, 1:58*pm, Joe.P.Mann...@googlemail.com wrote:
> Today I was struck again by that strange and vile beast that is known
> as panicus maximus...It is a strange creature. I have never
> encountered two that looked the same. They all have different traits
> and features...each one you encounter alienating you further and
> reinstating the fact that you know not of it's secrets...
>
> Yeah I had another panic attack. This one, however was different.
> Instead of blindly running around the place like a headless chicken I
> sat in the best armchair in the house and simply called my best
> friend, Mary. We talked for about ten minutes and other than the
> inevitable compulsive pulse checking I was out of it in less than 15
> minutes!
>
> This was a strange one also because I did not feel it coming on. I was
> coming back from the bathroom, then all of a sudden it started,
> without warning...this is strange because I usually feel them coming
> on and take preventative measures.
>
> I must say that was the hardest my heart has ever beaten in my
> life...I have sprinted miles and never has it pounded so horribly
> fast.
>
> I must also add that I really thought that this attack was "the one".
> No not the saviour of the Matrix, but the time that I was going to
> die...I make no bones about it I feel genuinely lucky to have lived
> through that one.
>
> I am now, perhaps, in a better mood having had today's
> attack...strange! Yes I know...
>
> -Joe
>
> P.S. This is a day late thanks to google eating it the first time!

Joe, hang in there buddy. What you described is exactly what I went
through, I also thought that was the big one and went to the hosp
where they also thought I was having a hearth attack, plugged me in
all the machine to monitor me etc...thankfully a young doc recognized
the sympthoms and put me on effexor right away with some ativan and
ever since I have been able to control the attacks.
Joe, you did the right thing in calling a friend, the more you think
about it the worse you'll feel because then all you are doing is
waiting for the next one...

On Thu, 17 Apr 2008 15:19:45 -0700 (PDT), Joe.P.Mannion@googlemail.com
wrote:

>> google has issues ;-(
>>
>> hang in there, joe!
>>
>> gigglz
>
>Google sucks but I only go on a few groups so I'll have to put up with
>it lol.
>
>Thanks for the well wishes!
>
>-Joe

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maybe you'll have better luck posting through there??

and, you're welcome for the well wishes :-) :-)

gigglz

On Apr 18, 6:38�am, Vieux Sailor <mleblaa...@rogers.com> wrote:

> Joe, you did the right thing in calling a friend, the more you think
> about it the worse you'll feel because then all you are doing is
> waiting for the next one...- Hide quoted text -

amen. i have only one friend i can call during an attack because he
says "SHUT THA FUCK UP, TANYA" and continutes his WAY more important
conversation than my surety that i'm dying could EVER compete with.

he know that to acknowledge my attacks makes em "real" for me.

never say "are you ok?" to me.... odg. that confirms everything i'm
feeling. i've kinda taught my friends not ta do that.

we're all different, ain't it weird how what comforts ignites
discomfort in me.

i miss muh friend.

we don't talk much anymore, i miss him badly, and i'm gonna make
attempt ta change that maybe in'ah few. it's a great friendship that
can sustain spells of "away time." thankfully, we hit on'em at tha
same time, tha need ta take'ah break from one another.

i wish you tha same kinda friendship, as well, Joe. sounds like ya
gotta good thing goin' there.

and btw, :oppinahcouplahbluez:: never hurt nobody. <wink>

~tanya

"~tanya" <Subnbellle@aol.com> wrote in news:54da143b-bd29-4036-bf6a-
cc6966d06197@z72g2000hsb.googlegroups.com:

> On Apr 18, 6:38�am, Vieux Sailor <mleblaa...@rogers.com> wrote:
>
>> Joe, you did the right thing in calling a friend, the more you think
>> about it the worse you'll feel because then all you are doing is
>> waiting for the next one...- Hide quoted text -
>
> amen. i have only one friend i can call during an attack because he
> says "SHUT THA FUCK UP, TANYA" and continutes his WAY more important
> conversation than my surety that i'm dying could EVER compete with.
>
> he know that to acknowledge my attacks makes em "real" for me.
>
> never say "are you ok?" to me.... odg. that confirms everything i'm
> feeling. i've kinda taught my friends not ta do that.
>
> we're all different, ain't it weird how what comforts ignites
> discomfort in me.
>
> i miss muh friend.
>
> we don't talk much anymore, i miss him badly, and i'm gonna make
> attempt ta change that maybe in'ah few. it's a great friendship that
> can sustain spells of "away time." thankfully, we hit on'em at tha
> same time, tha need ta take'ah break from one another.
>
> i wish you tha same kinda friendship, as well, Joe. sounds like ya
> gotta good thing goin' there.
>
> and btw, :oppinahcouplahbluez:: never hurt nobody. <wink>
>
> ~tanya
>

Thing is, Tanya it was easy for me to say "benzos are a cop out" when I
had none. But now I have a massive script I can truly remember and
respect the value of them.

The trick when calling a friend is to act normal just say you called to
find out if they could make it out for a beer after work or something and
try to lead the convo in a random direction, get them to tell you how
they're day is going etc...mundane shit, to be honest, just let them do
the talking.

This is very good method if you have a Priest in your phone book. Just
ask them about theology...I promice they will bore you out of the attack.

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From The Desk
Of
Joe P. Mannion
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Joe Mannion wrote:
> "~tanya" <Subnbellle@aol.com> wrote in news:54da143b-bd29-4036-bf6a-
> cc6966d06197@z72g2000hsb.googlegroups.com:
>
>> On Apr 18, 6:38�am, Vieux Sailor <mleblaa...@rogers.com> wrote:
>>
>>> Joe, you did the right thing in calling a friend, the more you think
>>> about it the worse you'll feel because then all you are doing is
>>> waiting for the next one...- Hide quoted text -
>> amen. i have only one friend i can call during an attack because he
>> says "SHUT THA FUCK UP, TANYA" and continutes his WAY more important
>> conversation than my surety that i'm dying could EVER compete with.
>>
>> he know that to acknowledge my attacks makes em "real" for me.
>>
>> never say "are you ok?" to me.... odg. that confirms everything i'm
>> feeling. i've kinda taught my friends not ta do that.
>>
>> we're all different, ain't it weird how what comforts ignites
>> discomfort in me.
>>
>> i miss muh friend.
>>
>> we don't talk much anymore, i miss him badly, and i'm gonna make
>> attempt ta change that maybe in'ah few. it's a great friendship that
>> can sustain spells of "away time." thankfully, we hit on'em at tha
>> same time, tha need ta take'ah break from one another.
>>
>> i wish you tha same kinda friendship, as well, Joe. sounds like ya
>> gotta good thing goin' there.
>>
>> and btw, :oppinahcouplahbluez:: never hurt nobody. <wink>
>>
>> ~tanya
>>
>
> Thing is, Tanya it was easy for me to say "benzos are a cop out" when I
> had none. But now I have a massive script I can truly remember and
> respect the value of them.
>
> The trick when calling a friend is to act normal just say you called to
> find out if they could make it out for a beer after work or something and
> try to lead the convo in a random direction, get them to tell you how
> they're day is going etc...mundane shit, to be honest, just let them do
> the talking.
>
> This is very good method if you have a Priest in your phone book. Just
> ask them about theology...I promice they will bore you out of the attack.
>
Interesting

Lou

On Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:26:02 -0700 (PDT), "~tanya"
<Subnbellle@aol.com> wrote:

>On Apr 18, 6:38?am, Vieux Sailor <mleblaa...@rogers.com> wrote:
>
>> Joe, you did the right thing in calling a friend, the more you think
>> about it the worse you'll feel because then all you are doing is
>> waiting for the next one...- Hide quoted text -
>
>amen. i have only one friend i can call during an attack because he
>says "SHUT THA FUCK UP, TANYA" and continutes his WAY more important
>conversation than my surety that i'm dying could EVER compete with.
>
>he know that to acknowledge my attacks makes em "real" for me.
>
>never say "are you ok?" to me.... odg. that confirms everything i'm
>feeling. i've kinda taught my friends not ta do that.
>
>we're all different, ain't it weird how what comforts ignites
>discomfort in me.
>
>i miss muh friend.
>
>we don't talk much anymore, i miss him badly, and i'm gonna make
>attempt ta change that maybe in'ah few. it's a great friendship that
>can sustain spells of "away time." thankfully, we hit on'em at tha
>same time, tha need ta take'ah break from one another.
>
>i wish you tha same kinda friendship, as well, Joe. sounds like ya
>gotta good thing goin' there.
>
>and btw, :oppinahcouplahbluez:: never hurt nobody. <wink>
>
>~tanya

i hear sadness in your voice. :-( you need to contact your friend!
it will be OK. you need each other!

hugs,
gigglz