I am seeing and receiving much treatment for the side effects of this condition.
Now I believe it is time to find the cause. I have been told that anxiety/
panic attacks are a result of the brain not producing enough of some chemical.
Next question is why does this happen?
Is it a genetic pre-disposition?
Or is it an environment problem?
My thinking is that it may well be a combination as a result of my childhood.
The shrink keeps talking about 'being in touch with my inner child' as a way to
overcome the panic/ anxiety. My 'inner child' and I have always gotten along
pretty well. It is the rest of the world that makes little sense. LOL
The rest of the world makes little sense due to viewpoint. As an over
sheltered, abused child, my world viewpoint is not quite in synchronization with
'reality'. I thought everyone had a father that liked to frighten them on a
constant basis.
A father that found it hilarious to send a two year old into a dark room for
some trifle after telling that child horror tales, then closes the door to make
the room black. If the child turns back on this task, she is beaten for not
performing the task. Each time the door starts to swing shut, she hesitates and
is threatened with punishment. When she finally reaches the trifle, the door
swings shut leaving her terrified in total dark to the sound of the father
laughing heartily. The mother does nothing to stop the abuse. The younger
sibling watches and learns it is okay to mistreat her.
Any surprise the little girl had panic/ anxiety problems by age four?
Pull back the layers of memory. When did it start for you? Relive the moments
and face them. Let those moments no longer control you. Yow, I know. Easier
said than done. But it is a beginning.