I'mmm baaacckk!

Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group

Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
But this scares the life out of me.
Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
Remission three years this month.


I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
channel.
I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
later
Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

"Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
news:h4mfc39n54khm3gcrj0lfc8l5ame6qtltm@4ax.com...
> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> But this scares the life out of me.
> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> Remission three years this month.
>
>
> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> channel.
> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> later
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Hang fire Frank until you get the results in and know what you are dealing
with. Of course it's a scary time for you right now and having been on the
cancer rollercoaster before you are bound to have these feelings, but at the
moment it is the "if" factor. Sadly it is probably one of the main fears
that will live with people that have been through their journey for the rest
of their lives.

Hugs Frank and fingers,toes and elbows crossed that all is okay.

Alayne

"Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" wrote:

> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> But this scares the life out of me.
> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> Remission three years this month.
>
> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> channel.
> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> later
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Hello Frank,
You've done the right thing coming here to share that you're scared. Most
cancers have a predictable pattern of recurrence so that explains to me
why the oncologist says he doesn't think it's lymphoma. I think what
you're having done is an EGD.
http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddise...copy/index.htm

I've had a few of those myself, once recently, to look for a source of a
severe bleed and once, many years before to look at an ulcer. I call it
the disappearing ulcer. <g> because sometimes they mention it after scans
and sometimes they don't. Of course, I don't know if that's what they're
seeing on your scan, so we'll be here waiting with you for the pathology
report and hoping for something benign. Please keep in touch. If the test
is a while away, keep talking with us, in the meantime.

There is one arm pain, that I know of, associated with lung cancer called
Pancoast syndrome, but I would think they'd be scoping your lung, then;
not the gastro.
The ulnar nerve comes from the medial cord of the brachial plexus. It is
shown here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ulnar_nerve
Looks to me that it runs down the inferior side of the arm, past the funny
bone, into the last 2 fingers.
What you probably need is someone to do gentle massage and palpation to
see where the pain is triggered from and/or have you do different
tasks/movements to see what triggers the pain. Then the rehab type person
tells you what to avoid, (which might also involve not sleeping on that
side or using an elbow splint during sleep), which muscles to "work" and
which splint to use, if applicable and some do ultrasound or recommend ice
or heat therapy. I have a bunch of sheets, each with exercises for each
area (hand, wrist, lower arm, upper arm, shoulder, neck) and the rehab guy
circled the ones I was supposed to do X (number of times per day).

Tendonitis?
Arm pain can also be coming from the heart.
If you tell me more about it, maybe we can figure out which expert to see.

When's the gastro test, Frank? That comes first of course.
J

Frank wrote :

"I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face."

Hi Frank,

I started coming to alt.support.cancer around (?) March of this year. It is
a good place to let your fears out, and have people accept them who've been
where you are and I am, and not over-react to them, I think. Certainly has
been an invaluable source of support, information, and encouragement for me.

So welcome back from another person who was raised to never show weakness
(unsuccessful graft of southern macho male thing), and who tends to go for
anger whenever they feel vulnerable (that's me I'm talking about there, not
you).

I'm afraid of a recurrence of my tongue cancer, you bet. The fear is like
some kind of "music" that normally is playing far in the background, almost
inaudible, but once in a while comes to the foreground and really shakes my
soul. But I am more afraid of hidng my fears, as I have in the past, and
then living with the consequences of denial.

It is difficult when you have people around who depend on you to be strong
and in control : fortunately for me the only one in that category right now
is my cat

Good to have you back. While I have no advice on how you might face the wait
for further news, I know that what helped me was staying constantly
intellectually busy, learning new things every day. Between friends, books,
guitar, computer, writing, and cat, I made do.

best, Uncle Sally

On Aug 19, 12:05 am, "Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" <Ste...@thefair.com>
wrote:
> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> But this scares the life out of me.
> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> Remission three years this month.
>
> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> channel.
> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> later
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Hi, Frank, good to hear from you. It's been awhile.

I hear you about the waiting. Very hard & stressful. In my book, it
takes a strong person to admit to being scared. I'm sure it's quite
normal to experience a wide spectrum of emotions whan going through
this. Normal & honest. I hope you stay here with us.

Fig

On Sun, 19 Aug 2007 07:42:39 -0400, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:

>"Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" wrote:
>
>> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>>
>> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
>> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
>> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
>> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
>> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
>> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
>> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
>> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
>> But this scares the life out of me.
>> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
>> Remission three years this month.
>>
>> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
>> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
>> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
>> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
>> channel.
>> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
>> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
>> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
>> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
>> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
>> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
>> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
>> later
>> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass
>
>Hello Frank,
>You've done the right thing coming here to share that you're scared. Most
>cancers have a predictable pattern of recurrence so that explains to me
>why the oncologist says he doesn't think it's lymphoma. I think what
>you're having done is an EGD.
>http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddise...copy/index.htm
>
>I've had a few of those myself, once recently, to look for a source of a
>severe bleed and once, many years before to look at an ulcer. I call it
>the disappearing ulcer. <g> because sometimes they mention it after scans
>and sometimes they don't. Of course, I don't know if that's what they're
>seeing on your scan, so we'll be here waiting with you for the pathology
>report and hoping for something benign. Please keep in touch. If the test
>is a while away, keep talking with us, in the meantime.
>
>There is one arm pain, that I know of, associated with lung cancer called
>Pancoast syndrome, but I would think they'd be scoping your lung, then;
>not the gastro.
>The ulnar nerve comes from the medial cord of the brachial plexus. It is
>shown here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ulnar_nerve
>Looks to me that it runs down the inferior side of the arm, past the funny
>bone, into the last 2 fingers.
>What you probably need is someone to do gentle massage and palpation to
>see where the pain is triggered from and/or have you do different
>tasks/movements to see what triggers the pain. Then the rehab type person
>tells you what to avoid, (which might also involve not sleeping on that
>side or using an elbow splint during sleep), which muscles to "work" and
>which splint to use, if applicable and some do ultrasound or recommend ice
>or heat therapy. I have a bunch of sheets, each with exercises for each
>area (hand, wrist, lower arm, upper arm, shoulder, neck) and the rehab guy
>circled the ones I was supposed to do X (number of times per day).
>
>Tendonitis?
>Arm pain can also be coming from the heart.
>If you tell me more about it, maybe we can figure out which expert to see.
>
>When's the gastro test, Frank? That comes first of course.
>J



Well let me fill in all the rest.
On Dec 5th last year I had surgery for the ulner nerve. Never got
better. Been to phys therapy, and am currently in Pain Management.
Currently I am on aVINZA 150MG, Cymbalta, Lyrica, celebrex, 25 mg
Morphine fast acting tabs 3 a dayoh and lets not forget Percocet
10mg/375. So I realize the whole nerve thing. Last scan Onc told my
Neurologist to do an MRI he thinks there may be a lesion on my spine,
this round he says significant change and wants to do a biopsy if it
is nothing then he will send to a neurologist associated with the
cancer center.
I worry because I know I get a CT every 6 months but CT's don't show
everything. I am trying to keep my kewl. I will deal with this just
like I did the last round. At least I am not going from Stage 4 Lung
Cancer to We don't have a clue to wait to you have Non Hodgkin's
Lymphoma. That is one roller coaster ride I do not want to be on.

Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!

"Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" wrote:

> Well let me fill in all the rest.
> On Dec 5th last year I had surgery for the ulner nerve. Never got
> better. Been to phys therapy, and am currently in Pain Management.
> Currently I am on aVINZA 150MG, Cymbalta, Lyrica, celebrex, 25 mg
> Morphine fast acting tabs 3 a dayoh and lets not forget Percocet
> 10mg/375. So I realize the whole nerve thing. Last scan Onc told my
> Neurologist to do an MRI he thinks there may be a lesion on my spine,
> this round he says significant change and wants to do a biopsy if it
> is nothing then he will send to a neurologist associated with the
> cancer center.
> I worry because I know I get a CT every 6 months but CT's don't show
> everything. I am trying to keep my kewl. I will deal with this just
> like I did the last round. At least I am not going from Stage 4 Lung
> Cancer to We don't have a clue to wait to you have Non Hodgkin's
> Lymphoma. That is one roller coaster ride I do not want to be on.
>
> Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!

Ah yes, Frank. I remember the diagnostics problem and second opinion.
Thanks for clearing things up for me that it's a biopsy of a lesion on the
spine.
That sure ain't tendonitis if you need all those pain meds.
Actually pain meds don't work very well for tendonitis.
We'll be on pins and needles until we hear the biopsy results from you.
So please keep in touch, Frank.
Best wishes for the all clear and something less worrisome.
J

Hi Frank,
I also have a lot of pain in my shoulders but I am told that
mine is the result of Radio therapy treatment ? I first went down with my
lung cancer in November 1999. and I understand your fears, I am unwell for
about two days before I need to go to see my oncologist, even when I know
things are going fairly well ? We wouldn't be human if it did not affect us
in some way , but I know that you are made of strong stuff , keep your chin
up Frank , my thoughts are with you . Peter.
"Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
news:h4mfc39n54khm3gcrj0lfc8l5ame6qtltm@4ax.com...
> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> But this scares the life out of me.
> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> Remission three years this month.
>
>
> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> channel.
> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> later
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Peter Clarke wrote:

> Hi Frank,
> I also have a lot of pain in my shoulders but I am told that
> mine is the result of Radio therapy treatment ? I first went down with my
> lung cancer in November 1999. and I understand your fears, I am unwell for
> about two days before I need to go to see my oncologist, even when I know
> things are going fairly well ? We wouldn't be human if it did not affect us
> in some way , but I know that you are made of strong stuff , keep your chin
> up Frank , my thoughts are with you . Peter.

Thanks Peter,
I don't think Frank had RT (but I could be wrong).
The waiting (to hear) what's happening is hard.
J

"Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in
news:h4mfc39n54khm3gcrj0lfc8l5ame6qtltm@4ax.com:

> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass
>
Hi, Frank,

Stopping by to see how you are doing today. Any news yet?

Hoping all is well with you,
Fig

Well
I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
now three years of remission?
Well all wish me luck.
Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!


On Sun, 19 Aug 2007 02:05:15 -0400, "Frank (aka) \"Stew\""
<StewCu@thefair.com> wrote:

>Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
>Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
>I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
>He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
>and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
>Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
>but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
>After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
>believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
>But this scares the life out of me.
>Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
>Remission three years this month.
>
>
>I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
>auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
>What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
>If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
>channel.
>I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
>susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
>everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
>not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
>a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
>last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
>what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
>later
>Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

"Frank (aka) \"Stew\"" wrote:

> Well
> I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
> forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
> called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
> to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
> the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
> could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
> surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
> could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
> write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
> sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
> be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
> deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
> said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
> going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
> remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
> now three years of remission?
> Well all wish me luck.
> Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!
>
> On Sun, 19 Aug 2007 02:05:15 -0400, "Frank (aka) \"Stew\""
> <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote:
>
> >Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
> >
> >Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> >I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> >He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> >and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> >Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> >but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> >After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> >believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> >But this scares the life out of me.
> >Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> >Remission three years this month.
> >
> >
> >I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> >auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> >What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> >If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> >channel.
> >I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> >susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> >everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> >not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> >a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> >last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> >what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> >later
> >Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Oh Frank, I'm so sorry you're having to go through this again.
Diagnosis was such a screw-up the first time.

Best wishes, when's the surgery?
Come talk with us a bit, if it's not right away.
J

"Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
news:aa7ud31fr86b0i4jn0bh4uj4urqkbntms5@4ax.com...
> Well
> I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
> forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
> called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
> to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
> the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
> could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
> surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
> could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
> write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
> sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
> be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
> deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
> said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
> going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
> remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
> now three years of remission?
> Well all wish me luck.
> Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!
>
Hi Frank,

Sorry to hear your news Frank and after all you went through before. I've a
strong pair of DM boots for kicking ass this time too ;-)

Hugs

Alayne

Frank wrote :

"I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH .."

Happy Birthday, Frank, and I'm sorry to hear your bad news.

I think you'll warm-up your "kick-ass-engine" and make it through this on
attitude, guts.

Your have friends here who will be praying for you and wishing you well : I
hope I can be one of those for you.

best, Uncle Sally

"Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
news:aa7ud31fr86b0i4jn0bh4uj4urqkbntms5@4ax.com...
> Well
> I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
> forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
> called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
> to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
> the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
> could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
> surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
> could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
> write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
> sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
> be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
> deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
> said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
> going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
> remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
> now three years of remission?
> Well all wish me luck.
> Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!
>
>
Hi Frank , I remember how I felt when my cancer raised its ugly head again
after keeping quite for about five years
my thoughts are with you, give it both cheeks Frank.
God bless and stay safe , Peter

--
BetsyB
"Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
news:h4mfc39n54khm3gcrj0lfc8l5ame6qtltm@4ax.com...
> Hello Jay, Steph, Figgertoes, and rest of group
>
> Well just had my what I thought was my last 6month scans,
> I finish scans and go to see my Onc,
> He tells me my scans look good except there is a spot near my spine
> and he wants to do an upper GI and stick a needle in the scope and
> Biopsy the growth, he says he is 99% percent sure it is not Lymphoma
> but he dos not say that it is not cancer.
> After three years to have to go through this again is unbelievable, I
> believe it is not lymphoma do to wear the growth is.
> But this scares the life out of me.
> Stage four NHL tumours both lungs, six sessions chemo CHOP+R
> Remission three years this month.
>
>
> I have been having serious arm pain have went through surgery for
> auller nerve damage in Dec 06 and still no help.
> What are the chances this could be yet another cancer.
> If so what would the likely type be. It is wrapped around my nerve
> channel.
> I know there is no such thing as free from cancers grips, we are all
> susceptible to cancer. I just needed to let someone know I am scared
> everyone seems to think I need to be strong and face it head on and
> not worry or realize if it is cancer again I need to fight it and have
> a positive outlook, I keep telling them my outlook did not help me
> last time chemo did and if it is cancer again it will be chemo and
> what ever treatment they think is best not my smiling freaking face.
> later
> Frank (aka) "STEW" CCKMA Cancer Can Kiss My ass

Good luck with your decisions. I am proud of you. Go for it and I have a
pair of #10's to help kick it!
You can, dammmit!!


BetsyB

Alayne wrote:

> "Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
> > Well
> > I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
> > forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
> > called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
> > to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
> > the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
> > could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
> > surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
> > could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
> > write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
> > sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
> > be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
> > deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
> > said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
> > going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
> > remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
> > now three years of remission?
> > Well all wish me luck.
> > Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!
> >
> Hi Frank,
>
> Sorry to hear your news Frank and after all you went through before. I've a
> strong pair of DM boots for kicking ass this time too ;-)

I wonder how he made out yesterday...

i'd ask you how you're doing as well, Alayne, but you'll call me petal, if I do.

J

"J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
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> Alayne wrote:
>
>> "Frank (aka) "Stew"" <StewCu@thefair.com> wrote in message
>> > Well
>> > I received a call yesterday at about 09:10 in the morning, oh did I
>> > forget to mention my birthday is SEPTEMBER 4TH any ways my oncologist
>> > called and said FRANK the tumour is cancerous and he wants to proceed
>> > to the second phase and get it out. I ask what kind of cancer he said
>> > the pathology report only stated it was a carcinoma? He ask me if I
>> > could make there on Monday so I could meet with the canters Chest
>> > surgeon.I said ok he states the guy is very good and again ask me if I
>> > could make it. He then says get a pencil and a piece of paper and
>> > write down the time the place and the Doctors name. He says he is so
>> > sorry but well get it out its the only thing showing up so it should
>> > be easy. I ask but they don't scan every thing he said we see a great
>> > deal of your body it will be ok and again ask me if I will be there. I
>> > said yes thanked him and he wished me a happy birthday. What am I
>> > going to do? Well it is pretty much a done deal, three years of
>> > remission and now this/ It makes no sense that I would have anything
>> > now three years of remission?
>> > Well all wish me luck.
>> > Frank (aka) "Stew" [CCKMA] Cancer Can Kiss My Ass!!!
>> >
>> Hi Frank,
>>
>> Sorry to hear your news Frank and after all you went through before.
>> I've a
>> strong pair of DM boots for kicking ass this time too ;-)
>
> I wonder how he made out yesterday...
>
> i'd ask you how you're doing as well, Alayne, but you'll call me petal, if
> I do.
>
> J
>
That's cos you're not just a Petal but a whole Rose Bush ;-)

Alayne

Alayne wrote:

> "J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
> > i'd ask you how you're doing as well, Alayne, but you'll call me petal, if
> > I do.
> >
> That's cos you're not just a Petal but a whole Rose Bush ;-)
>
> Alayne

Okay Alayne.
I'll be a rosebush (with thorns) ;-)

Since this is an "I'm back" thread, seems appropriate to ask where you've been.
Busy with the biker's gathering?

And how are things going generally (update).

And how about the internment plans for FIL? Is he still on ice?
J

"J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
news:46EF5AE6.6AD190D9@execulink.com...
> Alayne wrote:
>
>> "J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
>> > i'd ask you how you're doing as well, Alayne, but you'll call me petal,
>> > if
>> > I do.
>> >
>> That's cos you're not just a Petal but a whole Rose Bush ;-)
>>
>> Alayne
>
> Okay Alayne.
> I'll be a rosebush (with thorns) ;-)
>
> Since this is an "I'm back" thread, seems appropriate to ask where you've
> been.
> Busy with the biker's gathering?
>
> And how are things going generally (update).
>
> And how about the internment plans for FIL? Is he still on ice?
> J
>
Hi J,

Okay perhaps not a rosebush, how about a beautiful rose with many petals
that brings a person pleasure both through the aroma and the intricate
composition (eeh, that sounds grand!)

Hmmm, how am I doing? How long have you got!

School holidays were challenging to say the least. I'm having some troubles
(almost daily) with daughter No. 2, two months off 13 and full of attitude
that you wouldn't believe. She's been hanging round with a very undesirable
character (who I've now banned completely from my property). No. 2 has been
smoking/stealing/lying getting in trouble with the police, you name it, she
pushes that button. Kelly on the other hand is a complete god-send and it's
like having a second parent around. I know all kids go through this phase
but it's the disrespectfulness that really drives me nuts.

It was also our Bike Rally two weeks ago, so was very busy with that. 744
bikers through the gate, I don't know what we've raised for Woodgreen yet
still waiting for figures to come in. I also invited Headway (local brain
injury charity) to come and raise funds too and I think they made quite a
bit too.

I've also been busy clearing father in laws house, not a small task in
itself being four bedroomed and full top to tail with rubbish.

And then of course it also fell to me to arrange FIL's funeral. It's
actually later today. Should be a fine affair, the British Legion are
involved so there will be the Union Jack on his coffin, four standard
bearers, poppy wreaths and the last post. It also sounds like half of his
village will be turning out to pay their last respects (as long as they
don't all want to come to the wake ;-)

So after today, two time consuming events will be under my belt and I may
get the chance to be here more often.

I did consider leaving the ng after so long an absence because I haven't
been able to commit to it, but I think you guys have got under my skin :-)

Warm Hugs Midnight Blue

Alayne

Alayne wrote:

> "J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
>
> > Since this is an "I'm back" thread, seems appropriate to ask where you've
> > been.
> > Busy with the biker's gathering?
> >
> > And how are things going generally (update).
> >
> > And how about the internment plans for FIL? Is he still on ice?
> > J
> >
> Hi J,
>
> Okay perhaps not a rosebush, how about a beautiful rose with many petals
> that brings a person pleasure both through the aroma and the intricate
> composition (eeh, that sounds grand!)
>
> Hmmm, how am I doing?

Sounded good to me. ;-)

> How long have you got!

I've always got an ear for you.

> School holidays were challenging to say the least. I'm having some troubles
> (almost daily) with daughter No. 2, two months off 13 and full of attitude
> that you wouldn't believe. She's been hanging round with a very undesirable
> character (who I've now banned completely from my property). No. 2 has been
> smoking/stealing/lying getting in trouble with the police, you name it, she
> pushes that button.

Whoops ! Good thing you set some boundaries.

> Kelly on the other hand is a complete god-send and it's
> like having a second parent around. I know all kids go through this phase
> but it's the disrespectfulness that really drives me nuts.

They know everything at that age (or think they do). BTDT.

> It was also our Bike Rally two weeks ago, so was very busy with that. 744
> bikers through the gate, I don't know what we've raised for Woodgreen yet
> still waiting for figures to come in. I also invited Headway (local brain
> injury charity) to come and raise funds too and I think they made quite a
> bit too.

Another success. That's wonderful !

> I've also been busy clearing father in laws house, not a small task in
> itself being four bedroomed and full top to tail with rubbish.

One man's junk is another's errr..work.
They have a lot of estate clearouts around here.
I sometimes go and find a gem or two.
Although my "finds" could be someone else's junk.

> And then of course it also fell to me to arrange FIL's funeral. It's
> actually later today. Should be a fine affair, the British Legion are
> involved so there will be the Union Jack on his coffin, four standard
> bearers, poppy wreaths and the last post. It also sounds like half of his
> village will be turning out to pay their last respects (as long as they
> don't all want to come to the wake ;-)

Sounds like he's gotten a right proper sendoff, thanks to you, Alayne.

> So after today, two time consuming events will be under my belt and I may
> get the chance to be here more often.
>
> I did consider leaving the ng after so long an absence because I haven't
> been able to commit to it, but I think you guys have got under my skin :-)

Good thing. You would be missed.

> Warm Hugs Midnight Blue
>
> Alayne

Thanks Alayne, and warm hugs back to the Blonde Bombshell.
J

"J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
news:46F078EC.B4CDC1A6@execulink.com...
> Alayne wrote:
>
>> "J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
>>
>> > Since this is an "I'm back" thread, seems appropriate to ask where
>> > you've
>> > been.
>> > Busy with the biker's gathering?
>> >
>> > And how are things going generally (update).
>> >
>> > And how about the internment plans for FIL? Is he still on ice?
>> > J
>> >
>> Hi J,
>>
>> Okay perhaps not a rosebush, how about a beautiful rose with many petals
>> that brings a person pleasure both through the aroma and the intricate
>> composition (eeh, that sounds grand!)
>>
>> Hmmm, how am I doing?
>
> Sounded good to me. ;-)
>
>> How long have you got!
>
> I've always got an ear for you.
>
>> School holidays were challenging to say the least. I'm having some
>> troubles
>> (almost daily) with daughter No. 2, two months off 13 and full of
>> attitude
>> that you wouldn't believe. She's been hanging round with a very
>> undesirable
>> character (who I've now banned completely from my property). No. 2 has
>> been
>> smoking/stealing/lying getting in trouble with the police, you name it,
>> she
>> pushes that button.
>
> Whoops ! Good thing you set some boundaries.
>
>> Kelly on the other hand is a complete god-send and it's
>> like having a second parent around. I know all kids go through this
>> phase
>> but it's the disrespectfulness that really drives me nuts.
>
> They know everything at that age (or think they do). BTDT.
>
>> It was also our Bike Rally two weeks ago, so was very busy with that.
>> 744
>> bikers through the gate, I don't know what we've raised for Woodgreen yet
>> still waiting for figures to come in. I also invited Headway (local
>> brain
>> injury charity) to come and raise funds too and I think they made quite a
>> bit too.
>
> Another success. That's wonderful !
>
>> I've also been busy clearing father in laws house, not a small task in
>> itself being four bedroomed and full top to tail with rubbish.
>
> One man's junk is another's errr..work.
> They have a lot of estate clearouts around here.
> I sometimes go and find a gem or two.
> Although my "finds" could be someone else's junk.
>
>> And then of course it also fell to me to arrange FIL's funeral. It's
>> actually later today. Should be a fine affair, the British Legion are
>> involved so there will be the Union Jack on his coffin, four standard
>> bearers, poppy wreaths and the last post. It also sounds like half of
>> his
>> village will be turning out to pay their last respects (as long as they
>> don't all want to come to the wake ;-)
>
> Sounds like he's gotten a right proper sendoff, thanks to you, Alayne.
>
>> So after today, two time consuming events will be under my belt and I may
>> get the chance to be here more often.
>>
>> I did consider leaving the ng after so long an absence because I haven't
>> been able to commit to it, but I think you guys have got under my skin
>> :-)
>
> Good thing. You would be missed.
>
>> Warm Hugs Midnight Blue
>>
>> Alayne
>
> Thanks Alayne, and warm hugs back to the Blonde Bombshell.
> J
>
Hello Midnight Blue,

Thanks for your post.

The funeral was really "special" with the British Legion yesterday and went
off without a hitch and with a good turnout too. Another irony in it all,
is that now FIL has been laid to rest, he will actually be at the new
cemetery for the official opening on Saturday (thanks to the Parish Council)
which I am sure he will smile at. No show by BIL though but that's just
added to his guilt trip,

Wish the day could have ended well but more "trouble at mill" as far as No.
2 is concerned, turns out that she and another scratched a lady's car and I
am footing the bill for half her excess. I may have had troubles with Kelly
at this age but I think she was just the practice run. It's at times like
this that I do miss Tony more than ever :-(

Warm Hugs

Alayne

Alayne wrote:

> Hello Midnight Blue,
>
> Thanks for your post.
>
> The funeral was really "special" with the British Legion yesterday and went
> off without a hitch and with a good turnout too. Another irony in it all,
> is that now FIL has been laid to rest, he will actually be at the new
> cemetery for the official opening on Saturday (thanks to the Parish Council)
> which I am sure he will smile at. No show by BIL though but that's just
> added to his guilt trip,
>
> Wish the day could have ended well but more "trouble at mill" as far as No.
> 2 is concerned, turns out that she and another scratched a lady's car and I
> am footing the bill for half her excess. I may have had troubles with Kelly
> at this age but I think she was just the practice run. It's at times like
> this that I do miss Tony more than ever :-(

Hello Alayne,
You did real good by your FIL. You honoured his request despite the many
glitches.
Yes, he would be smiling.

As to your BIL, well I hope there's a law where BIL and MIL cannot name you as
their caregiver without your permission. If not, I'd hightail it out of there.
Mediterranean, Australia, as far away as possible ;-)

About your daughter, I hope she grows out of it. I know quite a few who have
problems, even though there's 2 parents, so I don't know if Tony were there
would change her; however it would be someone close in whom you could confide
and commiserate with It's also possible, that with full family unit, things
might be different. It's hard to know. Pat yourself on back for dealing so well
with the kids on your own. It's not easy, I'm sure..

I'm torn between telling her to look into courses in ironworks and concrete
digging. She might need that..in prison..
or creating a naughty corner for her, so people can see it, right when they
enter the home. There's a single mother moving in nearby with 5 kids, age 9 to
15. (oh! oh!) If they're under control and I hear the solution, I'll sure let
you know.
Hugs
J

"J" <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote in message
news:46F17213.3B9C70E6@execulink.com...
> Alayne wrote:
>
>> Hello Midnight Blue,
>>
>> Thanks for your post.
>>
>> The funeral was really "special" with the British Legion yesterday and
>> went
>> off without a hitch and with a good turnout too. Another irony in it
>> all,
>> is that now FIL has been laid to rest, he will actually be at the new
>> cemetery for the official opening on Saturday (thanks to the Parish
>> Council)
>> which I am sure he will smile at. No show by BIL though but that's just
>> added to his guilt trip,
>>
>> Wish the day could have ended well but more "trouble at mill" as far as
>> No.
>> 2 is concerned, turns out that she and another scratched a lady's car and
>> I
>> am footing the bill for half her excess. I may have had troubles with
>> Kelly
>> at this age but I think she was just the practice run. It's at times
>> like
>> this that I do miss Tony more than ever :-(
>
> Hello Alayne,
> You did real good by your FIL. You honoured his request despite the many
> glitches.
> Yes, he would be smiling.
>
> As to your BIL, well I hope there's a law where BIL and MIL cannot name
> you as
> their caregiver without your permission. If not, I'd hightail it out of
> there.
> Mediterranean, Australia, as far away as possible ;-)
>
> About your daughter, I hope she grows out of it. I know quite a few who
> have
> problems, even though there's 2 parents, so I don't know if Tony were
> there
> would change her; however it would be someone close in whom you could
> confide
> and commiserate with It's also possible, that with full family unit,
> things
> might be different. It's hard to know. Pat yourself on back for dealing so
> well
> with the kids on your own. It's not easy, I'm sure..
>
> I'm torn between telling her to look into courses in ironworks and
> concrete
> digging. She might need that..in prison..
> or creating a naughty corner for her, so people can see it, right when
> they
> enter the home. There's a single mother moving in nearby with 5 kids, age
> 9 to
> 15. (oh! oh!) If they're under control and I hear the solution, I'll sure
> let
> you know.
> Hugs
> J
>
>
Actually I am quite proud of myself for the send off we gave FIL, although I
would put in a request that the next one I have to arrange does not
co-incide with school hols and our bike rally ;-)

As for BIL and MIL, I won't repeat what I think of them now but trust that
what goes around comes around. I'm a pretty forgiving person, but I can't
or rather won't forgive her lack of support to Tony or the girls when he was
in hospice. I have given her an inkling of what I think of her lately,
particularly when she was being ghoulish and viewed FIL's property, and
there is plenty more where that came from, but it serves no useful purpose
and doesn't affect a person so cold. One day she'll need me, she's in her
70's now and I just hope I stick to my resolve.

No. 2 is just going through a phase (or so I try and convince myself ;-) I
simply need the patience of a saint! And yep, you're right it could be
similar with 2 parents but there's this little chip that sits on my shoulder
:-)

Ut Oh, I so wish you well with your new neighbours - yikes!

Warm Hugs J

Alayne

">>
> Actually I am quite proud of myself for the send off we gave FIL, although
> I would put in a request that the next one I have to arrange does not
> co-incide with school hols and our bike rally ;-)

You set a great example for your kids, and I bet you can sleep at night.
>
> As for BIL and MIL, I won't repeat what I think of them now but trust that
> what goes around comes around. I'm a pretty forgiving person, but I can't
> or rather won't forgive her lack of support to Tony or the girls when he
> was in hospice. I have given her an inkling of what I think of her
> lately, particularly when she was being ghoulish and viewed FIL's
> property, and there is plenty more where that came from, but it serves no
> useful purpose and doesn't affect a person so cold. One day she'll need
> me, she's in her 70's now and I just hope I stick to my resolve.

I hope you do what is best for you.
>
> No. 2 is just going through a phase (or so I try and convince myself ;-) I
> simply need the patience of a saint! And yep, you're right it could be
> similar with 2 parents but there's this little chip that sits on my
> shoulder :-)
>
You are entitiled.

"xela56" <noaccount@nw.nl> wrote in message
news:efidnSwjfu2m9W_bnZ2dnUVZ_jGdnZ2d@comcast.com. ..
>
> ">>
>> Actually I am quite proud of myself for the send off we gave FIL,
>> although I would put in a request that the next one I have to arrange
>> does not co-incide with school hols and our bike rally ;-)
>
> You set a great example for your kids, and I bet you can sleep at night.
>>

Thank you, that means a lot and yes, I can sleep long and soundly each night
(and it's my cat that snores ;-)


>> As for BIL and MIL, I won't repeat what I think of them now but trust
>> that what goes around comes around. I'm a pretty forgiving person, but I
>> can't or rather won't forgive her lack of support to Tony or the girls
>> when he was in hospice. I have given her an inkling of what I think of
>> her lately, particularly when she was being ghoulish and viewed FIL's
>> property, and there is plenty more where that came from, but it serves no
>> useful purpose and doesn't affect a person so cold. One day she'll need
>> me, she's in her 70's now and I just hope I stick to my resolve.
>
> I hope you do what is best for you.

I just think it's a shame for her own sake that she is the way she is, a
little kindness and a little loving goes a long way. I have such happy
memories of my own grandparents, sadly my children will not with this nanny.
When she does honour us with her presence, my daughters disappear upstairs.

>>
>> No. 2 is just going through a phase (or so I try and convince myself ;-)
>> I simply need the patience of a saint! And yep, you're right it could be
>> similar with 2 parents but there's this little chip that sits on my
>> shoulder :-)
>>
> You are entitiled.
I know, but I truly wanted my children to have a "normal" childhood. My
eldest is only 15 and has already been to two funerals of both her father
and her grandfather. She displays an inner strength (which she may have got
from me ;-) and a need to help people. She's also a blinding star, I got a
call from her school the other week from her Chemistry tutor, telling me
that in 10 yrs of teaching she has never come across a child with such a
natural flair for chemistry and she really feels that she should take an A
level in the subject. The tutor is going to be advising on what sort of
careers that could lead to and Kelly seems quite taken with the idea of
working in labs at a hospital.

Warm Hugs

Alayne