Mom...

I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
"a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday morning.
She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and out of that
hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of morphine, so
she'll need a nurse there very frequently.

Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a few weeks.
`Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.

This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
--

·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
Laurie
((¸¸.·´ ..·´
-:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·

*~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*

Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
~Hawaiian proverb

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother, Laurie. I hope you can spend some
quality time with her when she is home from the hospital.
Gail
"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news:tkq1h.608$xw1.370@twister.nyroc.rr.com...
>I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
>the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
>Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
>Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
>blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
>screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
>tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
>"a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday
>morning. She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and
>out of that hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of
>morphine, so she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --
>
> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
> Laurie
> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>
> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>
> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
> ~Hawaiian proverb
>
>
>

Laurie,

I'm so sorry to hear your mother isn't doing well. My mother seems to
be in kind of the same situation: she entered hospice about a month
ago. I was am lucky to be able to take an LOA from work to go take
care of her....i hope that you'll be able to do the same. I think it
gives us time to take care of things and be there for other family
members.

I don't understand either why God wants my mother now any more than you
understand why He wants yours now, either. I've come to realize that
the world works in it's own time...
and just because we don't sometimes understand doesn't mean that there
isn't an answer.
I thought that i'd have my mother for many, many more years.....she's
always been the healthy one in the family until now.

Know my thoughts and prayers are with you, your mother and your
family....

Take care of you, too....

isabel


~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:
> I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
> the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
> Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
> Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
> blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
> screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
> tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
> "a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday morning.
> She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and out of that
> hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of morphine, so
> she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
> I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a few weeks.
> `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --
>
> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
> Laurie
> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>
> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>
> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
> ~Hawaiian proverb

"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news:tkq1h.608$xw1.370@twister.nyroc.rr.com...
>I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
>the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
>Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
>Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
>blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
>screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
>tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
>"a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday
>morning. She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and
>out of that hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of
>morphine, so she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --
>
> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
> Laurie
> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>
> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>
> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
> ~Hawaiian proverb
>
>
>
I'm really sorry to hear about your mum, enjoy your precious time together
as you can.

Warm Hugs

Alayne

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:

> I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
> the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
> Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
> Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
> blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
> screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
> tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
> "a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday morning.
> She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and out of that
> hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of morphine, so
> she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
> I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a few weeks.
> `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....

I'm so sorry, Laurie.
She's fought it long and hard and you're doing all the right things.
Our thoughts will be with you and you come vent here anytime you wish.
We'll be here caring. Let us know how it goes, k? And take care of you as well,
k?
Hugs
J

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:

> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
> I keep saying "not now, not now".

Years ago I visited the Grand Canyon. I stood on the rim and looked over
the vastness of it and pondered the almost unfathomable amount of time
it took to create it. At that moment, I realized that my soul was less
than a spec of dust in the scheme of the entire universe.

That moment was brought back to me when I lost my youngest daughter, a
vibrant, bright young woman, in a car accident. She was 21 with a
promising future. I, too wondered why G-d would take this child from
me. Then I realizes that I'm really not important enough for G-d to
single me out to snatch away my loved one. My daughter wasn't important
enough for G-d to want to "take her back".

Stuff happens. That's the way the world works. G-d and your faith are
there to comfort you when it does.

I wish you and your family the strength to get through this time.

Janet




--
Janet Wilder
Bad spelling. Bad punctuation
Good Friends. Good Life

I am sorry to hear about your mom Laurie.

--
Lynn


"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news:tkq1h.608$xw1.370@twister.nyroc.rr.com...
>I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
>the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
>Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
>Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
>blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
>screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
>tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
>"a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday
>morning. She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and
>out of that hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of
>morphine, so she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --
>
> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
> Laurie
> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>
> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>
> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
> ~Hawaiian proverb
>
>
>

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.

The "why" doesn't matter. Even if God took her to save the entire universe,
you wouldn't miss her any less.

--
"...by March 2000, President Clinton informed Congress he could no longer
certify that 'North Korea is not seeking to develop or acquire the capability
to enrich uranium.'"
<http://www.pbs.org/newshour/bb/asia/northkorea/nuclear.html>

I'm so sorry Laurie. I understand all the emotions you must be feeling and
the "whys" that are asked. My sister, Penny, who was a regular in here,
recently passed away.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Take care
Trish
*hugs*

Trish said...
> I'm so sorry Laurie. I understand all the emotions you must be feeling and
> the "whys" that are asked. My sister, Penny, who was a regular in here,
> recently passed away.
>
How are you all doing Trish?

--
Em

How I understand things is like this. God gives us chances to serve our
parents. When He thinks that we are not reciprocating our parents
affection equal to what is expected, God takes it into His own hands
and call them to Himself so that they can be served as they deserve.
The more pain in this world, the less miseries in after life. May our
parents be blessed to Heaven. Amen. My mother passed away a few weeks
back as well. Thats how life has to go on.......

Take care of ur family.

Atta.


Emily wrote:
> Trish said...
> > I'm so sorry Laurie. I understand all the emotions you must be feeling and
> > the "whys" that are asked. My sister, Penny, who was a regular in here,
> > recently passed away.
> >
> How are you all doing Trish?
>
> --
> Em

How I understand things is like this. God gives us chances to serve our
parents. When He thinks that we are not reciprocating our parents
affection equal to what is expected, God takes it into His own hands
and call them to Himself so that they can be served as they deserve.
The more pain in this world, the less miseries in after life. May our
parents be blessed to Heaven. Amen. My mother passed away a few weeks
back as well. Thats how life has to go on.......

Take care of ur family.

Atta.


Emily wrote:
> Trish said...
> > I'm so sorry Laurie. I understand all the emotions you must be feeling and
> > the "whys" that are asked. My sister, Penny, who was a regular in here,
> > recently passed away.
> >
> How are you all doing Trish?
>
> --
> Em

laurie

thoughts a prayers to you and yours

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:

> I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
> the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
> Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
> Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
> blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put a
> screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere he
> tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's probably
> "a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday morning.
> She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and out of that
> hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of morphine, so
> she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
> I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a few weeks.
> `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --
>
> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
> Laurie
> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>
> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>
> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
> ~Hawaiian proverb

> How are you all doing Trish?
>
> --
> Em
>

It's been a very difficult week for the entire family. Thank you for asking
Em. Keep us all in your prayers as we get through this week and the service
on Saturday.

Trish

Trish said...
> > How are you all doing Trish?
> >
>
> It's been a very difficult week for the entire family. Thank you for asking
> Em.

My pleasure. I mean - well you know what I mean...

> Keep us all in your prayers as we get through this week and the service
> on Saturday.

Of course.

Penny's death was expected and was to a large extent a relief. That
should make it easier. It doesn't.

{{{{{Hugs}}}}} to all of you.

--
Em

"Paul T. Holland" <pholland@bellatlantic.net> wrote in message
news:4547D19A.1EA152B4@bellatlantic.net...
> laurie
>
> thoughts a prayers to you and yours

Hello Paul , and everyone...

Just an update here. Mom is home. She is being taken care of by Hospice
now (16 hours a day). She's having 15 rounds of radiation, which started
two days ago. An ambulance picks her up and drops her off each day. The
radiation is being done (hopefully) to alleviate the pain in her back and
neck. I spoke w/her last night. She sounds very weak, but is quite
coherent. She's vomiting and has severe diarrhea from the radiation, but
she is hanging in there as best she can. Funny thing... well, kinda funny.
She was removed from the hospital night before last and Dad put her in a
nursing facility until Hospice could start. She called him at 2 a.m. that
night and told him the place smelled like sh!t and that she was leaving. He
tried calming her down and got off the phone with her. Not 20 minutes
later, a nurse called and said "your wife is dressed and is leaving by
taxi"! So... Dad went and got her. He says "she's in the driver's seat".
That's Mom... always the one to make the decision and stick with it!!

Thanks for all the good wishes and prayers. If you have asked for strength,
then it has paid off, cuz' Mom has the will!! That's for sure!

--

·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
Laurie
((¸¸.·´ ..·´
-:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·

*~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*

Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
~Hawaiian proverb


>
> ~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:
>
>> I don't post a lot in here b/c my mom has been fighting like hell to beat
>> the cancer. However, the Beast has finally won. I just got back from
>> Pittsburgh last night. I was there w/Dad and my brother flew up from
>> Florida. The Beast has mets to her spine and neck. She is also FULL of
>> blood clots. We found this out Friday after her oncologist tried to put
>> a
>> screen in her groin. He went to several different places and everywhere
>> he
>> tried to put it, he found clots. So, he told Dad and I that it's
>> probably
>> "a couple of months". Dad and I decided to tell her early Saturday
>> morning.
>> She says she's numb about it. All she wants is to get home and out of
>> that
>> hospital. Dad is going to set up hospice. Mom is A LOT of morphine, so
>> she'll need a nurse there very frequently.
>>
>> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
>> how
>> hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get
>> it.
>> I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a few
>> weeks.
>> `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>>
>> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
>> --
>>
>> ·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
>> ¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
>> Laurie
>> ((¸¸.·´ ..·´
>> -:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·
>>
>> *~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*
>>
>> Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
>> ~Hawaiian proverb
>

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:

> Hello Paul , and everyone...
>
> Just an update here. Mom is home. She is being taken care of by Hospice
> now (16 hours a day). She's having 15 rounds of radiation, which started
> two days ago. An ambulance picks her up and drops her off each day. The
> radiation is being done (hopefully) to alleviate the pain in her back and
> neck. I spoke w/her last night. She sounds very weak, but is quite
> coherent. She's vomiting and has severe diarrhea from the radiation, but
> she is hanging in there as best she can. Funny thing... well, kinda funny.
> She was removed from the hospital night before last and Dad put her in a
> nursing facility until Hospice could start. She called him at 2 a.m. that
> night and told him the place smelled like sh!t and that she was leaving. He
> tried calming her down and got off the phone with her. Not 20 minutes
> later, a nurse called and said "your wife is dressed and is leaving by
> taxi"! So... Dad went and got her. He says "she's in the driver's seat".
> That's Mom... always the one to make the decision and stick with it!!

Ah yes, Laurie,
That sounds like the mother I've seen you describe.
Tough and determined that it's got to be her way and nothing but the best.
I think hospice will make sure she doesn't get dehydrated from the diarrhea nad
hopefully she won't require as much morphine once the RT kicks in, although she
may be somewhat fatigued by the time you get there, but I'm hoping that the
timing will be perfect for you both to have lots of loving and laughing times
together luv.
Take care of you.
Hugs, Laurie
J

"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news:tkq1h.608$xw1.370@twister.nyroc.rr.com...

>
> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a while.
>
> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> --

I'm sorry, sweetie. I hope that your mother will be able to finish up any
business she has here on earth and that her passing will be an easy one.
Please know that we are thinking of you and that we are here for you when
you need us.

Pam S. who's cats are purring for your whole family

"tanada" <tanada@earthlink.net> wrote in message
news:Ipy3h.2898$L6.1708@newsread3.news.pas.earthli nk.net...
>
> "~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
> news:tkq1h.608$xw1.370@twister.nyroc.rr.com...
>
>>
>> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
>> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
>> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
>> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a
>> while.
>>
>> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
>> --
>
> I'm sorry, sweetie. I hope that your mother will be able to finish up any
> business she has here on earth and that her passing will be an easy one.
> Please know that we are thinking of you and that we are here for you when
> you need us.
>
> Pam S. who's cats are purring for your whole family

Pam!!! Long time no chit-chat! Thanks for the purrs. Mom is settling into
her routine at home. The radiation *IS* helping the pain dramatically, and
she isn't has nauseous as she was. Her best friend from the 8th grade came
for a visit last week. She was delighted to see her. She tires very
easily, and stays in bed a lot of the time. I'd say the only negative right
now is that she's waking up at 5 a.m., so my father is getting up then too.
That's a wee bit early for him!!

One day at a time....

--

·.·´¨ ¨)) -:¦:-
¸.·´ .·´¨¨))
Laurie
((¸¸.·´ ..·´
-:¦:- ((¸¸ ·.·

*~*LiveLoveLaugh, and hangin' in there!*~*

Paddle together, bail, paddle; paddle, bail; paddle towards the land.
~Hawaiian proverb

~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:

> "tanada" <tanada@earthlink.net> wrote in message
> >
> > "~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
> >
> >>
> >> Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter
> >> how hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't
> >> get it. I keep saying "not now, not now". I'll be flying back down in a
> >> few weeks. `Will probably take a family LOA at work so I can stay a
> >> while.
> >>
> >> This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through....
> >> --
> >
> > I'm sorry, sweetie. I hope that your mother will be able to finish up any
> > business she has here on earth and that her passing will be an easy one.
> > Please know that we are thinking of you and that we are here for you when
> > you need us.
> >
> > Pam S. who's cats are purring for your whole family
>
> Pam!!! Long time no chit-chat! Thanks for the purrs. Mom is settling into
> her routine at home. The radiation *IS* helping the pain dramatically, and
> she isn't has nauseous as she was. Her best friend from the 8th grade came
> for a visit last week. She was delighted to see her. She tires very
> easily, and stays in bed a lot of the time. I'd say the only negative right
> now is that she's waking up at 5 a.m., so my father is getting up then too.
> That's a wee bit early for him!!
>
> One day at a time....

Hi Laurie,
I'm glad to read that the RT's helping.
Once you're there, I imagine your father will be able to get a bit more sleep,
at one time or another.
Keep in touch, luv.
J

"~*LiveLoveLaugh*~" <Nobody@myjunkaddy.com> wrote in message
news%H3h.4209$zB4.3895@twister.nyroc.rr.com...
>>
>> I'm sorry, sweetie. I hope that your mother will be able to finish up
>> any business she has here on earth and that her passing will be an easy
>> one. Please know that we are thinking of you and that we are here for you
>> when you need us.
>>
>> Pam S. who's cats are purring for your whole family
>
> Pam!!! Long time no chit-chat! Thanks for the purrs. Mom is settling
> into her routine at home. The radiation *IS* helping the pain
> dramatically, and she isn't has nauseous as she was. Her best friend from
> the 8th grade came for a visit last week. She was delighted to see her.
> She tires very easily, and stays in bed a lot of the time. I'd say the
> only negative right now is that she's waking up at 5 a.m., so my father is
> getting up then too. That's a wee bit early for him!!
>
> One day at a time....
>

Glad that your mom's friends are rallying around, it helps to know that
you're not alone. I hope that your dad is able to get more sleep soon.
I'll ask the owners to purr for it as well as for your mom.

Pam S.

Janet~

I've spent many, many days thinking about your post....and after many
tears, i've come to the conclusion that you may be right about this. I
have just passed the 'bargining with God'
stage concerning my mother...and i've come to believe that your post
has helped me much more than you can imagine to put things in
perspective for me. I have been quite angry at God, my dad, the stupid
squirrel who runs out in front of my car and anyone else i can blame
for this cancer that is happening to my mother. You are right: things
happen, and God is your support system for when it does. I'm currently
with my mother taking care of her.....i think now that i've put my
anger in check, i can be more of a support system for her to help her
when she needs me the most.

Thank you for your insight and for sharing about your daughter. I
cannot even begin to imagine how difficult it must be to loose a child.
Watching my mother slowly slip away from me is breaking my heart....

Bless you............isabel


Janet Wilder wrote:
> ~*LiveLoveLaugh*~ wrote:
>
> > Of course my heart is breaking into a million little pieces. No matter how
> > hard I try to understand why God would want my mom now, I just don't get it.
> > I keep saying "not now, not now".
>
> Years ago I visited the Grand Canyon. I stood on the rim and looked over
> the vastness of it and pondered the almost unfathomable amount of time
> it took to create it. At that moment, I realized that my soul was less
> than a spec of dust in the scheme of the entire universe.
>
> That moment was brought back to me when I lost my youngest daughter, a
> vibrant, bright young woman, in a car accident. She was 21 with a
> promising future. I, too wondered why G-d would take this child from
> me. Then I realizes that I'm really not important enough for G-d to
> single me out to snatch away my loved one. My daughter wasn't important
> enough for G-d to want to "take her back".
>
> Stuff happens. That's the way the world works. G-d and your faith are
> there to comfort you when it does.
>
> I wish you and your family the strength to get through this time.
>
> Janet
>
>
>
>
> --
> Janet Wilder
> Bad spelling. Bad punctuation
> Good Friends. Good Life