Ping Isi

How are you doing?
Thinking of you.
J

On Feb 23, 10:47 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> How are you doing?
> Thinking of you.
> J

Hi J,

I am doing ok thanks - sometimes up sometimes down, but overall
feeling stronger, pain is still decreasing and weaning myself off the
codeine pills. Still taking the herbs - are they working who knows!
time will tell, if i'm still here in ten years time lol. On Thursday
I felt well, it was wonderful, paid for it Friday and Saturday!

As the pain is getting less I am staying away from the medics, as I
find it demoralising to focus too much of my 'up energy' time on my
condition, when I don't have energy, I sleep, I tend to sleep a lot
these days.

I have been reading the journal Penny kept as a blog what a wonderful
lady, so brave - also very frightening at the end, for me as I will
have to do that journey alone it make me feel a little lost and I
worry about palliative care here, there is one centre in the country
as far as I can make out, and it's 4 hour cab ride away then the same
to get back home so I think it's too far for the last days.

All the best,
be well :-)
isi

On Feb 25, islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> I am doing ok thanks - sometimes up sometimes down, but overall
> feeling stronger, pain is still decreasing and weaning myself off the
> codeine pills. Still taking the herbs - are they working who knows!
> time will tell, if i'm still here in ten years time lol. On Thursday
> I felt well, it was wonderful, paid for it Friday and Saturday!
>
> As the pain is getting less I am staying away from the medics, as I
> find it demoralising to focus too much of my 'up energy' time on my
> condition, when I don't have energy, I sleep, I tend to sleep a lot
> these days.
>
> I have been reading the journal Penny kept as a blog what a wonderful
> lady, so brave - also very frightening at the end, for me as I will
> have to do that journey alone it make me feel a little lost and I
> worry about palliative care here, there is one centre in the country
> as far as I can make out, and it's 4 hour cab ride away then the same
> to get back home so I think it's too far for the last days.

Hello isi,
Thanks for the update and your thoughts.
We don't know how things will go for you, but I sure hope you have someone
(or a few) nearby who can care for you and see to any medications, as
required; not 4 hours away.

May your days be blessed with warm and caring people, things you love to
do, music or talk which you enjoy and many other pleasures of life.

cyberhugs from me to you.
J

On Feb 25, 8:54 pm, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> On Feb 25, islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote:
>
>
>
>
>
> > I am doing ok thanks - sometimes up sometimes down, but overall
> > feeling stronger, pain is still decreasing and weaning myself off the
> > codeine pills. Still taking the herbs - are they working who knows!
> > time will tell, if i'm still here in ten years time lol. On Thursday
> > I felt well, it was wonderful, paid for it Friday and Saturday!
>
> > As the pain is getting less I am staying away from the medics, as I
> > find it demoralising to focus too much of my 'up energy' time on my
> > condition, when I don't have energy, I sleep, I tend to sleep a lot
> > these days.
>
> > I have been reading the journal Penny kept as a blog what a wonderful
> > lady, so brave - also very frightening at the end, for me as I will
> > have to do that journey alone it make me feel a little lost and I
> > worry about palliative care here, there is one centre in the country
> > as far as I can make out, and it's 4 hour cab ride away then the same
> > to get back home so I think it's too far for the last days.
>
> Hello isi,
> Thanks for the update and your thoughts.
> We don't know how things will go for you, but I sure hope you have someone
> (or a few) nearby who can care for you and see to any medications, as
> required; not 4 hours away.
>
> May your days be blessed with warm and caring people, things you love to
> do, music or talk which you enjoy and many other pleasures of life.
>
> cyberhugs from me to you.
> J- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

J

Thank you for you works of kindness they mean so much.
(((hugs)))
isi

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> On Feb 23, 10:47 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> > How are you doing?
> > Thinking of you.
> > J
>
> I am doing ok thanks - sometimes up sometimes down, but overall
> feeling stronger, pain is still decreasing and weaning myself off the
> codeine pills. Still taking the herbs - are they working who knows!
> time will tell, if i'm still here in ten years time lol. On Thursday
> I felt well, it was wonderful, paid for it Friday and Saturday!
>
> As the pain is getting less I am staying away from the medics, as I
> find it demoralising to focus too much of my 'up energy' time on my
> condition, when I don't have energy, I sleep, I tend to sleep a lot
> these days.
>
> I have been reading the journal Penny kept as a blog what a wonderful
> lady, so brave - also very frightening at the end, for me as I will
> have to do that journey alone it make me feel a little lost and I
> worry about palliative care here, there is one centre in the country
> as far as I can make out, and it's 4 hour cab ride away then the same
> to get back home so I think it's too far for the last days.

How's it going isi?
It's been a while since your last update.
** hugs ***
J

On Feb 23, 10:47 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> How are you doing?
> Thinking of you.
> J

Hi J

Thanks for your thoughts:-) I am plodding on thanks - no change in my
physical self as far as I can tell. Feel really down this week, so
been in my bed too much I think - reading books at an alarming rate,
my escape from the end of winter blues perhaps. I am very tired and
only comfortable in bed much nicer than going outside in the cold
streets. I ought to be out there doing things, but not sure what to
do.
Can't write much now sorry - I just feel down anti-depressents don't
agree with me so can't go down that road - have to try and motivate
myself. Bring on the Spring :-)
This is a crazy situation I wake each day and thank Jesus that I am
alive, do my morning things then head back to bed! I am physically
more comfortable in bed than anywhere else, but my condition is not so
bad that I HAVE to stay in bed I could go out and do things, just have
trouble getting myself together. Loss of dreams - so what should I do
now I ask myself, as yet have not come up with an answer. Sorry if
this is whining, just the way it is right now

hugs
isi

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> On March 15th,
> Thanks for your thoughts:-) I am plodding on thanks - no change in my
> physical self as far as I can tell. Feel really down this week, so
> been in my bed too much I think - reading books at an alarming rate,
> my escape from the end of winter blues perhaps. I am very tired and
> only comfortable in bed much nicer than going outside in the cold
> streets. I ought to be out there doing things, but not sure what to
> do.
> Can't write much now sorry - I just feel down anti-depressents don't
> agree with me so can't go down that road - have to try and motivate
> myself. Bring on the Spring :-)
> This is a crazy situation I wake each day and thank Jesus that I am
> alive, do my morning things then head back to bed! I am physically
> more comfortable in bed than anywhere else, but my condition is not so
> bad that I HAVE to stay in bed I could go out and do things, just have
> trouble getting myself together. Loss of dreams - so what should I do
> now I ask myself, as yet have not come up with an answer. Sorry if
> this is whining, just the way it is right now
>
> hugs
> isi

Hello isi. Thank you for the hugs.
Everyone here is dreaming of Spring. We get our hopes up with warming and
then it snows again and all the streets go quiet. Cabin fever is setting
in here as well.

Does it get hot where you are? I'm looking forward to showering outdoors
with the hose.
It's wonderful drying outdoors in the sun.

I've seen your dream, in my "mind's eye" (different versions of) and it
looked oh so good.
Sometimes when a person’s dream ends; another door opens.
Maybe while reading those books, and lying in bed, looking outside,
another one will come to you..
I love the scent and feel of catnip. One person's weed is someone else's
mint.
hmmm...I wonder if I made a cream out of that, what would happen.
If I disappear, it might be because I was attacked by a "gang of marauding
felines".
Don't mind me, I'm rambling.

I hope you find a new dream to explore once the nice weather comes.
Hugs
J

On Mar 19, 12:27 pm, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote:
> > On March 15th,
> > Thanks for your thoughts:-) I am plodding on thanks - no change in my
> > physical self as far as I can tell. Feel really down this week, so
> > been in my bed too much I think - reading books at an alarming rate,
> > my escape from the end of winter blues perhaps. I am very tired and
> > only comfortable in bed much nicer than going outside in the cold
> > streets. I ought to be out there doing things, but not sure what to
> > do.
> > Can't write much now sorry - I just feel down anti-depressents don't
> > agree with me so can't go down that road - have to try and motivate
> > myself. Bring on the Spring :-)
> > This is a crazy situation I wake each day and thank Jesus that I am
> > alive, do my morning things then head back to bed! I am physically
> > more comfortable in bed than anywhere else, but my condition is not so
> > bad that I HAVE to stay in bed I could go out and do things, just have
> > trouble getting myself together. Loss of dreams - so what should I do
> > now I ask myself, as yet have not come up with an answer. Sorry if
> > this is whining, just the way it is right now
>
> > hugs
> > isi
>
> Hello isi. Thank you for the hugs.
> Everyone here is dreaming of Spring. We get our hopes up with warming and
> then it snows again and all the streets go quiet. Cabin fever is setting
> in here as well.
>
> Does it get hot where you are? I'm looking forward to showering outdoors
> with the hose.
> It's wonderful drying outdoors in the sun.
>
> I've seen your dream, in my "mind's eye" (different versions of) and it
> looked oh so good.
> Sometimes when a person's dream ends; another door opens.
> Maybe while reading those books, and lying in bed, looking outside,
> another one will come to you..
> I love the scent and feel of catnip. One person's weed is someone else's
> mint.
> hmmm...I wonder if I made a cream out of that, what would happen.
> If I disappear, it might be because I was attacked by a "gang of marauding
> felines".
> Don't mind me, I'm rambling.
>
> I hope you find a new dream to explore once the nice weather comes.
> Hugs
> J- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -
Hi J

Spring has arrived at last the weather just turned and it's 60 degrees
outside now, hope it stays. Got myself out for a walk, the first in
months, a warm breeze, fish swimming in the river, the blossom in many
trees, sun warm on my face, it was a wonderful walk and lifted my
soul.
It gets very hot here in the summer so I am still thinking of perhaps
looking for a home with a garden, to be able to sit outside with the
trees and birds. It's just hard to get it all together when my energy
is so low. Currently I live in an apartment it's claustrophobic I am
not used to being without a garden.

Life is made of spirals some go up, some go down, the trick to
happiness is to keep riding the rising spiral, sometimes like the last
time I wrote I had been tossed off and landed on a spiral heading
down, hopefully that has now changed.

Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf' because
I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I am able to
function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and because of
this I have been accused of - what???

This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth as
the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel almost
guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
slowly as I do tire easily...

I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
reason to celebrate.

Another reason to celebrate is that my pain is now controlled thanks
to codeine and my helpful doctor, he would have given me morphine but
I don't think I need that yet. This has released my worry of the end
stages and increased my confidence that I will be able to exit pain
free, as you know my greatest fear is pain. In April I will have an x-
ray or scan to see what's going on.

Lots of feral cats over here so if you make your cream and market it
here, it would have to come with a warning lol

Thanks for the chuckle
Blessings and Hugs
isi

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> J wrote:
> > I love the scent and feel of catnip. One person's weed is someone else's
> > mint.
> > hmmm...I wonder if I made a cream out of that, what would happen.
> ><snip>
>
> Spring has arrived at last the weather just turned and it's 60 degrees
> outside now, hope it stays. Got myself out for a walk, the first in
> months, a warm breeze, fish swimming in the river, the blossom in many
> trees, sun warm on my face, it was a wonderful walk and lifted my
> soul.
> It gets very hot here in the summer so I am still thinking of perhaps
> looking for a home with a garden, to be able to sit outside with the
> trees and birds. It's just hard to get it all together when my energy
> is so low. Currently I live in an apartment it's claustrophobic I am
> not used to being without a garden.
>
> Life is made of spirals some go up, some go down, the trick to
> happiness is to keep riding the rising spiral, sometimes like the last
> time I wrote I had been tossed off and landed on a spiral heading
> down, hopefully that has now changed.
>
> Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf' because
> I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I am able to
> function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and because of
> this I have been accused of - what???
>
> This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
> tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
> What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth as
> the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> slowly as I do tire easily...
>
> I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> reason to celebrate.
>
> Another reason to celebrate is that my pain is now controlled thanks
> to codeine and my helpful doctor, he would have given me morphine but
> I don't think I need that yet. This has released my worry of the end
> stages and increased my confidence that I will be able to exit pain
> free, as you know my greatest fear is pain. In April I will have an x-
> ray or scan to see what's going on.
>
> Lots of feral cats over here so if you make your cream and market it
> here, it would have to come with a warning lol

A neighbor tore one plant out last summer (this side of the fence). I think I'll
steal his veggie this year (this side of the fence). <g>

A house with a verandah, for sitting out, but then I spoil the dream with
practicalities. like what happens to the house after you pass away. "Modest"
homes, in estate sales, are "steals".

I'm happy for you, isi that Spring has arrived. We're experiencing a blast of
winter again.

Have your pathology report printed on some colorful summer t-shirts? Or on the
"butt" of your shorts?
J

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote in
news:1174328195.641823.9230@l75g2000hse.googlegrou ps.com:
> Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf' because
> I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I am able to
> function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and because of
> this I have been accused of - what???
>
> This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
> tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
> What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth as
> the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> slowly as I do tire easily...
>
> I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> reason to celebrate.

> Blessings and Hugs
> isi
>
isi,

I hope it is just someone who didn't know what to say or how to say it &
it just came out badly. That person may be kicking self now?

Surviving is indeed a reason for celebration. And springtime a time for
renewal. I love it when the birds come back in great numbers & there's
chirping & singing. Lots of noise, but joyful, like they're glad to be
back. I guess I should fill the feeder. Do you have a bird feeder? We
enjoy sitting at the breakfast table & watching. There's a particular
tree I call the bird tree where they wait their turns at the feeder -
hundreds of birds. You can really tell that's what they're doing!


Happy Spring, isi!
Fig

On Mar 20, 9:48 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote:
> > J wrote:
> > > I love the scent and feel of catnip. One person's weed is someone else's
> > > mint.
> > > hmmm...I wonder if I made a cream out of that, what would happen.
> > ><snip>
>
> > Spring has arrived at last the weather just turned and it's 60 degrees
> > outside now, hope it stays. Got myself out for a walk, the first in
> > months, a warm breeze, fish swimming in the river, the blossom in many
> > trees, sun warm on my face, it was a wonderful walk and lifted my
> > soul.
> > It gets very hot here in the summer so I am still thinking of perhaps
> > looking for a home with a garden, to be able to sit outside with the
> > trees and birds. It's just hard to get it all together when my energy
> > is so low. Currently I live in an apartment it's claustrophobic I am
> > not used to being without a garden.
>
> > Life is made of spirals some go up, some go down, the trick to
> > happiness is to keep riding the rising spiral, sometimes like the last
> > time I wrote I had been tossed off and landed on a spiral heading
> > down, hopefully that has now changed.
>
> > Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf' because
> > I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I am able to
> > function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and because of
> > this I have been accused of - what???
>
> > This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
> > tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
> > What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth as
> > the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> > guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> > slowly as I do tire easily...
>
> > I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> > are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> > people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> > they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> > should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> > 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> > feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> > reason to celebrate.
>
> > Another reason to celebrate is that my pain is now controlled thanks
> > to codeine and my helpful doctor, he would have given me morphine but
> > I don't think I need that yet. This has released my worry of the end
> > stages and increased my confidence that I will be able to exit pain
> > free, as you know my greatest fear is pain. In April I will have an x-
> > ray or scan to see what's going on.
>
> > Lots of feral cats over here so if you make your cream and market it
> > here, it would have to come with a warning lol
>
> A neighbor tore one plant out last summer (this side of the fence). I think I'll
> steal his veggie this year (this side of the fence). <g>
>
> A house with a verandah, for sitting out, but then I spoil the dream with
> practicalities. like what happens to the house after you pass away. "Modest"
> homes, in estate sales, are "steals".
>
> I'm happy for you, isi that Spring has arrived. We're experiencing a blast of
> winter again.
>
> Have your pathology report printed on some colorful summer t-shirts? Or on the
> "butt" of your shorts?
> J- Hide quoted text -
>

Just found this post again I thought it had vanished. You go get
those veggies J LOL

Winter came back again but it was great to taste spring for a couple
of days, now it's back into the thermals and heating at full blast.

Yes a house with a veranda would be wonderful, when I am gone I am
gone I don't have any family so don't have to think resale value, just
have to ensure that I have enough to live on for the rest of my days
however long that may be and can cope with the garden ummm

Good idea about the T shirt and printing thing - still I am over it
now.

all the best
isi

On Mar 20, 3:06 pm, Figgertoes <m...@privacy.net> wrote:
> islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote innews:1174328195.641823.9230@l75g2000hse.googlegr oups.com:
>
>
>
>
>
> > Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf' because
> > I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I am able to
> > function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and because of
> > this I have been accused of - what???
>
> > This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
> > tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
> > What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth as
> > the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> > guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> > slowly as I do tire easily...
>
> > I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> > are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> > people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> > they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> > should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> > 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> > feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> > reason to celebrate.
> > Blessings and Hugs
> > isi
>
> isi,
>
> I hope it is just someone who didn't know what to say or how to say it &
> it just came out badly. That person may be kicking self now?
>
> Surviving is indeed a reason for celebration. And springtime a time for
> renewal. I love it when the birds come back in great numbers & there's
> chirping & singing. Lots of noise, but joyful, like they're glad to be
> back. I guess I should fill the feeder. Do you have a bird feeder? We
> enjoy sitting at the breakfast table & watching. There's a particular
> tree I call the bird tree where they wait their turns at the feeder -
> hundreds of birds. You can really tell that's what they're doing!
>
> Happy Spring, isi!
> Fig- Hide quoted text -
>


Hi Fig,

I don't know if the person thought before they said their silly remark
or not, perhaps not, this persone seems to be one of those people who
always have to say someting about anything. Anyway I was in the wrong
to let his remark get to me.

Spring came and went now awaiting it's return - soon I hope :-)

My mother had a bird tree in her garden, all the birds would wait
twice a day for her to go out and fill the feeders. I will do that if
I manage to find a house with a tree. I love to watch birds they are
so funny and it's so peaceful just to watch them soar and ride the
wind. My nickname when I was a kid was wingflapper

Happy Spring to you too Fig

isi

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote in
news:1174758854.130813.236530@l77g2000hsb.googlegr oups.com:

> On Mar 20, 3:06 pm, Figgertoes <m...@privacy.net> wrote:
>> islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote
>> innews:1174328195.641823.9230@l75g2000hse.googlegr oups.com:
>>
>>
>>
>>
>>
>> > Someone told me that I am like the little boy who cried 'wolf'
>> > because I am not dead yet! Still alive and not doing too badly, I
>> > am able to function, I do employ some help for the heavy chores and
>> > because of this I have been accused of - what???
>>
>> > This has really disturbed me I am a very straight person and don't
>> > tell lies. Because I am not dead yet, I am accused of crying wolf!
>> > What am I supposed to do die just to prove that I spoke the truth
>> > as the doctors told it to me. This is crazy it makes me feel
>> > almost guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about
>> > slowly, very slowly as I do tire easily...
>>
>> > I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like
>> > they
>> > are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I
>> > think people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in
>> > shock and they are also in shock, then many people and turn away.
>> > I hate this I should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since
>> > diagnosis and my 13 months prognosis does not expire until August,
>> > then if I am still feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to
>> > me surviving is a reason to celebrate.
>> > Blessings and Hugs
>> > isi
>>
>> isi,
>>
>> I hope it is just someone who didn't know what to say or how to say
>> it & it just came out badly. That person may be kicking self now?
>>
>> Surviving is indeed a reason for celebration. And springtime a time
>> for renewal. I love it when the birds come back in great numbers &
>> there's chirping & singing. Lots of noise, but joyful, like they're
>> glad to be back. I guess I should fill the feeder. Do you have a
>> bird feeder? We enjoy sitting at the breakfast table & watching.
>> There's a particular tree I call the bird tree where they wait their
>> turns at the feeder - hundreds of birds. You can really tell that's
>> what they're doing!
>>
>> Happy Spring, isi!
>> Fig- Hide quoted text -
>>
>
>
> Hi Fig,
>
> I don't know if the person thought before they said their silly remark
> or not, perhaps not, this persone seems to be one of those people who
> always have to say someting about anything. Anyway I was in the wrong
> to let his remark get to me.
>
> Spring came and went now awaiting it's return - soon I hope :-)
>
> My mother had a bird tree in her garden, all the birds would wait
> twice a day for her to go out and fill the feeders. I will do that if
> I manage to find a house with a tree. I love to watch birds they are
> so funny and it's so peaceful just to watch them soar and ride the
> wind. My nickname when I was a kid was wingflapper
>
> Happy Spring to you too Fig
>
> isi
>
Thank you, isi. I hope you find that house. Our spring comes/goes too.
Today should be good for a little bike ride.

Fig

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> > > It gets very hot here in the summer so I am still thinking of perhaps
> > > looking for a home with a garden, to be able to sit outside with the
> > > trees and birds. It's just hard to get it all together when my energy
> > > is so low. Currently I live in an apartment it's claustrophobic I am
> > > not used to being without a garden.
> >
> > > Life is made of spirals some go up, some go down, the trick to
> > > happiness is to keep riding the rising spiral, sometimes like the last
> > > time I wrote I had been tossed off and landed on a spiral heading
> > > down, hopefully that has now changed.
> >
> > > This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> > > guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> > > slowly as I do tire easily...
> >
> > > I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> > > are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> > > people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> > > they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> > > should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> > > 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> > > feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> > > reason to celebrate.
> >
> > > Another reason to celebrate is that my pain is now controlled thanks
> > > to codeine and my helpful doctor, he would have given me morphine but
> > > I don't think I need that yet. This has released my worry of the end
> > > stages and increased my confidence that I will be able to exit pain
> > > free, as you know my greatest fear is pain. In April I will have an x-
> > > ray or scan to see what's going on.
> >
> > > Lots of feral cats over here so if you make your cream and market it
> > > here, it would have to come with a warning lol
> >
> > A neighbor tore one plant out last summer (this side of the fence). I think I'll
> > steal his veggie this year (this side of the fence). <g>
> >
> > A house with a verandah, for sitting out, but then I spoil the dream with
> > practicalities. like what happens to the house after you pass away. "Modest"
> > homes, in estate sales, are "steals".
> >
> > I'm happy for you, isi that Spring has arrived. We're experiencing a blast of
> > winter again.
>
> Just found this post again I thought it had vanished. You go get
> those veggies J LOL
>
> Winter came back again but it was great to taste spring for a couple
> of days, now it's back into the thermals and heating at full blast.
>
> Yes a house with a veranda would be wonderful, when I am gone I am
> gone I don't have any family so don't have to think resale value, just
> have to ensure that I have enough to live on for the rest of my days
> however long that may be and can cope with the garden ummm

Hello isi,
It's taken me so long to reply that our weather has changed 3 times.. lol

I'll take it under advisement about the veggies - Thanks.

How does one buy a home in your country? Walk around and look for some or read
advertisements or word of mouth or agency? And what type of garden are you wanting,
flowers, shrubs etc or vegetable and fruit as well? I'm just curious.

Also just sharing that there's other types of homes.

Don't these look lovely ?
http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/houses.htm Some are transportable, so the owner pays
a rental fee, as he/she travels or stops somewhere and does not have to pay property
taxes.

The top one was featured on TV a few weeks ago and we were given a tour of the home. A
writer lives in one with his cat. The show was featuring "tiny homes that work".

Another home that was featured was built in Greenwich Village, New York City (where
space is hard to find), by a couple who paid for an alleyway, between 2 buildings and
built a compact but roomy 2-story home, with the master and ensuite on the 2nd floor
and a large patio at the back with garden, surrounded by a rock wall and a beautiful
view. Lots of sunshine and room for entertaining visitors. If I recall correctly
there was an extra room for visitors. I think it was a couple and one child. They
had money for better/bigger (elsewhere) but wanted to stay in the same neighborhood
where they had friends.

The other one was the skinniest home in the world, but I forget the details.

Let us know how your home search goes and how you're doing, please.
Hugs to isi,
J

On Mar 26, 11:53 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
> islavision2...@yahoo.com wrote:
> > > > It gets very hot here in the summer so I am still thinking of perhaps
> > > > looking for a home with a garden, to be able to sit outside with the
> > > > trees and birds. It's just hard to get it all together when my energy
> > > > is so low. Currently I live in an apartment it's claustrophobic I am
> > > > not used to being without a garden.
>
> > > > Life is made of spirals some go up, some go down, the trick to
> > > > happiness is to keep riding the rising spiral, sometimes like the last
> > > > time I wrote I had been tossed off and landed on a spiral heading
> > > > down, hopefully that has now changed.
>
> > > > This is crazy it makes me feel almost
> > > > guilty for staying alive and able to walk and get about slowly, very
> > > > slowly as I do tire easily...
>
> > > > I wonder if this is a common phenomena for people who look like they
> > > > are going to outlive their original prognosis it's bizarre. I think
> > > > people offer help and stuff in the beginning when one is in shock and
> > > > they are also in shock, then many people and turn away. I hate this I
> > > > should not feel guilty for surviving 8 months since diagnosis and my
> > > > 13 months prognosis does not expire until August, then if I am still
> > > > feeling ok I will feel like having a party - to me surviving is a
> > > > reason to celebrate.
>
> > > > Another reason to celebrate is that my pain is now controlled thanks
> > > > to codeine and my helpful doctor, he would have given me morphine but
> > > > I don't think I need that yet. This has released my worry of the end
> > > > stages and increased my confidence that I will be able to exit pain
> > > > free, as you know my greatest fear is pain. In April I will have an x-
> > > > ray or scan to see what's going on.
>
> > > > Lots of feral cats over here so if you make your cream and market it
> > > > here, it would have to come with a warning lol
>
> > > A neighbor tore one plant out last summer (this side of the fence). I think I'll
> > > steal his veggie this year (this side of the fence). <g>
>
> > > A house with a verandah, for sitting out, but then I spoil the dream with
> > > practicalities. like what happens to the house after you pass away. "Modest"
> > > homes, in estate sales, are "steals".
>
> > > I'm happy for you, isi that Spring has arrived. We're experiencing a blast of
> > > winter again.
>
> > Just found this post again I thought it had vanished. You go get
> > those veggies J LOL
>
> > Winter came back again but it was great to taste spring for a couple
> > of days, now it's back into the thermals and heating at full blast.
>
> > Yes a house with a veranda would be wonderful, when I am gone I am
> > gone I don't have any family so don't have to think resale value, just
> > have to ensure that I have enough to live on for the rest of my days
> > however long that may be and can cope with the garden ummm
>
> Hello isi,
> It's taken me so long to reply that our weather has changed 3 times.. lol
>
> I'll take it under advisement about the veggies - Thanks.
>
> How does one buy a home in your country? Walk around and look for some or read
> advertisements or word of mouth or agency? And what type of garden are you wanting,
> flowers, shrubs etc or vegetable and fruit as well? I'm just curious.
>
> Also just sharing that there's other types of homes.
>
> Don't these look lovely ?http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/houses.htm Some are transportable, so the owner pays
> a rental fee, as he/she travels or stops somewhere and does not have to pay property
> taxes.
>
> The top one was featured on TV a few weeks ago and we were given a tour of the home. A
> writer lives in one with his cat. The show was featuring "tiny homes that work".
>
> Another home that was featured was built in Greenwich Village, New York City (where
> space is hard to find), by a couple who paid for an alleyway, between 2 buildings and
> built a compact but roomy 2-story home, with the master and ensuite on the 2nd floor
> and a large patio at the back with garden, surrounded by a rock wall and a beautiful
> view. Lots of sunshine and room for entertaining visitors. If I recall correctly
> there was an extra room for visitors. I think it was a couple and one child. They
> had money for better/bigger (elsewhere) but wanted to stay in the same neighborhood
> where they had friends.
>
> The other one was the skinniest home in the world, but I forget the details.
>
> Let us know how your home search goes and how you're doing, please.
> Hugs to isi,
> J- Hide quoted text -

Hi J

I think the tumbleweedhouses are so cute. Make a great little summer
retreat.

Buying a home here is much the same as anywhere, ads and agents
carefully avoiding sharks lots of them around. Word of mouth is best
as it cuts out agents fees but that difficult when one does not speak
the language. I don't think I will ever learn, my concentration is
kaput and I go out so rarely that I don't often speak to anyone to
practice.

It's very difficult for me to find a house as I tire so easily, by the
time I get up eat breakfast wash up and do a bit of cleaning, have a
shower, all I feel like doing is sleeping again. My hope is that when
the weather gets a little warmer I will have more available energy to
find my home. I have to move out of this place before next winter as
there is too much wood smoke here in town and it hinders my breathing,
don't think I could survive another winter of wood smoke.

Most houses have vines and orchards which I will keep, also a vegie
patch - the rest, a patio and low maintainence, shrubs and roses, it's
difficult to plan a garden as they take a long time to grow. I just
hope I can find help with the heavy work as there is no way I can tend
it fully myself. But what a joy to wander outside in the morning in
my slippers, with a cup of coffee. Bliss.

I find that since my diagnosis it's difficult to plan anything as I
don't know when my end date will arrive, I know, none of us do know
that but we usually think we are immortal until told otherwise, it's
that feeling of 'I will live forever' that goes when told you have
stage IV cancer. If I make it past the July deadline perhaps I will
feel immortal once again or at least have more confidence that I am
not going to drop at any moment.

Perhaps I will forget about trying to keep this place clean and just
go house hunting instead. lol
What a joy it would be not to have party walls, floors and ceilings,
it becomes very embarrassing when I am having heavy coughing fits, I
am sure I am disturbing the neighbours in the night.

Must find a house so I can cough in peace lol

Take care and thanks for caring, hugs

isi :-)

islavision2004@yahoo.com wrote:

> On Mar 26, 11:53 am, J <nexsw@nvalid,anon> wrote:
>
> > How does one buy a home in your country? Walk around and look for some or read
> > advertisements or word of mouth or agency? And what type of garden are you wanting,
> > flowers, shrubs etc or vegetable and fruit as well? I'm just curious.
> >
> > Also just sharing that there's other types of homes.
> >
> > Don't these look lovely ?http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/houses.htm Some are transportable, so the owner pays
> > a rental fee, as he/she travels or stops somewhere and does not have to pay property
> > taxes.
> >
> > The top one was featured on TV a few weeks ago and we were given a tour of the home. A
> > writer lives in one with his cat. The show was featuring "tiny homes that work".
> >
> > Another home that was <snipped>
> >
> > Let us know how your home search goes and how you're doing, please.
> > Hugs to isi,
> > J
>
> Hi J
>
> I think the tumbleweedhouses are so cute. Make a great little summer
> retreat.
>
> Buying a home here is much the same as anywhere, ads and agents
> carefully avoiding sharks lots of them around. Word of mouth is best
> as it cuts out agents fees but that difficult when one does not speak
> the language. I don't think I will ever learn, my concentration is
> kaput and I go out so rarely that I don't often speak to anyone to
> practice.
>
> It's very difficult for me to find a house as I tire so easily, by the
> time I get up eat breakfast wash up and do a bit of cleaning, have a
> shower, all I feel like doing is sleeping again. My hope is that when
> the weather gets a little warmer I will have more available energy to
> find my home. I have to move out of this place before next winter as
> there is too much wood smoke here in town and it hinders my breathing,
> don't think I could survive another winter of wood smoke.
>
> Most houses have vines and orchards which I will keep, also a vegie
> patch - the rest, a patio and low maintainence, shrubs and roses, it's
> difficult to plan a garden as they take a long time to grow. I just
> hope I can find help with the heavy work as there is no way I can tend
> it fully myself. But what a joy to wander outside in the morning in
> my slippers, with a cup of coffee. Bliss.
>
> I find that since my diagnosis it's difficult to plan anything as I
> don't know when my end date will arrive, I know, none of us do know
> that but we usually think we are immortal until told otherwise, it's
> that feeling of 'I will live forever' that goes when told you have
> stage IV cancer. If I make it past the July deadline perhaps I will
> feel immortal once again or at least have more confidence that I am
> not going to drop at any moment.
>
> Perhaps I will forget about trying to keep this place clean and just
> go house hunting instead. lol
> What a joy it would be not to have party walls, floors and ceilings,
> it becomes very embarrassing when I am having heavy coughing fits, I
> am sure I am disturbing the neighbours in the night.
>
> Must find a house so I can cough in peace lol
>
> Take care and thanks for caring, hugs
>
> isi :-)

Hello isi,
If you moved now, into a clean house, you could skip the cleaning part this year and focus on walks with your
coffee or on the patio: dreaming and planning your garden. Do check a home of interest, at different times of the
day, in case there's wood burning or barbecue smoke. It happens in many areas and you wouldn't want to be downwind
of such each day. You'll also know which neighbors have noisy kids or noisy dogs or noisy parties; drumming
lessons; too much traffic. Sometimes observing in the car while you drink your coffee, can tell you a lot about a
neighborhood.

I hope you can find someone to go with you to translate and avoid pitfalls and look for problems, that you might
not see about a property.

Buy a place in front of (or beside) someone who has an orchard. Let them do the work and maintenance. If they're
nice, they'll let you wander through and share the fruit with you.

So get moving searching. It's too wet and cold here at the moment, but if you time this right, we can arrange a
cyber date to both go walking outside, in our slippers; you with your coffee, me with my tea.

Don't get lost though; I hope to hear good news from you soon.

J - trying to downsize your home dream (and work related to) a bit.