>... I got a call asking
> me to speak there <gulp> on March 14 a couple of months ago. >Now it >appears it's quite
> a production with a 'Smoke & Mirrors' theme, scriptwriting, >special effects
> & a rehearsal. And a video that features Socks.
>...that I
> have never seen. I can only hope they got 'tight shots'of him
> b/c the house was a wreck! LOL
>As am I thinking of speaking on his behalf,
> but how can I not? So I will. I wish it were March 15 already...
>
> Fig
Fig:
What a mixed bag of emotions! The death of adoration and friendship as
well as the willingness (need) to build a purpose to it all. I don't
envy you. This evening, my Hessie (wifefriend) suddenly relaxed her
denial long enough to be openly and tearfully frightened...a good
sign. A closeness and mutual support. Hell, I'm frightened to leave
her alone and, aside from the MM, she's eleven years younger. ( She's
great, a veritable bear, when seriousness strikes!) Like my
Streptococcal Septicaemia for eight days in the hospital and two
weeks of hooking me up to iv's at home. Not to mention a really nasty
case of Candida, as well as Barretts syndrome bleeding out during a
heart stent at St.E's. (I like to watch these things, so I`ve learned
a lot.) And Hessie has been a Godsend (I'm an agnostic, so that's just
a figue of speech..., probably. LOL).
Oh, I'm 74, Dx Aug.2004, currently on monthly 4 hour Aredia 90
iinfusion, weekly
ProCrit 60, enough calcium & vit.D and Iron to sink
a batttleship, and a monthly 160 mgs Dex pulse over 4 -- and, if you
hadn't already guessed, I'm on the first Dex night right now. B<})
Back to the begining...finally. I'm sorry that this is happening to
you.The recurrance of pain is never pleasant, so you have my heartfelt
sympathy. As for public speaking, I was a college and high school
teacher for many years, and found that the fear never quite left,
It's based on the fact that all mammals respond to being stared at as
an attack -- which it isn't (except among drunkards and over-
testosteroned apemen.
I know this doesn't help the butterfly stomach, but it works a little
to soothe the grey matter. I have often found that the committee in my
head is less than encouraging, and that if I if I don't overplan,
leave my brain under my chair, and speak from my heart, iit all works
out pretty well.
Good luck, Kid.
Don
"We see the world not as it is, but as we are." (Not always the same
minute by minute. LOL)