fucking sick of starting over

in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs to schools

I just want to cry and someone hold me.

justpackrat wrote...

> in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs to
> schools
>
> I just want to cry and someone hold me.

i'm so sorry...

-lisa

"justpackrat" <maddie_75@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:1160373143.172252.273950@e3g2000cwe.googlegro ups.com...
> in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs to schools
>
> I just want to cry and someone hold me.
>

hang in there packrat. i hope you find a man who is worthy of being in your
life.

you are a sweet woman, and there is someone out there for you.

quit moving so much, and establish roots, please.

Gravity

lisa in mass. wrote:
> justpackrat wrote...
>
> > in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs to
> > schools
> >
> > I just want to cry and someone hold me.
>
> i'm so sorry...
>
> -lisa

such is life, but it's hard to see it that way. He's truely a good guy
and like I said in a previous post, wonderful with my kids. I never
believed I could trust someone with my kids as I do him. OTOH, he's so
focused on his needs, his wants, his life that I'm welcome to go along
for the ride, just screw it if I need something in the relationship. I
really fell for him, more than I have anyone before. At 40, I thought
it was all too good to be true...it was. Divorce hurt like hell, but
for different reasons. I loathed my ex so much that the hurt had to do
with the financial ruins he left me in and what he did to the kids. I
didn't date for 3 years after the divorce and had given up on love or
dating. This guy came along, I tried to avoid him too, after all he is
7 years younger than I am and has a baby face, hangs out with 20 year
old people...I'm ancient in many respects. But he convinced me to go
out with him and to give him a chance. Now I wish I would have just
stuck with being single. He showed me what it was like not being
alone. I was getting the hang of the other.

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns985713EC7D99Fmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
> justpackrat wrote...
>
>> in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs to
>> schools
>>
>> I just want to cry and someone hold me.
>
> i'm so sorry...
>
> -lisa

my coworker was very down one day. she told me to ignore her, and that she
couldn't talk. she got triggered by something, and she started crying. i
didn't hug her, i didn't feel it was my place, but i was supportive.

i am totally head over heels for her. but she's married.

i do nice things for her, but she blows me off like i'm not even there. she
talks to me for many hours.

she did invite me out to eat one time, i didn't go, but when i invite her
somewhere, she acts like she didn't hear me.

i am not going to get her any gifts, except for a birthday cake, i want to
embarrass her in front of everyone. but i will do sweet things for her,
that cost no money. i'm pussy whipped.

Gravity

justpackrat wrote...

>
> lisa in mass. wrote:
>> justpackrat wrote...
>>
>> > in life, in every aspect from housing, to towns, to jobs
>> > to schools
>> >
>> > I just want to cry and someone hold me.
>>
>> i'm so sorry...
>>
>> -lisa
>
> such is life, but it's hard to see it that way. He's
> truely a good guy and like I said in a previous post,
> wonderful with my kids. I never believed I could trust
> someone with my kids as I do him. OTOH, he's so focused on
> his needs, his wants, his life that I'm welcome to go along
> for the ride, just screw it if I need something in the
> relationship. I really fell for him, more than I have
> anyone before. At 40, I thought it was all too good to be
> true...it was. Divorce hurt like hell, but for different
> reasons. I loathed my ex so much that the hurt had to do
> with the financial ruins he left me in and what he did to
> the kids. I didn't date for 3 years after the divorce and
> had given up on love or dating. This guy came along, I
> tried to avoid him too, after all he is 7 years younger
> than I am and has a baby face, hangs out with 20 year old
> people...I'm ancient in many respects. But he convinced me
> to go out with him and to give him a chance. Now I wish I
> would have just stuck with being single. He showed me what
> it was like not being alone. I was getting the hang of the
> other.

ouch.

is there any way you can work through it with him, so that he
might see how it's only his needs that are being met, and that
his emotions are the permissible ones? it sounds like the
relationship has some good points. he needs to grow up enough
to see that it's not solely his world. i hope this works out
somehow that will be beneficial for you, or at least not so
painful. you deserve a break.

-lisa