 Re: Knock, knock
"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns98548EDDA259mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4.. .
> Teilhard Knight wrote...
>
>> "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
>> news:Xns985465B5378Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4.. .
>>> Teilhard Knight wrote...
>>>
>>>> Is anybody here? The only person I see is the little
>>>> perSentage.
>>>
>>> i'm back.
>>
>> Hi, Lisa, how is it going? Are you feeling better by now?
>> Still having problems to sleep? Sorry if you updated, I
>> haven't had time to catch up since yesterday.
>
> i got lots of sleep last night and a nap today, so i'm caught
> up. not feeling the best, but i'm hanging in here. i've got a
> call placed to my pdoc, and expect to hear back from him
> tomorrow.
I'm glad you are sleeping, that's good sign. I suppose you feel better
because of it. I hope to hear soon you are feeling real well. Is your pdoc
the one who diagnosed you with BPD? You seem to like him, if I am not
mistaken.
> how are you doing?
My life could be better. Sometimes I get a bit down when I witness what
others have achieved and how they relate among themselves and I have never
been lucky enough to feel that integrated, nor socially or institutionally.
I dined today with former colleagues, and they are working full steam in
their careers and I only want to be as lazy as I can. I do not have the
spark or the enthusiasm I once had. Also, they socially seem to be quite at
easy with each other and relate in an excellent way, whereas I find it
difficult to even be heard when I want to say something.
But I do not complain, I am free from severe depression or depression at all
lately. I enjoy being alone as I wish and be left free to be as lazy as I
want. I always think that life is such that one comes with some sort of
stamp like a doom which determines what will be of your existence on earth.
If my mother had been another more sane one, I would be entirely different,
but my main achievement was to cut the line of disease along my daughter,
and that makes me happy. In sum, I am not a winner like %, but I carry on
with my life free of any burdens and worries, but also sometimes lacking of
emotional rewards.
--
Teilhard Knight
The Extraterrestrial
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I am not screwed up .......... It's all in my mind
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