Re: Is any body concerned about me?

Dan wrote:

> It's been over a year since I've been out of the mental hospital and not one
> of my old friends/acquaintances has looked me up to see how I'm doing. This
> past year has been sheer hell for me and few know about and fewer seem to
> care. I find myself getting bitter over this.
>

maybe these are the people who helped you getwhere you are in the first place?
dont ever make the mistake of thinking they are better than you - they just hide
it better!

Yet its very difficult beiong on one's own so make new friends on your
own terms.

I have several total assholes for friends - its just as you desribe.
I could die and they wouldnt know or care, but when they found out they would be
laughing and spreading the news of my predicted demise
for six months - gives these self centered bastards something to do!
Then it would slowly creep into their demented brains I wouldnt ever
be around any more so finally a personal loss to them!

Take care of yourself.
RF

>
> Don't tell me that they don't know. One of my enemies was right there when
> I was admitted and if she could have found out that fast, surely others
> could have found out by now. I wrote one a letter reaching out for help and
> I got absolutely no response at all. My therapist says I should write
> another but I doubt it'll result differently.
>
> To be fair, my situation isn't the easiest to deal with. Not only do I
> suffer from depression, but also from delusions. It would make anyone
> uncomfortable I suppose, but not one can call me or e-mail me or even call
> my therapist.
>
> I'm trying to change my life. I recently enrolled in school to get my
> certificate in bookkeeping and my therapist is excited about the change.
> But now until school starts I have nothing but time to think about my life
> and my failures and my deficiencies. I'm trying, but my self-doubt is too
> great to overcome. I think about ending it all, but I'm too scared of death
> to do it. I pray for guidance and a friend, but not much so far.
>
> I'm sorry.