Re: I feel unwanted and I wish I were never born.

I'm glad my words meant something, I assure you this is not always the
case.

Regarding the girlfriend's sister who just lost her baby- I want to
tell you that you did what you could by being at the funeral. Speaking
as someone who has always tried to put others before me, so as to keep
them happy, I can tell you I went thru a lot of emotional pain when I
was in the hospital after losing my son. My relatives were there in my
room, a lot of them, joking and laughing up a riot. And, being the
spineless slug that I am, I allowed it. My sister was the only person
in my life who encouraged me to cry when I felt I had to, without
worrying it would make someone uncomfortable. Anyone who has lost
someone that close to them (how much closer can you get than a womb?)
just needs time, no matter how cliche that sounds. Losing my first child
led to the darkest year of my life, and don't think that even now -
seven years later- tears aren't still shed for him.

My brother is an atheist, he is way into science and needing a formula
or dna or something like that for everything. I don't understand what
there is to gain by not believing in God. Geez, I know it's hard to- but
only in the sense that He challenges us to be more. I see being
Christian as constantly being in school. Learning, maturing more in the
word. You have to be very careful not to fall into the trap of the over
righteous who think that being "saved" means they are above everyone
else. Jesus came, and He hung out with all the people who were rejects.
He searched every sinner, every demon possessed person- and He openly
healed them and openly professed His love for them. AND HE DID IT ALL IN
GOD'S NAME! He accepted being crucified so that we could see, all these
generations later, what He was all about.
The Bible doesn't condemn, what good would that do?
Everyday I think we all wake up thinking the same thing- I wish I could
do something to not waste this day...this life. God knows this. and yet
He loves us.