shaky tonight

#1 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.

-lisa

#2 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.
>
> -lisa

Hang in there Lisa!!!! Sorry it's such a hellish night.

Jane

#3 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Jane wrote...

>
> "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
> news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>>
>> -lisa
>
> Hang in there Lisa!!!! Sorry it's such a hellish night.
>
> Jane

thanks jane. just got triggered pretty badly. i'll make it
through. if i think i can't, i know what to do. i'll be able to
call the crisis line in about an hour, once joe's asleep. he'd
have as much trouble as i am handling this.

-lisa

#4 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in article
<Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>.. .
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.
>
> -lisa
>

I hope you feel better soon.

#5 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Tim Kett wrote...

>
>
> lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in article
> <Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>.. .
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>>
>> -lisa
>>
>
> I hope you feel better soon.

thank you, tim. i'm hoping it passes.

-lisa

#6 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in article
<Xns985FE0C0D7C2Fmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>.. .
> Jane wrote...
>
> >
> > "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
> > news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
> >> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
> >> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
> >> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
> >> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
> >> night.
> >>
> >> -lisa
> >
> > Hang in there Lisa!!!! Sorry it's such a hellish night.
> >
> > Jane
>
> thanks jane. just got triggered pretty badly. i'll make it
> through. if i think i can't, i know what to do. i'll be able to
> call the crisis line in about an hour, once joe's asleep. he'd
> have as much trouble as i am handling this.
>
> -lisa
>

Was you watching TV?

#7 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Tim Kett wrote...

> lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in article
> <Xns985FE0C0D7C2Fmccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4>.. .
>> Jane wrote...
>>
>> >
>> > "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
>> > news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
>> >> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i
>> >> can't carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it.
>> >> it's not allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about
>> >> self-injury. that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a
>> >> phone call night.
>> >>
>> >> -lisa
>> >
>> > Hang in there Lisa!!!! Sorry it's such a hellish night.
>> >
>> > Jane
>>
>> thanks jane. just got triggered pretty badly. i'll make it
>> through. if i think i can't, i know what to do. i'll be
>> able to call the crisis line in about an hour, once joe's
>> asleep. he'd have as much trouble as i am handling this.
>>
>> -lisa
>>
>
> Was you watching TV?

yeah.

#8 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

_/ lisa in mass. wrote \_
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.

Awww. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Let's hope you get some help from
the crisis line tonight.

--
-slunky

#9 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Contrarian wrote...

>
> lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
>> feeling very near the edge
>
> I have no plans to be out any more tonight, if
> that helps. Well maybe to the store on the next
> block, which should only take 10 minutes.

thanks, c.

-lisa

#10 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

lisa in mass. <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
> feeling very near the edge

I have no plans to be out any more tonight, if
that helps. Well maybe to the store on the next
block, which should only take 10 minutes.

#11 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

slunky wrote...

> _/ lisa in mass. wrote \_
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>
> Awww. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Let's hope you get
> some help from the crisis line tonight.

thanks slunky. my protocol is for them to simply talk for
awhile. maybe it'll help.

-lisa

#12 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

lisa in mass. wrote:

> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.

Sometimes you've forgotten that a hot
bath sometimes helps you pass a little
time, safely. In case this is one of
those times, I'm reminding you of that.
Take care.

Gayle

#13 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Gayle wrote...

> lisa in mass. wrote:
>
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>
> Sometimes you've forgotten that a hot
> bath sometimes helps you pass a little
> time, safely. In case this is one of
> those times, I'm reminding you of that.
> Take care.
>
> Gayle

thanks gayle. i'm too wound up for a bath right now, but maybe
after i call i'll have calmed down enough. you're right, that i
wouldn't have thought of it myself. maybe it'll help.

-lisa

#14 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.

I wish you the best, Lisa. It's not on what you have to bear so often. I do
not know what to recommend, you know better what to do. I hope you can sleep
all right tonight.

--
Teilhard Knight
The Extraterrestrial

----------------------------------------------------------
I am not screwed up .......... It's all in my mind

#15 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

> thanks gayle. i'm too wound up for a bath right now, but maybe
> after i call i'll have calmed down enough. you're right, that i
> wouldn't have thought of it myself. maybe it'll help.

Hot and steamy. Do you think the new med
contributes to winding you up a bit?
You've had some pretty full and
energetic days. Which sounded like a
good turn for you.

Gayle

#16 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Gayle wrote...

>
>> thanks gayle. i'm too wound up for a bath right now, but
>> maybe after i call i'll have calmed down enough. you're
>> right, that i wouldn't have thought of it myself. maybe
>> it'll help.
>
> Hot and steamy. Do you think the new med
> contributes to winding you up a bit?
> You've had some pretty full and
> energetic days. Which sounded like a
> good turn for you.
>
> Gayle

no, i don't think it has anything to do with the new med. i
think i was triggered by a suicide attempt on tv. i have been
doing better since starting on the cytomel.

-lisa

#17 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Teilhard Knight wrote...

> "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
> news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>
> I wish you the best, Lisa. It's not on what you have to
> bear so often. I do not know what to recommend, you know
> better what to do. I hope you can sleep all right tonight.

thanks teil. i'll make the call soon. hopefully, that will help.

sleep will be good.

-lisa

#18 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

it's now long past your post and I hope those feelings are past as well
and you're sleeping soundly.

fondly, c.

lisa in mass. wrote:
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.
>
> -lisa

#19 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
| feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
| out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
| won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
| shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.
|
| -lisa

Don't loose sight of that damn phone Lisa, and pick it up if need be, not
much consolation, but this will pass, hopefully soon.

#20 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

lisa in mass. wrote:
> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't carry
> out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not allowed. i
> won't. i can't say the same about self-injury. that i just
> shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call night.
>
> -lisa

Hi lisa,
Wednesday morning. I didn't see this until now. How went the night? Do
you feel any better today?

Thinkin' 'bout you...

Bobbie

#21 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

i did sleep. thanks.

-lisa

justpackrat wrote...

> it's now long past your post and I hope those feelings are
> past as well and you're sleeping soundly.
>
> fondly, c.
>
> lisa in mass. wrote:
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>>
>> -lisa
>

#22 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

Justin Case wrote...

>
> "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
> news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
>| feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>| carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>| allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>| that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>| night.
>|
>| -lisa
>
>
>
> Don't loose sight of that damn phone Lisa, and pick it up
> if need be, not much consolation, but this will pass,
> hopefully soon.

thank you, justin. i did call. it probably helped a bit, since i
managed to get some sleep afterward.

-lisa

#23 11-09-2006, 10:27 AM

wrote...

>
> lisa in mass. wrote:
>> feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
>> carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
>> allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
>> that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
>> night.
>>
>> -lisa
>
> Hi lisa,
> Wednesday morning. I didn't see this until now. How went
> the night? Do you feel any better today?
>
> Thinkin' 'bout you...
>
> Bobbie

thanks bobbie. i called the crisis line and talked for a bit,
then managed to get some sleep. bad dreams, but at least i
slept.

-lisa

#24 11-09-2006, 10:28 AM

"lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:Xns986063E8426C8mccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
| Justin Case wrote...
|
| >
| > "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote in message
| > news:Xns985FDF847DD2Emccatsjavanetcom@130.133.1.4. ..
| >| feeling very near the edge. yearning for a suicide i can't
| >| carry out. i have the means, but i can't do it. it's not
| >| allowed. i won't. i can't say the same about self-injury.
| >| that i just shouldn't. it's going to be a phone call
| >| night.
| >|
| >| -lisa
| >
| >
| >
| > Don't loose sight of that damn phone Lisa, and pick it up
| > if need be, not much consolation, but this will pass,
| > hopefully soon.
|
| thank you, justin. i did call. it probably helped a bit, since i
| managed to get some sleep afterward.
|
| -lisa

Good one Lisa,