alcohol

I'm steering clear.

It keeps coming to me that I should go to one of the local pubs and get
sh*tfaced, but I'm holding out.

It's a powerful argument that says I'll get nowhere staying in. I'm all doom
and gloom though, and I have a powerful fear I'd be ignored and be
humiliated, and I want to spare myself the pain.

I could go to the supermarket and drink at home, but that went wrong last
time. The vodka went to my gut and I had a tough ride. I don't want that
again.

So no?

-- kez

Alcohol makes me super dumb feeling because of my schizophrenia. I
can't think for like a few days after I drink. If I have maybe a half
a beer I'll be okay, but if I have 2 or more drinks I definitely feel
like I can't think straight at all.

I've learned to avoid it all together.

~Cory

On Feb 3, 2:21*pm, "...kez" <mad...@nonsenseaddress.com> wrote:
> It's a powerful argument that says I'll get nowhere staying in. I'm all doom
> and gloom though, and I have a powerful fear I'd be ignored and be
> humiliated, and I want to spare myself the pain.

I went out to a club, and I got ignored and humiliated, but luckily I
had a non-alcoholic beer so at least I didn't get drunk.

Ether breaks down to form two ethyl alcohol molecules in the
brain, therefore, booze is an anesthetic. There was a movie about the
doctor who first used ether for operations. He got stoned out of his
gourd many times when he fooled around with it. His part in the movie
was played by Boris Karlof.
When I drank I used to like to drink licorice flavored cordials
like Sambuca and Anisette at home. Licorice is my favorite flavor. I
thought there was a secret conspiracy to suppress the general use of
licorice. I thought there should be licorice soda, licorice syrup,
licorice chips, licorice ice cream, etc., but, I found out that the
flavor and smell of licorice isn't very popular. I can't understand
anyone not liking licorice. But, maybe they get enough...

On Feb 3, 1:21 pm, "...kez" <mad...@nonsenseaddress.com> wrote:
> I'm steering clear.
>
> It keeps coming to me that I should go to one of the local pubs and get
> sh*tfaced, but I'm holding out.
>
> It's a powerful argument that says I'll get nowhere staying in. I'm all doom
> and gloom though, and I have a powerful fear I'd be ignored and be
> humiliated, and I want to spare myself the pain.
>
> I could go to the supermarket and drink at home, but that went wrong last
> time. The vodka went to my gut and I had a tough ride. I don't want that
> again.
>
> So no?
>
> -- kez

Drinking right now doesn't sound like a good idea to me.

Take your drugs, you've got some good drugs and they're all legally
prescribed.

Alcohol is just poison that will make you feel like shit, usually, IMHO

"...kez" <madeup@nonsenseaddress.com> wrote in message
news:x62dnUnh1oQ1iDvanZ2dnUVZ8uWdnZ2d@bt.com...
> I'm steering clear.
>
> It keeps coming to me that I should go to one of the local pubs and get
> sh*tfaced, but I'm holding out.
>
> It's a powerful argument that says I'll get nowhere staying in. I'm all
> doom and gloom though, and I have a powerful fear I'd be ignored and be
> humiliated, and I want to spare myself the pain.
>
> I could go to the supermarket and drink at home, but that went wrong last
> time. The vodka went to my gut and I had a tough ride. I don't want that
> again.
>
> So no?
>
> -- kez
>

Forgive me for not remembering what meds you are on. Neuroleptics I found
are not too bad a problem with alcohol, although they always tell you not to
do it. However, minor tranquilizers can kill you with alcohol, so watch
out.

drinking makes things worse i wish i could stay off it

I drink and sometimes I drink somewhat more
but I never become drunk, it is just a social prop for me.
My psychiatrist told me it is better not to drink too much
but it couldn't hurt, according to him on meds you are quicker
drunk and it lasts longer. And all of this for free.

Berty

On Feb 4, 11:03 am, Adamski_Rasputin <adamskiraspu...@yahoo.com>
wrote:
> I drink and sometimes I drink somewhat more
> but I never become drunk, it is just a social prop for me.
> My psychiatrist told me it is better not to drink too much
> but it couldn't hurt, according to him on meds you are quicker
> drunk and it lasts longer. And all of this for free.
>
> Berty

I drink sometimes, I'm not a teetotaler, but it usually just hits me
wrong these days and makes me depressed and tired and sick, is no fun.
So why do it. Anyway alcoholism ran in my family, mother died from
alcoholism in her fifties, I don't need to go that route.

> I drink sometimes, I'm not a teetotaler, but it usually just hits me
> wrong these days and makes me depressed and tired and sick, is no fun.
> So why do it. Anyway alcoholism ran in my family, mother died from
> alcoholism in her fifties, I don't need to go that route.

hello, this is EXACTLY what happens to me, i never used to get
depressed after drinking but these days i get WAYYYY down. im on the
road to sobriety hopefully. YIPPEEEE!!! what i found,and this may
sound silly, is that if i eat a shitloade of bananas before
drinking(ive heard bananas are good for depression) I usually dont get
hit with the depression as bad.... but its still there somedays.
horribly.

I fucking can't stay sober. I HAVE to drink. I tried going off alcohol
and pot but it lead to my last suicidal psychosis. I can't do normal
stuff unless I've had at least a couple of beers.

I'm trying to do better but I think I am a demon that is trying to be
good but is inherently bad.

I believe that hell is the centre of heaven. You have to go through
hell to get to heaven. Like Dante's inferno kinda.

I believe god is the anthropomorphosis of the mystery, or the mystery
with an idealised angle to it.

Basically Im fucked up.

On Feb 8, 12:41*am, Lix Tetrax <scopethel...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> I fucking can't stay sober. I HAVE to drink. I tried going off alcohol
> and pot but it lead to my last suicidal psychosis. I can't do normal
> stuff unless I've had at least a couple of beers.
>
> I'm trying to do better but I think I am a demon that is trying to be
> good but is inherently bad.
>
> I believe that hell is the centre of heaven. You have to go through
> hell to get to heaven. Like Dante's inferno kinda.
>
> I believe god is the anthropomorphosis of the mystery, or the mystery
> with an idealised angle to it.
>
> Basically Im fucked up.

hey bud, im suicidal too, hang in there.

Hey ACE. Yeah its pretty tough in the troughs of sine waves.

Do you smoke pot? I'm gonna get some real soon. Gonna listen to Bob
Marley and Queens of the Stone Age.

Not built for sobriety it seems.

Stick around, you seem like a cool person, wish I knew you in real
life.