beginning nth psychotherapy - but very sz.paranoid

The hearth of the matter is that I'm very very very paranoid with
people, with all kind of people, with my 4 older brothers, with my
elderly mother, my father has died when I was 28, now I'm 34.
I wonder if my new psychotherapy I'm going to begin will be fruitful
or only SOURCE OF MENTAL TORTURE like the previous ones.
Imagine: two theapists in the past decided to break our th. relation
because of the problems we were debateing were regarding for the 80%
my relationship with themselves.
"You don't understand anything"
"One can't work with you"
Beautiful, isn't it?
After few hours I tried suicide, and it was not the first time.

I just wanted to ask you - please, if you have similar experiences,
please reply - Does it happen to you too that a therapist could not
even say "a" or "b" or watching for a while out of the window, or
repeat what you've just said (I suffer since a year from a skullbase
tumour so I don't speak very well (partial paralisis of my tongue) and
imagine he/she wanted to make a joke of my voice or my way of talking?
Similiar paranoid thoughts happen to you too with your therapist?

According to you is there a fucking method a therapist or
psychoanalist could use with me and build finally a Good relationship?

Is that possible?
Has that happened to someone of you?

Please help

Regards

Francesco

I have indeed been ignored and slighted by therapists. My current one does
listen to what I have to say and make proper input. He is also assisted by
having a social worker in the room during appointments (he's a psychiatrist
who practises psychotherapy). The team at that clinic has done very, very
good things for me. So there is hope you can find the right therapist for
you.

Miki

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> The hearth of the matter is that I'm very very very paranoid with
> people, with all kind of people, with my 4 older brothers, with my
> elderly mother, my father has died when I was 28, now I'm 34.
> I wonder if my new psychotherapy I'm going to begin will be fruitful
> or only SOURCE OF MENTAL TORTURE like the previous ones.
> Imagine: two theapists in the past decided to break our th. relation
> because of the problems we were debateing were regarding for the 80%
> my relationship with themselves.
> "You don't understand anything"
> "One can't work with you"
> Beautiful, isn't it?
> After few hours I tried suicide, and it was not the first time.
>
> I just wanted to ask you - please, if you have similar experiences,
> please reply - Does it happen to you too that a therapist could not
> even say "a" or "b" or watching for a while out of the window, or
> repeat what you've just said (I suffer since a year from a skullbase
> tumour so I don't speak very well (partial paralisis of my tongue) and
> imagine he/she wanted to make a joke of my voice or my way of talking?
> Similiar paranoid thoughts happen to you too with your therapist?
>
> According to you is there a fucking method a therapist or
> psychoanalist could use with me and build finally a Good relationship?
>
> Is that possible?
> Has that happened to someone of you?
>
> Please help
>
> Regards
>
> Francesco
>