Condo troubles again

Housemate Leslie and Landlord Joe are having trouble with each other.

Leslie thinks he is a tryrant, Joe thinks she is a bitch.

I feel like the only sane one there.

I feel unfortunate to have to live around all these crazy people and
put up with them.

I was talking to someone last night about how it is often the
intelligent, smart people who end up becoming actually mentally ill
and having breakdowns etc. but tons of other people are really the
crazy ones, who act and think in screwy ways although they are not
techinically mentally ill.

I've got them around here. Crazy people.

On 4 Apr, 05:52, Gelly <Gell...@gmail.com> wrote:
> Housemate Leslie and Landlord Joe are having trouble with each other.
>
> Leslie thinks he is a tryrant, Joe thinks she is a bitch.
>
> I feel like the only sane one there.
>
> I feel unfortunate to have to live around all these crazy people and
> put up with them.
>
> I was talking to someone last night about how it is often the
> intelligent, smart people who end up becoming actually mentally ill
> and having breakdowns etc. but tons of other people are really the
> crazy ones, who act and think in screwy ways although they are not
> techinically mentally ill.
>
> I've got them around here. Crazy people.

I agree with what you are saying there gelly

I think maybe it can be something to do with the link between Genius
and Madness and if you get too close to being too smart then it is
just too hard for you to cope with.

I've made several plans so I don't get trapped with "those people" ever
again.
Number one, it will not work out.
Number two, they do not ever demonstrate forgiveness.
They are dogs figting over bones, nothing else.
They truely have no forgiveness and will be vindictive forever over
anything at all.

So..I can not have the world with these people in it. witnessed enough
to know this is the absolute truth.

I'll even keep any gigs/appearences short. Like three weeks max.

I'm done.

I ain't working ain't taking resposibility for others, not "leading" a
semi-commune, etc., no band thing with music, no long contracts, etc.
NOTHING I can't walk away from.
Simply, I lose, they win.
Its the simplistic way.

I won't kill them, of course, so the game is over.

At one point I'll lose this place and the chase will be on again.

MOST people are rotten and dangerous to be around or trust.
Be careful, have escape plans in place if possible.

I saw it in my fifties.
And I see it only better and better how futile these entities make
exsistance for all the others.

Its a nightmare.

My employed tactic helps me experiance more sanity.
But I'm still locked in the asylum with the maniacs in charge.
Thats it, exactly.
Thats my world.

All decisions for me are Based on peace of mind.
Thats my first point of decision making.

And not being trapped by the lunatics in charge.

In my fifties I saw it again and I accepted it as true then.
Its wrong for me to go on tying to work cusing the resultant turmoil.
Nor to work with a group (poltics) except as a follower, and that
preferably low level.

Since then I've understood more.

My job is to not let their relentless efforts to drive me crazy occur.

I know, who is "they".
Well...you go figger that one.

My current path is really the most moral path for me.

I'm dead anyway,shortly. No story in my life lasted long enough for a
new "story" to end. I'm too old now, so my ithdrawl from the moral front
is excusable.

Strive for peace of mind and NOTHING AT ALL else. It attracts the mind
pickers.
At 61........whats another 10 maybe 15 years?

It will lkley get worse near the end but not for now it ain't.
Gotta guard those gates to hell until..the end.

AND...nothing else.
Sure I play guitar but thats a different arena.

People ask why don't I form a band.
Yeah, right, I am NOT nuts. I've seen bands up close. I'm not willing to
pay the tax.

People asking to help I say six months contract, 50 50 percent after
expenses.
Six months!!!??? Thats enough!?!?
They want more.

Yes it is.
Thats about enough...........

Then we re-negotiate thngs like exclusivity of booking rights, authority
distribution, artistic judgments........
We would have an idea of issues and be able to place peace of mind in
first place in the decision process.
No promise that we "re-negotiate".

As an artist, performance artist, I need negotiate jack shit with
anybody anywhere. Leave me alone. I wanna go home.

Fifty percent after expenses? For six months? A good man for the job
would jump at the chance.

See its my mind. I like it.And this society around me consists of awful
vindictive unforgiving and vicious people primarily.
Really.

Therefore I will assume authority to lead my own life.....being I ain't
dead.

Very few.....I am so lucky I have a few true humans who are my friends.
EXTREMEly thankful.
Went through a lot on my way here.

Strickly rear quard action for me.
I ain't MAP. I wish him luck.

What I gotta do? DIE.
When? A few years more.
This makes things simple for me.

And I do play guitar for an audiance reasonably regularly.

Damu

Are they an item? Sounds like true love to me.

On Apr 4, 5:16 pm, damod...@webtv.net (Twang - twang) wrote:
> All decisions for me are Based on peace of mind.
> Thats my first point of decision making.
>
> And not being trapped by the lunatics in charge.
>
> In my fifties I saw it again and I accepted it as true then.
> Its wrong for me to go on tying to work cusing the resultant turmoil.
> Nor to work with a group (poltics) except as a follower, and that
> preferably low level.
>
> Since then I've understood more.
>
> My job is to not let their relentless efforts to drive me crazy occur.
>
> I know, who is "they".
> Well...you go figger that one.
>
> My current path is really the most moral path for me.
>
> I'm dead anyway,shortly. No story in my life lasted long enough for a
> new "story" to end. I'm too old now, so my ithdrawl from the moral front
> is excusable.
>
> Strive for peace of mind and NOTHING AT ALL else. It attracts the mind
> pickers.
> At 61........whats another 10 maybe 15 years?
>
> It will lkley get worse near the end but not for now it ain't.
> Gotta guard those gates to hell until..the end.
>
> AND...nothing else.
> Sure I play guitar but thats a different arena.
>
> People ask why don't I form a band.
> Yeah, right, I am NOT nuts. I've seen bands up close. I'm not willing to
> pay the tax.
>
> People asking to help I say six months contract, 50 50 percent after
> expenses.
> Six months!!!??? Thats enough!?!?
> They want more.
>
> Yes it is.
> Thats about enough...........
>
> Then we re-negotiate thngs like exclusivity of booking rights, authority
> distribution, artistic judgments........
> We would have an idea of issues and be able to place peace of mind in
> first place in the decision process.
> No promise that we "re-negotiate".
>
> As an artist, performance artist, I need negotiate jack shit with
> anybody anywhere. Leave me alone. I wanna go home.
>
> Fifty percent after expenses? For six months? A good man for the job
> would jump at the chance.
>
> See its my mind. I like it.And this society around me consists of awful
> vindictive unforgiving and vicious people primarily.
> Really.
>
> Therefore I will assume authority to lead my own life.....being I ain't
> dead.
>
> Very few.....I am so lucky I have a few true humans who are my friends.
> EXTREMEly thankful.
> Went through a lot on my way here.
>
> Strickly rear quard action for me.
> I ain't MAP. I wish him luck.
>
> What I gotta do? DIE.
> When? A few years more.
> This makes things simple for me.
>
> And I do play guitar for an audiance reasonably regularly.
>
> Damu

I agree with most of what you said there. Good for you that you do
those things to stay of of all th politics. It's a mess. I try to stay
out, but where I'm living, I can't.

"Twang - twang" <damodara@webtv.net> wrote in message
news:17367-47F6A8B7-814@storefull-3235.bay.webtv.net...
> All decisions for me are Based on peace of mind.
> Thats my first point of decision making.
>
> And not being trapped by the lunatics in charge.
>
> In my fifties I saw it again and I accepted it as true then.
> Its wrong for me to go on tying to work cusing the resultant turmoil.
> Nor to work with a group (poltics) except as a follower, and that
> preferably low level.
>
> Since then I've understood more.
>
> My job is to not let their relentless efforts to drive me crazy occur.
>
> I know, who is "they".
> Well...you go figger that one.
>
> My current path is really the most moral path for me.
>
> I'm dead anyway,shortly. No story in my life lasted long enough for a
> new "story" to end. I'm too old now, so my ithdrawl from the moral front
> is excusable.
>
> Strive for peace of mind and NOTHING AT ALL else. It attracts the mind
> pickers.
> At 61........whats another 10 maybe 15 years?
>
> It will lkley get worse near the end but not for now it ain't.
> Gotta guard those gates to hell until..the end.
>
> AND...nothing else.
> Sure I play guitar but thats a different arena.
>
> People ask why don't I form a band.
> Yeah, right, I am NOT nuts. I've seen bands up close. I'm not willing to
> pay the tax.
>
> People asking to help I say six months contract, 50 50 percent after
> expenses.
> Six months!!!??? Thats enough!?!?
> They want more.
>
> Yes it is.
> Thats about enough...........
>
> Then we re-negotiate thngs like exclusivity of booking rights, authority
> distribution, artistic judgments........
> We would have an idea of issues and be able to place peace of mind in
> first place in the decision process.
> No promise that we "re-negotiate".
>
> As an artist, performance artist, I need negotiate jack shit with
> anybody anywhere. Leave me alone. I wanna go home.
>
> Fifty percent after expenses? For six months? A good man for the job
> would jump at the chance.
>
> See its my mind. I like it.And this society around me consists of awful
> vindictive unforgiving and vicious people primarily.
> Really.
>
> Therefore I will assume authority to lead my own life.....being I ain't
> dead.
>
> Very few.....I am so lucky I have a few true humans who are my friends.
> EXTREMEly thankful.
> Went through a lot on my way here.
>
> Strickly rear quard action for me.
> I ain't MAP. I wish him luck.
>
> What I gotta do? DIE.
> When? A few years more.
> This makes things simple for me.
>
> And I do play guitar for an audiance reasonably regularly.
>
> Damu
>

I sometimes forget the importance of avoiding excess stress. The right
stress (wrong stress?) can be more damaging than too many cups of coffee.

For me, Poker is a good example. I like to think I like poker, but after
about 6 hours of battling online, my mind is a mess of anxiety. (even if I
was winning)

QN