crisis

Guys. It's like I'm psychotic except everything seems very real and makes
sense. There are no voices, no distractions, no lethargy, no akathisia, no
noisy mind. Just peace and serenity and terrible dismay.

My whole life seems to have been one long, bass-ackwards attempt to get
laid.

The women were right. All my thought structures, which are the only things I
always thought were good about me, have been so much peacock-strutting. In
themselves they have no value. And I never wanted to admit it to myself
because I didn't want to accept that THE WOMEN WERE RIGHT.

I'm both at peace and devastated right now. It's impossible that I've been
ripping myself off of the only thing I ever wanted for more than 30 years.

Miki

Did you try a prayer or smoke a ciggie. If that doesn´t help i don´t know.

Miki, aren't topless bars legal in Canada? Perhaps a lap dance would
straighten you out.
Otherwise, if you're looking for love - it must find you. Just make
yourself available for when it comes.
Pursue some ladies at where you frequent. I bet that Starbucks has
lots of cuties that hang out.

I guess the psychotherapy makes you come to term with the things that
have happened in your life, the people you met and the way you
interacted with those people. Psychotherapy can be very confronting
and sometimes cause a crisis in your head that has to be resolved. It
can be very painfull to grow towards the point the psychotherapist is
aiming for. It can take years and I hope the psychotherapist will hand
you the input to make steps forward and does not leave you in a state
of confussion.

On Wed, 22 Aug 2007 04:54:02 -0400, Miki Kocic wrote:

> Guys. It's like I'm psychotic except everything seems very real and makes
> sense. There are no voices, no distractions, no lethargy, no akathisia, no
> noisy mind. Just peace and serenity and terrible dismay.
>
> My whole life seems to have been one long, bass-ackwards attempt to get
> laid.
>
> The women were right. All my thought structures, which are the only things I
> always thought were good about me, have been so much peacock-strutting.


We are animals, peacocks get laid and they are beautiful birds,
be proud to be a peacock, and strut that funky stuff.


> In themselves they have no value. And I never wanted to admit it to
> myself because I didn't want to accept that THE WOMEN WERE RIGHT.
>
> I'm both at peace and devastated right now. It's impossible that I've
> been ripping myself off of the only thing I ever wanted for more than 30
> years.
>
> Miki