When I was about 15 I found out I was schizophrenic. So I began to
read everything I could about the mind. I read all the psychology
books. They did not help. I read the religious books. I read the New
Testament. It was interesting but it was written in incomprehensible
parables. So it did not help either.
I read the teachings of the Hindus and Buddha. But they were also
incomprehensible too. I read Kafka and this is what he said:
On Parables by Franz Kafka
Many complain that the words of the wise are always merely parables
and
of no use in daily life,which is the only life we have.When the Sage
says: "Go over."he does not mean we should cross to some actual place,
which we could do anyhow if the labor were worth
it;he means some fabulous yonder,something unknown to us,something he
cannot designate more precisely either, and therefore cannot help us
here in the very least. All these parables really set out to say
merely
that the incomprehensible is incomprehensible and we know that
already. But the cares we have to struggle with every day: that is a
different matter.
Concerning this a man once said: Why such reluctance? If you only
followed the parables you yourselves would become parables and with
that rid of your daily cares.
Another said:I bet that is also a parable.
The first said: You have won.
The second said:But unfortunately only in parable.
The first said: No, in reality: in parable you have lost
So what I am saying is that there is an answer in reality but it is
not a parable.
It is a simple explanation of what the disease of schizophrenia is.
But for many reasons many people are not interested in the answer.
Particularly the medical establishment. And essentially all people
with this disease have been influenced by the medical establishment.
The medical establishment does not have a cure and they will not like
the idea of a cure. They will deny what they do not understand.
I will mention that Dr. Louis Sass has said that schizophrenia is a
philosophical disorder. He has gotten a little bit close to what its
about it.
Let me explain that by my definition religion is everything you
believe about the nature of reality. It is not reality. You can
believe anything people tell you to believe.
As John Lilly,MD. said,"All belief is a form of limitation."
To understand schizophrenia is to begin to understand reality. I call
that spirituality or the feeling or intuition of ones existence. It
has absolutely nothing to do with believing in anything. So what I am
talking about is ones perception of feeling in the present moment.
Most people dont want to understand reality. They are content in the
little stale room they call their mind. The schizophrenic does not
have that luxury. The room or mind they find themselves in is not a
comfortable place and they want to get out.
If there is anyone here who wants to get out of schizophrenia I tell
you you can.
But is there anyone here brave enough and of free enough spirit to do
that?
Roky