Damo

Damo, How have you been down there? I haven't heard from you/about you
in a while. All is iffy here in Bushkill, but at least the weather
will be fairly decent for a few days eh?

Best,
Chris

Its tearing my heart out to poat Chris.....
I think I've discovered something except that I have nothing to say.

I'm getting closer to "acting out".
Doing things.

I've spent several days working o my studio room.
Music?
All I'm dealing with is limp dreams.
Yet, I have ordered and reorganized my music space.

I'm organizing and organizing my detrius papers and mail into orderly
pilles in various drawers as if it actally effects anything.

Time,Chris.

I have people waiting still for CDs.

I kept Rainbow Guardian waiting for months, once, after I got his money.

IN THE BEGINNING!!!
I refused advance payment!!!!
If someone said they wanted it, I sent it.

I get confused so easily, Chiris......
It pisses me off.
Even now I have unanswered e-mails which I can't allow "in" because I am
fighting for mindspace...still.....

I had evolved into using the term "everybody" during the recent
neighborhood trauma.
NEVER do that. Say names.

I'm still fighting for a just recovery.

Shit I faced......threats?
Trying, helping my friends' girl while he was in the hospital living i a
coma for three weeks. Agressive men? At my dooe?

I am still requestng excuse, here, for my weakness.

I need more time.

I'm seeing folks as ndividuals, and I'm establishing relationships.
Re-establishing......

I always told em I was a noid sz.....
Maybe they learned respect for it.

I dunno.
Might all be my fantasy.

Damo


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