the euphorias i´ve been experiencing

I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful euphorias and
even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a DRUG and I want more. It
is GOD
and i want more. There is no other state of mind or no drug that gets me as
high as these euphorias do. I do not
understand why people take drugs to take away the euphorias. It´s not just a
dopamine or serotonin release, it is something more deeper, and of course
there is no "comedown" or crash from these feelings. My euphoria can last up
to 2 hours, I wish that you all will be able to experience euphorias. Even
if there would be the deepest depression after these euphorias I don´t CARE.
They are worth it.

wewe wrote:
> I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful euphorias and
> even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a DRUG and I want more. It
> is GOD
> and i want more. There is no other state of mind or no drug that gets me as
> high as these euphorias do. I do not
> understand why people take drugs to take away the euphorias. It´s not just a
> dopamine or serotonin release, it is something more deeper, and of course
> there is no "comedown" or crash from these feelings. My euphoria can last up
> to 2 hours, I wish that you all will be able to experience euphorias. Even
> if there would be the deepest depression after these euphorias I don´t CARE.
> They are worth it.
>
>
Stay with it, wewe.
Maybe you'll see God.

Maybe.

In news:alt.support.schizophrenia, "wewe" <ewew@wewe.fi> posted on
Fri, 8 Aug 2008 08:55:03 +0300:

> I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful
> euphorias and even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a
> DRUG and I want more. It is GOD and i want more. There is no
> other state of mind or no drug that gets me as high as these
> euphorias do.

Hey, thanks for posting. Do you feel a sense of connection to ancient
mythology?

> I do not understand why people take drugs to take away the
> euphorias.

Actually, if you use just cannabis it will intensify these feelings
you're having and make them more dynamic. Cannabis turns the dialup
connection to God into a broadband connection.

> It´s not just a dopamine or serotonin release, it is something
> more deeper, and of course there is no "comedown" or crash from
> these feelings. My euphoria can last up to 2 hours, I wish that
> you all will be able to experience euphorias. Even if there
> would be the deepest depression after these euphorias I don´t
> CARE. They are worth it.

I know what you're going through. Just enjoy it. There's more
coming.

Damaeus

Hello!

You probably have a schizoaffective disorder, which means something
like bipolar and schizophrenia together.

You must cut down the euphoria even if you think it is good for you.
On the long term it is a very bad thing.

In mania at first (hypomania) everything is better. You are smarter,
more aware of the environment and people, you are amusing, outgoing
and you can function really good. But!!! When hypomania becomes mania,
things get worse, a lot worse...

You are very engry, you can quarrel easily with people in everyday
life and what is the worst with people closest to you.

You think you dont need anyone, you think you are not wrong, that
everyone is against you, etc.

It does not take a long time to lose people around you.

And there is another danger! When you are in the worst mania it
usually turns back to psychosis and then to depression of the highest
degree.

But you wont mind this post, you will figure things out on your own.

My suggestion to you is:

Ask a doctor about an increase of your mood stabiliser, wheather you
have vaproat or antipsychotic which is mood stabiliser as well.

Is you are manic that is not the reality it is just one step closer to
psychosis.

But youll probably have to go through the worst for I think you wont
listen...

I hope you stabilise yourself...

SCH

"wewe" <e...@wewe.fi> wrote in message
news:EcRmk.46235$_03.28762@reader1.news.saunalahti .fi...
>I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful euphorias and
>even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a DRUG and I want more. It
>is GOD
> and i want more. There is no other state of mind or no drug that gets me
> as high as these euphorias do. I do not
> understand why people take drugs to take away the euphorias. It´s not just
> a dopamine or serotonin release, it is something more deeper, and of
> course there is no "comedown" or crash from these feelings. My euphoria
> can last up to 2 hours, I wish that you all will be able to experience
> euphorias. Even if there would be the deepest depression after these
> euphorias I don´t CARE. They are worth it.
>

In my experience there is no price worth paying for a prolonged sojourn in
hell, periodic enchantment in the kingdom of heaven, the merging of
consciousness, a glimpse of eternity are but petty trifles compared to the
horror of the abyss.

imo

zerosky

be well

On 8 aug, 07:55, "wewe" <e...@wewe.fi> wrote:
> I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful euphorias and
> even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a DRUG and I want more.It
> is GOD
> and i want more. There is no other state of mind or no drug that gets me as
> high as these euphorias do. I do not
> understand why people take drugs to take away the euphorias. It´s not just a
> dopamine or serotonin release, it is something more deeper, and of course
> there is no "comedown" or crash from these feelings. My euphoria can lastup
> to 2 hours, I wish that you all will be able to experience euphorias. Even
> if there would be the deepest depression after these euphorias I don´t CARE.
> They are worth it.

I think like schenke told you , you are probably hypomanic.

This is a nice state to be in, but normally it doesn't last a few
hours
but all day long (and night long for that matter).

There are quite a lot of sz or bi-polar people that do without meds.

But you are wrong to generalize things and say that others should
not be on meds just because you seem to like it.
For others like me, schizophrenia is living hell when unmedicated.

Berty

GO FOR IT. Enjoy "perinatal matrix one" while you are there. See
http://www.holotropic.com and read "The Adventure of Self Discovery" by
Dr. Stanislav Grof.
A little further in you will be in "perinatal matrix two" which is
knowledgable, but can be scary. Great knowledge, previously unknown,
flashes into the mind, and the mind becomes very powerful. Witches seek
this power. It is know as the "Knowledge of Good and Evil".
But, the power can get too powerful to control and all Hell breaks
loose in "perinatal matrix three". Is there any other Hell? Things get
tough, you wish you were someone else, and zap, you switch into that
body, and thus body switch backward and forward in time for about a
thousand years.
But, you can get an old duplicate body back in time on another
timeline and start over, hopefully doing things better next time around.
"Spiritual" memory is weak, but you may remember some of the mistakes
you made the last time around.
How many have to go through this? What? You expect us to work for
eternity? I don't think so! The ancient Scythian priests were called
"Serpents". Why? They "shed their skins" switched bodies. They didn't
have to work, and, neither will this Snakeman!
There was a mini-ice age in the early Four Hundreds that drove the
tribes in Central Asia west. Some Scythians migrated to Scandanavia and
took some Viking ships to Ireland. St. Patrick didn't like thier ideas
so he drove them out. This is the fact behind the legend of St. Patrick
driving the snakes out of Ireland.
They escaped in their Viking ships and came to North America where
their descendents became the Abenakis with the Serpent Totem.
"Mike O'Dan the Snakeman"
"In the year 418 we did take a trip,
Chased by Patrick and his goons
We took some Viking ships.
Far across Atlantis Sea we came to Vineland
shore.
We built our homes and left our bones with all the jewels we
wore.
I'm Mike O'Dan the Snakeman and I come from Ireland.
This land you call New England
We used to call our home.
We left or magick trees and runes within our
catacombs.
We left all our great wisdom here
To help you find your will.
We left our trees and Sharon Springs
And down at Mystery Hill.
I am Mike O'Dan the Snakeman and I come
from Ireland"

On 9 aug, 13:55, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
> * * * GO FOR IT. Enjoy "perinatal matrix one" while you are there. Seehttp://www.holotropic.comand read "The Adventure of Self Discovery" by
> Dr. Stanislav Grof.
> * * * A little further in you will be in "perinatal matrix two" which is
> knowledgable, but can be scary. Great knowledge, previously unknown,
> flashes into the mind, and the mind becomes very powerful. Witches seek
> this power. It is know as the "Knowledge of Good and Evil".
> * * * But, the power can get too powerful to control and all Hell breaks
> loose in "perinatal matrix three". Is there any other Hell? Things get
> tough, you wish you were someone else, and zap, you switch into that
> body, and thus body switch backward and forward in time for about a
> thousand years.
> * * * But, you can get an old duplicate body back in time on another
> timeline and start over, hopefully doing things better next time around.
> "Spiritual" memory is weak, but you may remember some of the mistakes
> you made the last time around.
> * * * How many have to go through this? What? You expect us to workfor
> eternity? I don't think so! The ancient Scythian priests were called
> "Serpents". Why? They "shed their skins" switched bodies. They didn't
> have to work, and, neither will this Snakeman!
> * * * There was a mini-ice age in the early Four Hundreds that drove the
> tribes in Central Asia west. Some Scythians migrated to Scandanavia and
> took some Viking ships to Ireland. St. Patrick didn't like thier ideas
> so he drove them out. This is the fact behind the legend of St. Patrick
> driving the snakes out of Ireland.
> * * * They escaped in their Viking ships and came to North America where
> their descendents became the Abenakis with the Serpent Totem.
> * * * "Mike O'Dan the Snakeman"
> * * * "In the year 418 we did take a trip,
> Chased by Patrick and his goons
> We took some Viking ships.
> Far across Atlantis Sea we came to Vineland
> * * * shore.
> We built our homes and left our bones with all * * * * *the jewels we
> wore.
> I'm Mike O'Dan the Snakeman and I come from * * * Ireland.
> This land you call New England
> We used to call our home.
> We left or magick trees and runes within our
> * * * catacombs.
> We left all our great wisdom here
> To help you find your will.
> We left our trees and Sharon Springs
> And down at Mystery Hill.
> I am Mike O'Dan the Snakeman and I come
> * * * from Ireland"

Miguel, you are a gifted writer, I really enjoyed reading this.
The power you described I have witnessed.
But I rather be a normalo with dopamine blokers to get
rid of the magic. I know you have taken another road.
But here on usenet our roads have crossed and you
awoke something in me that I enjoyed.


Berty

The dopamine blockers only take away the joys, the joys from
everything. They don't stop "hallucinations". Under dopamine blockers I
used to see miserable spirits flowing in the sewers, I still had "x-ray
vision", and all I thought about was suicide.
As I said before, in the movie "Flashback" it was revealed that
booze was an antidote for LSD. But, booze has a very inconvenient
homeopathic reaction. I wrote so many "crank" letters BC, Before
Compters (the internet, that is), and have obsessively written so much
on the internet since, that I have had plenty of practice. Thank you for
appreciating it.

On 9 aug, 21:17, Adamski_Rasputin <adamskiraspu...@yahoo.com> wrote:
> On 9 aug, 19:24, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
>
> > * * * The dopamine blockers only take away the joys, the joys from
> > everything. They don't stop "hallucinations". Under dopamine blockers I
> > used to see miserable spirits flowing in the sewers, I still had "x-ray
> > vision", and all I thought about was suicide.
> > * * * As I said before, in the movie "Flashback" it was revealed that
> > booze was an antidote for LSD. But, booze has a very inconvenient
> > homeopathic reaction. I wrote so many "crank" letters BC, Before
> > Compters (the internet, that is), and have obsessively written so much
> > on the internet since, that I have had plenty of practice. Thank you for
> > appreciating it.
>
> I tried a lot of antipsychotic (you call them dopamineblocker, others
> neuroleptica) and many had side effects that I didn't liked.
> Only a few, mostly the older ones had no side effects for me.
> When I take dopamine blockers I have no side affects, maybe I
> think not so fast as unmedicated, but fast enough for me.
> I am also of the generation before computers at current age 45.
> What is your opinion of the paranormal, what was for me the
> explanation
> for what happened to me BM (before medicated) ?
> I look forward to your answer.
>
> Berty

By the way, you remind me of Fox Mulder of the X-files.
I used to have every episode on tape, good old days.

On 9 aug, 19:24, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
> * * * The dopamine blockers only take away the joys, the joys from
> everything. They don't stop "hallucinations". Under dopamine blockers I
> used to see miserable spirits flowing in the sewers, I still had "x-ray
> vision", and all I thought about was suicide.
> * * * As I said before, in the movie "Flashback" it was revealed that
> booze was an antidote for LSD. But, booze has a very inconvenient
> homeopathic reaction. I wrote so many "crank" letters BC, Before
> Compters (the internet, that is), and have obsessively written so much
> on the internet since, that I have had plenty of practice. Thank you for
> appreciating it.

I tried a lot of antipsychotic (you call them dopamineblocker, others
neuroleptica) and many had side effects that I didn't liked.
Only a few, mostly the older ones had no side effects for me.
When I take dopamine blockers I have no side affects, maybe I
think not so fast as unmedicated, but fast enough for me.
I am also of the generation before computers at current age 45.
What is your opinion of the paranormal, what was for me the
explanation
for what happened to me BM (before medicated) ?
I look forward to your answer.

Berty

All you have to do is go to
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ThePar...searchSociety/ or better
yet http://groups.yahoo.com/group/alchemy61/ , put "lahunken" in its
search slot and click to read my posts on the subject.
The Paranormal Research Society threw my out for revealing the
physical muscarinic nervous system secret, but, I have many more posts
about the "paranormal" in Alchemy61, with the scientific explanations
for all the phenomena.
We have two more dimensions at our disposal. The fifth dimension,
officially defined for science by Harvard University quantum physics
professor Dr. Lisa Randall in her book "Warped Passages", is moving in
and out of globally bent timespaces, different tenuousities of "spirit".
But, the further you go in, the more power your mind has to manifest
your imagination as your reality.
This is mostly done by making it easier to travel in the sixth
dimension, from timeline to timeline. Jesus said, "If you have the faith
of a mustard seed and say to this mountain move it shall be moved". You
simply go to the timeline where the mountain is elsewhere.
You can travel into the more globally bent timespaces with that
physical muscarinic nervous system secret, a harmless technique of which
is given in http://www.holotropic.com and in Alchemy61 a recipe of salt
& vinegar, copper, and "opposite polarities" is given, never to be
ingested!, but to be bottled up and hidden like a magick lamp with a
genii in it. I also got kicked out of some groups for that. Why didn't I
get kicked out of Alchemy61? I own the group.

On 10 aug, 12:24, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
> * * * All you have to do is go tohttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/TheParanormalResearchSociety/or better
> yethttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/alchemy61/, put "lahunken" in its
> search slot and click to read my posts on the subject.
> * * * The Paranormal Research Society threw my out for revealing the
> physical muscarinic nervous system secret, but, I have many more posts
> about the "paranormal" in Alchemy61, with the scientific explanations
> for all the phenomena.
> * * * We have two more dimensions at our disposal. The fifth dimension,
> officially defined for science by Harvard University quantum physics
> professor Dr. Lisa Randall in her book "Warped Passages", is moving in
> and out of globally bent timespaces, different tenuousities of "spirit".
> But, the further you go in, the more power your mind has to manifest
> your imagination as your reality.
> * * * This is mostly done by making it easier to travel in the sixth
> dimension, from timeline to timeline. Jesus said, "If you have the faith
> of a mustard seed and say to this mountain move it shall be moved". You
> simply go to the timeline where the mountain is elsewhere. *
> * * * You can travel into the more globally bent timespaces with that
> physical muscarinic nervous system secret, a harmless technique of which
> is given inhttp://www.holotropic.comand in Alchemy61 a recipe of salt
> & vinegar, copper, and "opposite polarities" is given, never to be
> ingested!, but to be bottled up and hidden like a magick lamp with a
> genii in it. I also got kicked out of some groups for that. Why didn't I
> get kicked out of Alchemy61? I own the group.

I am reading in the yahoo groups, it took me a few minutes to find
out how yahoo groups were working.

Just wondering how many books you own?
Or do you have other sources to find your
idea's? Maybe the internet?
Or maybe the collective subconciousness that
we are all connected to?

Berty

My cousin and I were in the American Institute of Archaeology. We
went to Eastern Europe to research the ancient Sumerians. The Sumerians
actually immigrated from Eastern Europe to the Near East 7000 years ago.
Those who remained behind are known today as the Szekelys.
In Eastern Europe the Sumerians left big old books of skin
preserved by copper acetate inwhich they wrote the knowledge of the Old
Ones, who seem to have been extraterrestrials. These books were kept in
the castle of Gheorghe Rakoczy where he translatd them.
We were in there and got English translations which were easily
translated into the language of modern science. Gheorghe Rakoczy had
Einstein's Relativity, String Theory, and beyond, back in 1670. My
cousin and I simply got all the basic answers to the mysteries of the
universe.
My cousin and I have this knowledge written in notebooks, and we
have basic intellectual libraries. We, and any one we can get
interested, do all we can to spread the suppressed portions of this
knowledge. I think we have all the basics in
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/alchemy61

On 9 aug, 21:17, Adamski_Rasputin <adamskiraspu...@yahoo.com> wrote:
> On 9 aug, 19:24, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
>
> > * * * The dopamine blockers only take away the joys, the joys from
> > everything. They don't stop "hallucinations". Under dopamine blockers I
> > used to see miserable spirits flowing in the sewers, I still had "x-ray
> > vision", and all I thought about was suicide.
> > * * * As I said before, in the movie "Flashback" it was revealed that
> > booze was an antidote for LSD. But, booze has a very inconvenient
> > homeopathic reaction. I wrote so many "crank" letters BC, Before
> > Compters (the internet, that is), and have obsessively written so much
> > on the internet since, that I have had plenty of practice. Thank you for
> > appreciating it.
>
> I tried a lot of antipsychotic (you call them dopamineblocker, others
> neuroleptica) and many had side effects that I didn't liked.
> Only a few, mostly the older ones had no side effects for me.
> When I take dopamine blockers I have no side affects, maybe I
> think not so fast as unmedicated, but fast enough for me.
> I am also of the generation before computers at current age 45.
> What is your opinion of the paranormal, what was for me the
> explanation
> for what happened to me BM (before medicated) ?
> I look forward to your answer.
>

I want to tell you something I encountered BM.

I was in my bedroom , it was about 7 o'clock in the evening and it was
still light outside (beginning of summer) and I was resting and
listening
to my voices in my head.

I walked to the radio and suddenly I heard a loud voice in my head
say:

We got him, he is in the future, we found him.

I looked at my watch and the arms of the watch were turning round and
round
very quickly, the next moment it was dark outside and I was very
confused.
It was 11 in the evening.

I never understood that situation in the sense of being sz.
Was it a hallucination, very strange.

Do you have an explanation?

Berty

On 10 aug, 20:59, Adamski_Rasputin <adamskiraspu...@yahoo.com> wrote:
> On 9 aug, 21:17, Adamski_Rasputin <adamskiraspu...@yahoo.com> wrote:
>
>
>
>
>
> > On 9 aug, 19:24, gellie...@webtv.net (Miguel Alberto) wrote:
>
> > > * * * The dopamine blockers only take away the joys, the joys from
> > > everything. They don't stop "hallucinations". Under dopamine blockersI
> > > used to see miserable spirits flowing in the sewers, I still had "x-ray
> > > vision", and all I thought about was suicide.
> > > * * * As I said before, in the movie "Flashback" it was revealed that
> > > booze was an antidote for LSD. But, booze has a very inconvenient
> > > homeopathic reaction. I wrote so many "crank" letters BC, Before
> > > Compters (the internet, that is), and have obsessively written so much
> > > on the internet since, that I have had plenty of practice. Thank you for
> > > appreciating it.
>
> > I tried a lot of antipsychotic (you call them dopamineblocker, others
> > neuroleptica) and many had side effects that I didn't liked.
> > Only a few, mostly the older ones had no side effects for me.
> > When I take dopamine blockers I have no side affects, maybe I
> > think not so fast as unmedicated, but fast enough for me.
> > I am also of the generation before computers at current age 45.
> > What is your opinion of the paranormal, what was for me the
> > explanation
> > for what happened to me BM (before medicated) ?
> > I look forward to your answer.
>
> I want to tell you something I encountered BM.
>
> I was in my bedroom , it was about 7 o'clock in the evening and it was
> still light outside (beginning of summer) and I was resting and
> listening
> to my voices in my head.
>
> I walked to the radio and suddenly I heard a loud voice in my head
> say:
>
> We got him, he is in the future, we found him.
>
> I looked at my watch and the arms of the watch were turning round and
> round
> very quickly, the next moment it was dark outside and I was very
> confused.
> It was 11 in the evening.
>
> I never understood that situation in the sense of being sz.
> Was it a hallucination, very strange.
>
> Do you have an explanation?
>
> Berty- Tekst uit oorspronkelijk bericht niet weergeven -
>
> - Tekst uit oorspronkelijk bericht weergeven -

AM (after medicated) I still have this strange thing with time.

Many times a day I notice both arms over eachother, like when
I am not looking my watch for an hour I suddenly look at
my watch and there it is again, two arms over eachother.

Very strange, do you have a explanation?

Berty

"Damaeus" <no-mail@hotmail.invalid> kirjoitti
viestissä:7c0o941oas79v3o7knnt3e2i3ljo5aqou5@4ax.c om...
> In news:alt.support.schizophrenia, "wewe" <ewew@wewe.fi> posted on
> Fri, 8 Aug 2008 08:55:03 +0300:
>
>> I am schizophrenic and i have managed to experience wonderful
>> euphorias and even been ecstatic during the summer. It´s like a
>> DRUG and I want more. It is GOD and i want more. There is no
>> other state of mind or no drug that gets me as high as these
>> euphorias do.
>
> Hey, thanks for posting. Do you feel a sense of connection to ancient
> mythology?
>
>> I do not understand why people take drugs to take away the
>> euphorias.
>
> Actually, if you use just cannabis it will intensify these feelings
> you're having and make them more dynamic. Cannabis turns the dialup
> connection to God into a broadband connection.
>

Ok thanx for the advice, im gonna try cannabis. I want it rough. Im a guy
who takes life seriously and I want The BIG BIG BIG enjoyment.
I really want to get higher. You are a good man. I love you. Jesus loves
you. I hope you get as high as you possible can.

>> It´s not just a dopamine or serotonin release, it is something
>> more deeper, and of course there is no "comedown" or crash from
>> these feelings. My euphoria can last up to 2 hours, I wish that
>> you all will be able to experience euphorias. Even if there
>> would be the deepest depression after these euphorias I don´t
>> CARE. They are worth it.
>
> I know what you're going through. Just enjoy it. There's more
> coming.
>

Yeah i certainly enjoy it. The best feeling is when i feel I am GOD and in
some trance like state of mind. I feel so high.
I don´t use any drugs at the moment. I believe life is about enjoyment. I
dont care if i crash. I just wanna be high and enjoy my schizophrenia.
I wanna spread this happy message to everybody. Have faith in god and jesus.
Read about religion. GET religious experiences. Feel the holy spirit.

<schenkeyah@gmail.com> kirjoitti
viestissä:be48e3a8-c5b6-4b6b-8cd5-5c48c3fb020b@k30g2000hse.googlegroups.com...
> Hello!
>
> You probably have a schizoaffective disorder, which means something
> like bipolar and schizophrenia together.
>
> You must cut down the euphoria even if you think it is good for you.
> On the long term it is a very bad thing.
>

I don´t understand why feeling really good could be a bad thing, everybody
wants to feel good.
It´s like a drug and i want more of it.

> In mania at first (hypomania) everything is better. You are smarter,
> more aware of the environment and people, you are amusing, outgoing
> and you can function really good. But!!! When hypomania becomes mania,
> things get worse, a lot worse...
>

Bullshit. You are just hypnotised by your doctors, think it´s just some kind
of chemical imbalance i have. I don´t buy psychiatry. I dont believe in
psychiatry.
I believe there is more than just chemistry beyond these high feelings i
have. It is god talking to me.

> You are very engry, you can quarrel easily with people in everyday
> life and what is the worst with people closest to you.
>
I dont get angry ever. I just love to be carefree.


> You think you dont need anyone, you think you are not wrong, that
> everyone is against you, etc.
>
> It does not take a long time to lose people around you.
>
> And there is another danger! When you are in the worst mania it
> usually turns back to psychosis and then to depression of the highest
> degree.
>

Im already in psychosis, I see hallucinations around me. The only thinkg
that makes me depressed is when i try to stop smoking cigarettes.
It makes me so depressed and in so great mental pain, I wanna kill myself.
It is because cigarettes release dopamine. And when i stop smoking i don´t
have enough dopamine and I get depressed. Im sure if I should take cocaine
or ritalin i would feel better too because these drug release dopamine.
Im not gonna take any other drugs than caffeine and cigarettes though. I
don´t wanna be a junkie.


> But you wont mind this post, you will figure things out on your own.
>

I certainly care about your post, but it is just your material OPINION. Why
would you know better than me.


> My suggestion to you is:
>
> Ask a doctor about an increase of your mood stabiliser, wheather you
> have vaproat or antipsychotic which is mood stabiliser as well.
>

I did that. I tried Zyprexa and it made soooo depressed and I felt so bad I
was thinking of killing myself.
The reason it made me feel bad is because it takes away that serotonine and
dopamine I have in my brain.

> Is you are manic that is not the reality it is just one step closer to
> psychosis.
>
> But youll probably have to go through the worst for I think you wont
> listen...
>
The last time I had my psychosis, I really enjoyed it until the evil doc
forced me on meds. I believe i have some kind of psychosis now too,
and I certainly enjoy it.

> I hope you stabilise yourself...
>
No, i won´t stabilise myself. I hate being stabile. You seem to not
understand that fact that people are different. Some like to be bored. I
don´t like to be bored.
I like it hard, very hard.

<schenkeyah@gmail.com> kirjoitti
viestissä:be48e3a8-c5b6-4b6b-8cd5-5c48c3fb020b@k30g2000hse.googlegroups.com...
> Hello!
>
>
> And there is another danger! When you are in the worst mania it
> usually turns back to psychosis and then to depression of the highest
> degree.
>

You really don´t understand that I want to be in psychosis.

In news:alt.support.schizophrenia, "wewe" <ewew@wewe.fi> posted on
Mon, 11 Aug 2008 08:44:39 +0300:

> Yeah i certainly enjoy it. The best feeling is when i feel I am GOD and in
> some trance like state of mind. I feel so high.

Yeah, don't feel guilty about those feelings when they come. He wants
you to know what it feels like to be a god, cuz that's what we're all
becoming. The thing is, though, that it can feel so "big" being God
that it becomes a sort of private ego thing that you try not to show
others. Still, it's fun to do, and it feels good, which is what it's
all about. I'm just saying that I soon learned that I'm still me,
ultimately, and interpolating the mortal and the immortal is what all
these feelings are about -- changing your physical body into an
immortal form.

Damaeus