Every day

Is a challenge.

I wish I was a masochist, I really do. Life would be great.

During my last psychotic episode, I was still working, and serving
many, many people per day.

I was beginning to think it was going to make me a little sexually
twisted and turn me into a sexual dominant because all the serving all
day would make me hold everything inside and I would have to turn
around and take it out on someone later. All the serving was really
getting to me.

I would really look the part. I think you have to learn to enjoy that
stuff. But I really think these people are maybe onto something about
how to deal with pain.

Gelly wrote:
> Is a challenge.

It is for me too.

> I wish I was a masochist, I really do. Life would be great.
>
> During my last psychotic episode, I was still working, and serving
> many, many people per day.

You need some people to serve you, and respect you, and be your friend
for a change.

> I was beginning to think it was going to make me a little sexually
> twisted and turn me into a sexual dominant because all the serving all
> day would make me hold everything inside and I would have to turn
> around and take it out on someone later. All the serving was really
> getting to me.

I don't think you would suddenly turn sadistic like that, but I guess
it's possible.

> I would really look the part. I think you have to learn to enjoy that
> stuff. But I really think these people are maybe onto something about
> how to deal with pain.

I don't think you "look the part." Masochists don't like all forms of
pain from what I gather. Masochists hurt themselves, and I think it's a
very sad thing.

We all need respect, of ourselves, from and for our friends.

On Sat, 26 Jan 2008 07:01:39 -0800, Gelly wrote:

> Is a challenge.
>
> I wish I was a masochist, I really do. Life would be great.
>
> During my last psychotic episode, I was still working, and serving many,
> many people per day.
>
> I was beginning to think it was going to make me a little sexually
> twisted and turn me into a sexual dominant because all the serving all
> day would make me hold everything inside and I would have to turn around
> and take it out on someone later. All the serving was really getting to
> me.
>
> I would really look the part. I think you have to learn to enjoy that
> stuff. But I really think these people are maybe onto something about
> how to deal with pain.

Baring your butt for a jab,
their training you to be a masochist,
Psychiatry is BDSM