It's that simple. Once again about four people whom I depend on are
not there for me. Not to mention my birth family, which hates the very
thought of me being successful at anything at all.

This is the pattern of my life, for me to start to hope again and get
built up just so it hurts the most when my hopes are dashed.

**** it. I have no one to depend on except myself again. Not that I'll
ever learn not to trust anyone.