exclusion vs. persecution

i used to feel excluded by people. I remember in college one of my
neighbors having some people over his apartment and i felt very lonely
and excluded by the group. I got really anxious and wanted very badly
to be a part of what was going on. I eventually got over my shyness
and went over to hang out, and found nothing be afraid of. Nowadays,
I don't feel so much excluded but persecuted. I don't have that same
feeling, that wanting to be with other groups of people because i feel
they are against me. It takes away from my ability to be patient.
when you feel excluded, there's nobody to be angry with but yourself,
and with patience, you may be included. It's reality to feel this
way. when you feel persecuted, you become angry with the group you
feel disconnected from, and you don't really want to be a part of the
group and transition is not as desirable or tolerable. even random
people i feel this way, strangers in the street.