feeling strange

Hi all,

I'm back, after lots of damned siytuations.

I was a schizo; now I'm a schizo and have a tumor.

They operated me in neurosurgery two times: 1)partial removal of the
tumor (35%, really really great, after 12 hours of operation, fifteen
days of coma, 4 months of bed during hospitalization....let it be,
fuck off all 'normal people'!) and
2)stabilization bars at the skull base - C1 - C2.

Now I feel so strange, I feel like I was another person... completely
different from the guy I was in october 2006.

I don't know....when I close my eyes relaxing my neck on the bed I
hear and feel strange and inchoerent voices....my brothers bothering
me, doctors, nurses moving extremely rapidly.....

Dysphagia, dysarthria and other fucking symptoms.
I'm seriously considering the non-existence of any God.

Love,

fighter1973