Mind control community article in Washington Post

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn...011001399.html

I wonder what people here think of this.

I went through something like this around 2003-2004 a lot of which I
describe in my book 'The Hawk Flew South'

http://www.lulu.com/content/154662

That was about as much of the whole experience I could stand to put to
paper, though there is a lot more to the story. I just can't bring
myself to flesh it out anymore than it is. It was a terrible time. A
lot of what happened in that period I ascribe to side effects of
topomax, adjusting to abilify, having a bad psychiatrist, and many and
varied stressors at the time including the start of the war in Iraq.

Though I've had problems off and on and to varying degrees with the
whole voice phenomenon ever since I was 15 (sometimes it has gotten
really bad), the true nature of which remains a mystery, I don't think
that I everattributed it to government or alien technological mind
control per se although there was a brief period there particularly
when Iraq got started where I really felt like government psychics
were contacting me and communicating with me through whatever it is
that they do.

That whole period I was in the midst of what I would have to call
paranoia where I felt sure that I was being watched, photographed and
filmed when I walked outside, that since the light in the hall outside
my apartment was different than all the other ones it had been
replaced by government agents with a cancer-causing bulb, that the
vibrations I felt going through the apartment periodically were
cancer-causing vibrations set up by government teams in adjoining
apartments around me (now I think these vibrations are caused by
plumbing problems in the building) and that also the notion that any
moment I was going to be arrested.

These kinds of ideas are prevelant for people in the mental health
system and it is an unfortunate irony that quite often the only real
help they can receive for the stress and pain caused by these ideas
can only come from the government itself. So it is little wonder how
these communities spring up as described in the article.

Anyway, the mind plays strange tricks. That whole period was probably
the worst period of my life and there have been planety bad ones. I
don't ever want to go back there again. In a way I can see that having
a community like they describe in the article would have been a great
comfort at the time because it can be a terrible terrible thing to be
seen by most others, or everyone, as a crackpot for going through
those things. I am glad that I finally at long last got the support I
needed from the mental health system here.

Sometimes getting out of those states of complete and ongoing terror
can be brought about by someone just telling you something. In the
midst of it I had a friend state that 'the government just doesn't
care' about what I'm up to and what I'm doing. And it was really
contemplating this idea, which some would say is obvious, that largely
brought me out of it for the most part. I had to stop thinking of
myself as a special target for them and that they in effect wanted to
destroy me and start thinking of myself as just what I probably was,
just a non-issue for them. Someone that they j ust largely didn't know
about. So that was a good thing.

I still know and know of people who think they are singled out for
some strange mental persecution by forces out there named and unnamed
and they are very caught up in the notion. OH and I remember it was a
great relief to get out of the whole realm of possibility and into the
realm of probability. In other words, stop dealing with, thinking
about, and reacting to all the things that possibly could happen
(which is vast) and start dealing with and thinking about the things
that will probably happen (which is a lot smaller). That was a
tremendous help, but I only discovered doing that quite recently.

Phin

http://www.nationalcynical.com