It seems the only thing left to do is meditate... No booze, no pot...
I miss my vices, but really, they didn't solve all my problems... But
sheesh, this depression I get... It's too much. I can't even meditate
my way out of it... Shit, I want to sneak out of my house and around
the back of the fence and grab my stash from inside the tree I put it
in. But my parents will hear me. They have super powerful hearing and
sense of smell... Dammit. Where to now... I have to go far from
reality... Fuck it, this is just addictive bullshit. I obviously need
to learn to get by without my vices... Why? Because people expect me
to... Get a job. Get married. Have kids... No way could I do these
things... Not when I can hardly get by... I'm too crazy. I need to
find general labour work, nothing where you need to think. Maybe I
should work for the council... Physical work I can do. The trick is to
pretend to be dumb, but sometimes I am naturally dumb. And I need to
find a girl thats just as crazy as me... But I ain't having kids
unless I love her... But then again, I really shouldn't.