Puzzle Universe

My most horrific nightmares and my most idealistic dreams are merging
together.

I think the universe wants me to enjoy my suffering.

No, You are feeling the group spirit of this tyranical culture that
says, "Suffer or we'll make you suffer. Suffer or you'll suffer worse".
What? Are you in Massachusetts? That sounds like Massachusetts.
The Universe is like a bottle of water that has been shaken up. The
bubbles are the differentiations, atoms and molecules and us. The
bubbles seek to undifferentiate, and hurt no more. That which
facilitates this undifferentiation is called the "opposite polarities".
This tyranical culture is trying to block this liberation.