That seems to be very fortunate. I'd say, "Don't lose it!". I too
lost every relative, but one, and she called me up after not hearing
from her in over 10 years, when I had my own place alone. I had Liberty!
I could watch any videos I wanted to see, and come and go as I pleased,
eating what and all I wanted,... I didn't realize all the little things
that were so easy. Now I have to sneak 98% of all I do, or the way I do
it. I'm really getting practice in stealth, but it's constant stress.
That girl who called was my first cousin. I live with her now and she is
an absolutely tyranical control freak.
You know what happened Damo. I have written how I lost everything
many times. But, I am probably luckier than ever. I have someone to take
care of me in my old age. And, if anything happens to her, being two
years older than I am, her daughter loves me too and wants to come to
live here with me. The Bible says, "God is Love". When I was alone
before I became a Christian I used to say to myself, "Wow, am I lucky. I
have no love in my life to feel guilty about". But now that I have found
love. I'll never be able to live without it. Now, I don't mean lust.
When I was alone I used to pick up a prostitute at least onece a week.
All my girl friends and wives had been whores. Again I say, with this
stigma of schizophrenia all I could associate with were other mental
patients and criminals.
Here's a funny story for you. I had a sports jacket with the
classical Ainu design all over it. My first wife said, "Save that for
your "colored" girl friend". She was a bigoted WASP. After our divorce,
she still lived with her parents a few houses up the street, and one
afternoon I came out of my house with that jacket on with a black
prostitute as my arm candy, and my first exwife saw us. That exwife
killed her self the next week.
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