Quiet Neighbor wrote:
> If you are getting pills, then I assume you already have a doctor, and,
> thus, a diagnosis.
>
Its not like that, i was taking the pills 2 years ago...the situation
was a little complicated...1 thing is that i was feeling bad... i had
visions that everybody want mine death(ridiculus)but i belived in
it...i couldnt stay at school ...it was like a nightmare....i was
staying there for 1-2 lessons then i was running home...this fuckin
year was worse than anything....it didnt rise just like that.... teh
cause of this was that the community of people who live in my town has
started to hate me. My town (Pieniezno)(the z letter is read as letter
g in name george...strange name ....)so why the community has started
to hate random person? the cause is sad...it was like that...I was
drinking vodka with friend....the vodka has ended so we decided to go
for another one...but we had no money....we started to seek the money,
we were walking and asking people for some money..it was the
evening..then we saw the Stasio, we saw that somebody is giving him
money, it was like 20 zl(equality of 10 beers), we asked nicely for
1zl, he said something like "A Pie Wy Ty me going home, , that i call
the police" - we thought that he is drunk and that he is trying to
scare us and call the police...so we have taught him a lesson.. we
almost killed him(seriously)(we were drunk 2, remember it!)guy was in
hospital for 2 weaks fighting to survive he was in almost dead... for 1
weak he didnt restore his awakens. the second day after we have beatten
him the police came to my house, i was in jail for few days.... the
good thing was that i was the only person in my prisoned room (no
comrades)... i was there for 3 days but i really dont remember the
exacly amount of time i was there....in the night light was always
on...hour by hour the little hole in the door was moving and u could
see a policemans eye which was looking through the little hole checking
if u didnt make a suicide(probably cause it could make some kind of bad
smell)...for 3 days i only ate 1 sausage ... i was all the time sitting
in my "room" ...3rd day policeman was hearing me. It turned out that
the man who we beaten was retarded......he was stupid and all... he had
papers that he is retarded....etc etc...fortunatelly i went back to
home...it has turned out that the person(Stasio) was respected member
of pieniezno family, people started to hate me..it was real...my friend
has changed school(we was studying in pieniezno)but the people was
killing him so much so he changed...they were killin me also...the 1st
day i came to school after Stasios event the group of people (about 30
people)[Wellcome to pieniezno] started to hit me when i was smoking
ciggarete...nice...nice...blood from nose ...etc etc....i couldnt
defend myself....it was 2 much people there. the next days were just
worse...it was like everybody was talking about me and trying to hurt
me... bah! ...it would be just ok if my parents would stand up for
me....but my parents were worse than the people in school... "U almost
killed a retarded person, why u did it? he could not defend himself,
he almost died, .....blah blah blah" i was soo exhausted the whole
situation...my visions became a lot more intensive. I couldnt sleep etc
etc... i was thinking that if i go outside in the evening(somewhere
else than school or my house) the bastards will kill me....once when i
was going to meet a friend ..i saw them ...i was paranoid... i have
started to run g0d damnit it is so fuckin bad memory i though that
there are people hided in bushes next to road i though that they are
speaking to each other to meet and kill me in "nowhere"- cause my
friend live behind the pieniezno...noone else live there... i saw the
cars horning in the one side of road and in the other...the cars was
just standing (not moving) and horning to each other...imagine the
situation u stand on the road...u turn left there is a car standing and
horning...u turn right there is other car horning(u know that they want
to kill u)what have i done...i couldnt call the police cause i saw
earlier a police car which was hunting for me 2.. cause policemen like
other people wanted to kill me 2 (policeman also human u know)...i have
called my parents and to suprise me they came... i was so fuckin
scared god damnit.....i cant imagine to call my parents now.....but it
just happened ...parents came and had to take me back to home...i didnt
manage to go meet friend.....and i was acting like that all the
time...i was scared and i had fuckin visions i didnt manage to know if
the visions are true or not...i was alone in the situation... it was
the most intensive situation....and then my mother just decided to take
me to the psychiatrist, psychiatrist said that i have psychoza(or
something like that) and gave me pills..the pills were killing me...i
wasnt taking that pills cause i though they(parents) want to kill me ,
giving me these pills. I took it once and i have just slept.... i did
it only once and i wont take it anymore maybe it helped me cause i dont
have so intensive visions now....is it really possible that i have
schizophrenia, cause the more i read about it the more i am sure thats
possible
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