Recently my grandmother died and a few days earlier an old friend died and
before that is was the sister and father of another friend. Now my boyfriend
and I are getting older and so are my parents. Now I think what is life? Why
be here awhile and then die? Isn't it just senseless? Just when things get
going and your feeling comfortable you can die and we are all going to die.
I dread my death and I've had to think about it too much lately with all
these deaths occuring.
Why do you think life exists just to be snuffed out at some time.
Then if death isn't bad enough old age comes with terrible aches and pains
ugliness and loss of abilities to move and do things.
You were a baby at birth and you somewhat return to that same state upon
death. You shit your pants and piss on yourself. You can't walk and stumble.
Can't eat your food yourself sometimes have to be fed. Then someone has to
wash you and put you in your bed to sit and think of how wonderful life has
become.
I'm curious as to what keeps all of mankind from just killing themselves
once this knowledge becomes known to them.
What keeps us going when we have no control over when our bodies will get
hurt or just stop functioning correctly. What the fuck is the sense in
living? I must ask what is it?
Now I dread the idea of living without my mate as this would be the most
horrible thing that could happen. Lets face it unless we die at the same
time one of us will be left to live life alone without the other. Now this
really scares me as I think I could get along better without my mate then he
could do without me.
Sorry to rain on your parade but this existence of the food chain as we know
it and how everything on this planet kills to sustain itself. One might
think that killing animals to eat is bad but what about the plant it's alive
too. All of life kills to live even the tree will kill off other plantation
to exist.
Hey I'm really depresssed.
girl