why are you alive

It's late, i'm tired, i have to be at work early tomorow, and I'm up
asking myself this question. I am so easily smacked back into my cage
by those around me. once i came to this realization i asked myself
why am i alive? what is the point of living at the mercy of everyone
around me. People are evil and unmerciful.

people are mostly fucktards that talk too much. I'm sick of it all.

Tend to agree.
In a movie with Nicholas Cage he asked a guy doing snuff porn movies
and killing young girl why they did it.

He answered simply: WE DID IT BECAUSE WE COULD.

And this is the only answer I got this far.
They do it because they can.

I recommend a DVD called: "The Secret"

With positive thinking, even a scheezer can see things in a brighter light.

People change with the input they get. How you treat others influences how
they treat you. For example, a woman I know hates her family, but spent
$5000 to try to save her pet dog from brain cancer. The dog knew how to
treat her. The same woman could be both hateful or loving depending on the
input she received.

QN

"PeacePipe" <mmfurgs@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:1191557074.999611.238010@k79g2000hse.googlegr oups.com...
> It's late, i'm tired, i have to be at work early tomorow, and I'm up
> asking myself this question. I am so easily smacked back into my cage
> by those around me. once i came to this realization i asked myself
> why am i alive? what is the point of living at the mercy of everyone
> around me. People are evil and unmerciful.
>

On Oct 5, 9:38 pm, "Quiet Neighbor" <priv...@spamless.net> wrote:
> I recommend a DVD called: "The Secret"
>
> With positive thinking, even a scheezer can see things in a brighter light.
>
> People change with the input they get. How you treat others influences how
> they treat you. For example, a woman I know hates her family, but spent
> $5000 to try to save her pet dog from brain cancer. The dog knew how to
> treat her. The same woman could be both hateful or loving depending on the
> input she received.
>
> QN
>
> "PeacePipe" <mmfu...@yahoo.com> wrote in message
>
> news:1191557074.999611.238010@k79g2000hse.googlegr oups.com...
>
> > It's late, i'm tired, i have to be at work early tomorow, and I'm up
> > asking myself this question. I am so easily smacked back into my cage
> > by those around me. once i came to this realization i asked myself
> > why am i alive? what is the point of living at the mercy of everyone
> > around me. People are evil and unmerciful.

I agree, Quiet Neighbor. Time for Release of Prisoners has not yet
come.
But the alternative is not bright.
They are majority and they are the system. System of Satan.
But the good news is that they are actually afraid of us, of the fact
that we are different. Or the bad news, depending on whether the
system in Nazi killing mentals or not.

Amen.

That Nicholas Cage movie was "Eight Millimeter". Do you remember
the ancient witchcraft chanting they played in the background? That is
what "sacrifice" really was. The word "sacrifice" came from the ancient
Sumerian word "zook", which meant throat.
In Dr. Stanislav Grof's holotropic breathing sessions the
assistants are requred to be experienced in breathing all the way
through perinatal matrix three. Why? the holotropic breathers will drag
the assistants into perinatal matrix three with them, and if they are
inexperienced they will freak out. See http://www.holotropic.com so you
can get "The Adventure of Self Discovery", by Dr. Stanislav Grof, and
learn all about it,
In perinatal matrix two the mind is powerful to mainfest its
visualizations into reality: magick power. But it is unethical to use
someone else to bring you there easy. You can do it by stimulating your
own muscarinic nerves, chakras, to override the inhibitory neurons that
LSD blocks, and therefore does the same thing. This is real psychosis.

> That Nicholas Cage movie was "Eight Millimeter".

eight millemeter was a terrible movie that should be banned. i hated
that movie, sorry. I know how you feel, i hate existing too.
especially as a schizophrneic

i dont understand why im alive. i would rather be dead. enter the
void. suicide can be a romantic thought sometimes where forgiveness
would be granted and i will join the souls and wander around in the
universe. maybe i would find peace and live on a distant galaxy or
some crazy demension

On Oct 6, 4:53 pm, ACE <dan...@msn.com> wrote:
> i dont understand why im alive. i would rather be dead. enter the
> void. suicide can be a romantic thought sometimes where forgiveness
> would be granted and i will join the souls and wander around in the
> universe. maybe i would find peace and live on a distant galaxy or
> some crazy demension

to float in set amongst the stars....., that is a comforting thought.
sometimes, when i can't sleep at night, i imagine myself lying in the
street bleeding a river into a nearby gutter. it relaxes me, thinking
of the blood flowing out of my body. i imagine myself getting more
drowsy as my body drains.

> to float in set amongst the stars....., that is a comforting thought.
> sometimes, when i can't sleep at night, i imagine myself lying in the
> street bleeding a river into a nearby gutter. it relaxes me, thinking
> of the blood flowing out of my body. i imagine myself getting more
> drowsy as my body drains.

man i hate to say this, but i have had some of the same thoughts. its
comforting knowing that my suffering could end. and lemme tell you
this bro, i wasnt suicidal until my mind became sick. yes its a very
comforting thought, and i hope things work out but on the same page, i
would love to float amongst the stars. sometimes i wish i had the
guts to just end everything, but it takes a certain amount of balls.
i would say courage, but most will judge suicides as a coward, though
they havent the slightest clue the living hell debilitating mental
illness can be. Schizophrenia sucks man. i became mentally ill
around age 19. thanks for the response. i can identify with your
desperation, your not alone.

--ACE

it really does suck, it's all fear and struggle and confusion. some
might say, "everyone has problems, it's hard for everyone" this may be
so, but without the disease you can feel the good parts.

Without the antipsychotic drugs you can feel the "good parts".
These antipsychotic drugs contain dopamine blockers that block your
dopamine, the neurotransmitter of the reward {joy, good} system of your
brain. We must have a revolution to overthrow the ever impending threat
of dopamine blockers!