this is wonderful

Early in life I was an unpleasant asshole but at least did the right thing
when the chips were down. Now I'm just as unethical as any Microsoft
vice-president and still an unpleasant asshole. So the special interests
that humped my arse from age 0 to age 42 have stopped now, and I'm finally
free--free to sit in my bedroom and stare at the wall all day, but at least
I'm being left alone. And miracle of miracles, I'm even free to post here!
As a mental patient I lack all credibility, even with fellow mental
patients. No matter what my posts actually say, even you guys respond with
"Mike, are you having symptoms again?" and ignore the content of my words.
In some ways it's wonderful that, if I wanted to, I could post any old
fucking bullshit that farted upon my brain and it would make no difference.
(I don't, but I'm free to.) This is what I've tried to achieve all my
life--total freedom to speak out even if nobody's listening. And the latter
has been necessary for the sake of the former. This, dear kiddies, is true
happiness. Even if the egg of my life has needed to be broken in order to
cook the omelette of my free speech.

Mike

Why do you take all that psychiatric ideological crap, you being a
vice president of Microsoft? I was a candidate for the title Beast 666
when I was younger, but I have become a very appreciative Christian.
The stigma of being schizophrenic banned me from all respectable
employment. When laws were passed against such discrimination, believe
me, employers found other excuses to ban schizophrenics. There are
employed schizopphrenics working, but, they are token schizophrenics,
just to appear to fulfil the law. Now, if I had any gainful employment I
would lose my disability compensation. They can tell by your taxes. So,
forget it. I'm 62 with bad arthritis and I am retired for life.
You are in Canada, aren't you? There's no actual legal freedom of
speech in Canada.


http://community.webtv.net/mpereira/TheSecretsofthe

Michael, I'm *not* a VP of Microsoft. I just said my ethics are as rotten
right now as if I were one. Blame ethical erosion through the pressures of
life on my weak character. But now that I no longer have ethical superiority
going for me, I still can't stop behaving like a jerk. Which makes me
considerably less than most humans on earth.

Mike

"Michael A. Pereira" <mpereira@webtv.net> wrote in message
news:9682-46DFCE62-1393@storefull-3135.bay.webtv.net...
> Why do you take all that psychiatric ideological crap, you being a
> vice president of Microsoft? I was a candidate for the title Beast 666
> when I was younger, but I have become a very appreciative Christian.
> The stigma of being schizophrenic banned me from all respectable
> employment. When laws were passed against such discrimination, believe
> me, employers found other excuses to ban schizophrenics. There are
> employed schizopphrenics working, but, they are token schizophrenics,
> just to appear to fulfil the law. Now, if I had any gainful employment I
> would lose my disability compensation. They can tell by your taxes. So,
> forget it. I'm 62 with bad arthritis and I am retired for life.
> You are in Canada, aren't you? There's no actual legal freedom of
> speech in Canada.
>
>
> http://community.webtv.net/mpereira/TheSecretsofthe
>

All of my life I lived with a high anxiety level, which damaged many phases
(every phase?) of my life. As clonazapam has relaxed me for about 2 years
now, I feel my effect on others is completely different -much much nicer.


"Mike Kocic" <isotope@mikikocic.com> wrote in message
news:13dvhfd2gd5sd46@corp.supernews.com...
> Early in life I was an unpleasant asshole but at least did the right thing
> when the chips were down. Now I'm just as unethical as any Microsoft
> vice-president and still an unpleasant asshole. So the special interests
> that humped my arse from age 0 to age 42 have stopped now, and I'm finally
> free--free to sit in my bedroom and stare at the wall all day, but at
> least I'm being left alone. And miracle of miracles, I'm even free to post
> here! As a mental patient I lack all credibility, even with fellow mental
> patients. No matter what my posts actually say, even you guys respond with
> "Mike, are you having symptoms again?" and ignore the content of my words.
> In some ways it's wonderful that, if I wanted to, I could post any old
> fucking bullshit that farted upon my brain and it would make no
> difference. (I don't, but I'm free to.) This is what I've tried to achieve
> all my life--total freedom to speak out even if nobody's listening. And
> the latter has been necessary for the sake of the former. This, dear
> kiddies, is true happiness. Even if the egg of my life has needed to be
> broken in order to cook the omelette of my free speech.
>
> Mike
>