Crashing Mood

[Becky]

Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with no
energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it passed
quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my mood
any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i do? It
doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still need the
damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them . I
dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being bipolar!!
I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday. Im
relly looking forward to it.
I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will try
something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is my
pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 10
hours, 35 minutes.

--
Becky
QOF

[PolarBear]

On Oct 26, 10:48*am, "Becky" <sobern2...@cavtel.net> wrote:
> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with no
> energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it passed
> quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my mood
> any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i do? It
> doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still need the
> damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them .I
> dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being bipolar!!
> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday. Im
> relly looking forward *to it.
> *I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will try
> something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is my
> pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! *I love it so much@
> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 10
> hours, 35 minutes.
>
> --
> Becky
> QOF

I love your spirit Becky. Yeah find something positve. Its always a
good idea.

Like you I am in a pissy mood today. I guess the lack of sleep over
the last days got to me. I am just feeling tiered and want to cry and
than I came to AS3 looking for support and some nice other peoples
success post but all I found is those jerks entertaining AS3.
****.....
but we both know smoking wouldn't help, neither will it make us none
bipolar. so lets ride the the waves and make the best out of it.
no smoking for me today either
hugs
PolarBear

[CuckooCat]

Becky, go break something!!!

....and remember, I used NRT for NINE months.
**** it...use it forever if ya want.
Love you!
Cat
4Y10M



"Becky" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:ia6pni$gko$[email protected]..
> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with no
> energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it
> passed quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my
> mood any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i do?
> It doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still need
> the damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off
> them . I dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being
> bipolar!!
> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday. Im
> relly looking forward to it.
> I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will
> try something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is
> my pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days,
> 10 hours, 35 minutes.
>
> --
> Becky
> QOF
>

[Bruce Watson]

In article <ia6pni$gko$[email protected]>,
Becky <[email protected]> wrote:

>Yes I feel bad that I still need the
>damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them . I
>dont know what the **** to do.

You've been told to keep using them.

Why aren't you happy with that?

[PolarBear]

On Oct 26, 12:16*pm, "CuckooCat" <si...@laughing.net> wrote:
> Becky, go break something!!!
>
> ...and remember, I used NRT for NINE months.
> **** it...use it forever if ya want.
> Love you!
> Cat
> 4Y10M
>

you did Cat?
I didn't know that. this makes me feel so much better.
I am in tears all morning not getting over the fact that I am nearly
quit four month and missing my chewing gums. dammit I started to hate
this quit.
PolarBear

[PolarBear]

On Oct 26, 12:22*pm, anon3...@nyx.nyx.net (Bruce Watson) wrote:
> In article <ia6pni$gk...@news.eternal-september.org>,
>
> Becky <sobern2...@cavtel.net> wrote:
> >Yes I feel bad that I still need the
> >damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them .. I
> >dont know what the **** to do.
>
> You've been told to keep using them.
>
> Why aren't you happy with that?

Bruce are you ****ing stupid or what. Its you and SteveO who feed us
the crap of getting of them and making us feel like we are ****ing
addicts without a chance of getting ever of the NRT. Maybe Becky and I
have a better chance and will do much better without the two of you
and feeling judged all the time. Why don't you just go away and allow
the support I and Becky need so much right now and it got nothing to
do with NRT. We both will be able to relax much more and use gums or
lozenges how long ever we want without feeling guilty about it. Its
OUR decision what to do not yours. I DO NOT NEED OR WANT YOUR HELP.
PolarBear

[Clams Canino]

"PolarBear" <[email protected]> wrote in message news:eb068a44-50f0-49dc-

>> dammit I started to hate this quit.

It's not the **quit** you are hating.
Take a step back and refocus both your positive and negative energies.

I know you can do this.....

-W

[Clams Canino]

"PolarBear" <[email protected]> wrote in message news:995a7bb0-4e84-41dc-

Bruce are you ****ing stupid or what. Its you and SteveO who feed us
the crap of getting of them and making us feel like we are ****ing
addicts without a chance of getting ever of the NRT. Maybe Becky and I
have a better chance and will do much better without the two of you
and feeling judged all the time.
__________________________________________

Carmen, remember that these two a-holes would like nothing more that to see
you (or Becky) fail so they can gloat the "they were right" and that "NRT
did you in".

That **alone** is reason enough to stay quit......

Let your hatred for them turn into the will to not smoke.
Feel the POWER of the Dark Side.

-W

[Debbie]

On 10/26/2010 12:23 PM, PolarBear wrote:
> On Oct 26, 12:16 pm, "CuckooCat"<si...@laughing.net> wrote:
>> Becky, go break something!!!
>>
>> ...and remember, I used NRT for NINE months.
>> **** it...use it forever if ya want.
>> Love you!
>> Cat
>> 4Y10M
>>
>
> you did Cat?
> I didn't know that. this makes me feel so much better.
> I am in tears all morning not getting over the fact that I am nearly
> quit four month and missing my chewing gums. dammit I started to hate
> this quit.
> PolarBear
Carmen, have you tried substituting some regular gum? I used nic gum
when I quit and gradually substituted regular gum. I don't remember how
long I used nicotine gum, but in the scheme of things it doesn't matter.
I quit over 6 years ago after smoking 2 packs a day for over 30 years.
Don't hate the quit and don't let yourself think that smoking will EVER
make anything in your life better.
Debbie (Rocker)

[DavidL]

On Oct 26, 11:23*am, PolarBear <carme...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> On Oct 26, 12:16*pm, "CuckooCat" <si...@laughing.net> wrote:
>
> > Becky, go break something!!!
>
> > ...and remember, I used NRT for NINE months.
> > **** it...use it forever if ya want.
> > Love you!
> > Cat
> > 4Y10M
>
> you did Cat?
> I didn't know that. this makes me feel so much better.
> I am in tears all morning not getting over the fact that I am nearly
> quit four month and missing my chewing gums. dammit I started to hate
> this quit.
> PolarBear

Yeah........ find someone that has what you want and has been where
you are.
Then do what they did to get where they are.

[Edna Pearl]

Great rant, Becky, and great attitude!

ep tof

"Becky" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:ia6pni$gko$[email protected]..
> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with no
> energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it
> passed quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my
> mood any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i do?
> It doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still need
> the damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off
> them . I dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being
> bipolar!!
> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday. Im
> relly looking forward to it.
> I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will
> try something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is
> my pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days,
> 10 hours, 35 minutes.
>
> --
> Becky
> QOF
>

[Edna Pearl]

Go away. Nobody wants you here.

ep tof

"Bruce Watson" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:[email protected]..

[Becky]

It is just after 11pm now as i write this. Perhaps you are sleeping now. I
hope your day went well for you and that you got to get out and RUN.running
is good to let off steam and feel better. I should try it sometime.
I have killfiled them both,but if I see any more from them even quoted
....Im gonna go bat**** on their asses. enough is ****ing enough
already.neither of us needs their ****.and nobody else really wants to deal
with it either.
I didnt smoke today either

--
Becky
QOF
Three months, two weeks, six days, 11 hours, 14 minutes and 38 seconds. 5623
cigarettes not smoked, saving $787.28. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 12
hours, 35 minutes.

"PolarBear" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:[email protected]...
On Oct 26, 10:48 am, "Becky" <sobern2...@cavtel.net> wrote:
> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with no
> energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it
> passed
> quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my
> mood
> any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i do? It
> doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still need the
> damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them .
> I
> dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being bipolar!!
> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday. Im
> relly looking forward to it.
> I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will
> try
> something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is my
> pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days,
> 10
> hours, 35 minutes.
>
> --
> Becky
> QOF

I love your spirit Becky. Yeah find something positve. Its always a
good idea.

Like you I am in a pissy mood today. I guess the lack of sleep over
the last days got to me. I am just feeling tiered and want to cry and
than I came to AS3 looking for support and some nice other peoples
success post but all I found is those jerks entertaining AS3.
****.....
but we both know smoking wouldn't help, neither will it make us none
bipolar. so lets ride the the waves and make the best out of it.
no smoking for me today either
hugs
PolarBear

[Becky]

Dear Cat! I didnt break anyting today.I will keep it in mind though .Im glad
you shared that you used NRT for nine months. I see your quit hasnt suffered
for it. almost 5 years without a cigarette. that will be me someday.nrt or
no nrt. I dont rightly care what the 2 stooges think. **** em!!!!
love you too!
Becky
QOF
Three months, two weeks, six days, 11 hours, 19 minutes and 0 seconds. 5623
cigarettes not smoked, saving $787.30. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 12
hours, 35 minutes.

"CuckooCat" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:ia6usk$842$[email protected]..
> Becky, go break something!!!
>
> ...and remember, I used NRT for NINE months.
> **** it...use it forever if ya want.
> Love you!
> Cat
> 4Y10M
>
>
>
> "Becky" <[email protected]> wrote in message
> news:ia6pni$gko$[email protected]..
>> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
>> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with
>> no energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it
>> passed quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
>> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my
>> mood any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i
>> do? It doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still
>> need the damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go
>> off them . I dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being
>> bipolar!!
>> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday.
>> Im relly looking forward to it.
>> I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
>> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will
>> try something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is
>> my pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
>> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
>> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days,
>> 10 hours, 35 minutes.
>>
>> --
>> Becky
>> QOF
>>
>

[Becky]

Ditto what she said! Take your ****ing preaching the **** back to ARN and
stay there. If someone wants what you have to say they will find you. your
little dog and pony show has gotten real ****ing old,you two.
Becky
poppin' a lozenge just for Bruce and steveO
Three months, two weeks, six days, 11 hours, 27 minutes and 16 seconds. 5623
cigarettes not smoked, saving $787.34. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 12
hours, 35 minutes.

"PolarBear" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:[email protected]..
On Oct 26, 12:22 pm, anon3...@nyx.nyx.net (Bruce Watson) wrote:
> In article <ia6pni$gk...@news.eternal-september.org>,
>
> Becky <sobern2...@cavtel.net> wrote:
> >Yes I feel bad that I still need the
> >damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go off them .
> >I
> >dont know what the **** to do.
>
> You've been told to keep using them.
>
> Why aren't you happy with that?

Bruce are you ****ing stupid or what. Its you and SteveO who feed us
the crap of getting of them and making us feel like we are ****ing
addicts without a chance of getting ever of the NRT. Maybe Becky and I
have a better chance and will do much better without the two of you
and feeling judged all the time. Why don't you just go away and allow
the support I and Becky need so much right now and it got nothing to
do with NRT. We both will be able to relax much more and use gums or
lozenges how long ever we want without feeling guilty about it. Its
OUR decision what to do not yours. I DO NOT NEED OR WANT YOUR HELP.
PolarBear

[Becky]

"Clams Canino" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:[email protected] m...
>
> "PolarBear" <[email protected]> wrote in message
> news:995a7bb0-4e84-41dc-
>
> Bruce are you ****ing stupid or what. Its you and SteveO who feed us
> the crap of getting of them and making us feel like we are ****ing
> addicts without a chance of getting ever of the NRT. Maybe Becky and I
> have a better chance and will do much better without the two of you
> and feeling judged all the time.
> __________________________________________
>
> Carmen, remember that these two a-holes would like nothing more that to
> see you (or Becky) fail so they can gloat the "they were right" and that
> "NRT did you in".
>
> That **alone** is reason enough to stay quit......
>
> Let your hatred for them turn into the will to not smoke.
> Feel the POWER of the Dark Side.
>
> -W

I like how you think,Wayne.Im gonna add this to my list of reasons not to
smoke again. to piss Nits and his sidekick off.jsut to prove to these jokers
that I can sustain a quit even with the nrt.I will not only Feel the power
of the DarkSide. I will unleash it full strength


--
Becky
QOF
Three months, two weeks, six days, 11 hours, 31 minutes and 43 seconds. 5623
cigarettes not smoked, saving $787.36. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 12
hours, 35 minutes.

[Becky]

"Edna Pearl" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:ia7kjv$leg$[email protected]..
> Great rant, Becky, and great attitude!
>
> ep tof

Thanks,ep. funny how my mood changed pretty quick. I didnt wallow in it and
distracted myself from it. and felt better.work was ok.didnt have to hurt
anyone or stuff em in the freezer.

--
Becky
QOF


>
> "Becky" <[email protected]> wrote in message
> news:ia6pni$gko$[email protected]..
>> Damn it!! I feel like **** today! Depressed and overwhelmed by **** like
>> bills and so forth.it doesnt help that my meds are making me tired with
>> no energy and i have to go to work. had a crave a few minutes ago but it
>> passed quickly. I came straight to AS3 and posted some stuff in another
>> thread.Seeing the ****heads quoted saying **** about me doenst help my
>> mood any.Why the **** are they so ****ing concerned with me and what i
>> do? It doenstn affect their quits in any way.Yes I feel bad that I still
>> need the damn lozeneges,but I get so ****ing depressed when I try to go
>> off them . I dont know what the **** to do.ARRRRR! I ****ing hate being
>> bipolar!!
>> I am excitted about a workshop im going to with my sponsor on saturday.
>> Im relly looking forward to it.
>> I think i willl go read a meditation book before work to try and get in a
>> good frame of mind. I do not want a bad day due to a bad mood,so I will
>> try something uplifting.Be back after work.I will not smoke today,that is
>> my pledge to you all. Im gonna keep this quit! I love it so much@
>> Three months, two weeks, five days, 23 hours, 52 minutes and 52 seconds.
>> 5599 cigarettes not smoked, saving $783.96. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days,
>> 10 hours, 35 minutes.
>>
>> --
>> Becky
>> QOF
>>
>
>