Goddam it all to fucking hell

What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking walked
out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things? What the
fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before she walked
into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I was
absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it hurts when
the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks out. She packed
what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own kids, and left.
She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later. Fucking hell.
After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I won't
love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually healed
my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I did with
all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The last three
weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took my Libido away
for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big fucking issue. I
don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in the world for not
noticing the little things that women always pay attention to.
This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in this
group anymore.
Goddamn it all to hell.

AZ

AZ wrote:
> What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking walked
> out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things? What the
> fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before she walked
> into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I was
> absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it hurts when
> the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks out. She packed
> what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own kids, and left.
> She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later. Fucking hell.
> After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
> again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I won't
> love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually healed
> my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I did with
> all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The last three
> weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took my Libido away
> for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big fucking issue. I
> don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in the world for not
> noticing the little things that women always pay attention to.
> This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
> later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
> have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in this
> group anymore.
> Goddamn it all to hell.
>
> AZ
>
>

Stay smober! Stay sober!

Fucking booze and nicotine addictions don't help -- stick with the quits!

Give yourself time to heal -- if you start drinking and smoking now, a
week, two weeks from now you'll be kicking your ass 'What the fuck was I
thinking this was going to help??'

Life's a bitch, my friend, but as shitty as we think our own lives are,
all we have to do is look at some third world countries and our own
problems quickly become dwarfed.

Don't make a bad situation worse AZ -- it's NOT fucking worth it.

You'll end up paying your dues again. Stick with your quits.

Keep posting -- that's what we're here for.

Cheers and Man-Hugs,
Marvin

--
I don't smoke. I smell like bread. Life is Good.

On Jun 24, 3:00 pm, "AZ" <azi...@bellsouth.net> wrote:
There is nothing good that will come from drinking or smoking....only
bad. I know you know that AZ. Run around the block to distract
yourself from the addictions. Five years sober is too damn long to
throw away!!! I know I've been there and it's hard to get sobriety
back. Do anything you can (physically) to distract yourself....push
ups, swim in a pool......... Breathe deep and sit on your
hands...cry. Just don't turn to coping mechanisms that will kill you!
Angie

AZ!!! Please listen to me!!!! I know you are hurting and pissed right
now,but blowing your sobriety and your smokefree time wont bring her
back!!!Please dont do this!!!!! If you are in a 12 step program CALL YOUR
SPONSOR IMMEDIATELY AND GET TO A MEETING!!!!!`Share at teh meeting what is
going on, cry ,rant whatever you need to do to get thru this. But I can tell
you from experience that drinking and smoking over this wont help at all. It
might dull the pain for awhile but tomorrow when you wake up,the remorse you
will no doubt feel will just make what you are feeling 10 times
worse.Believe me I know. I spent years drinking and smoking to deal with
feelings and situations,and it never ever ever made the situation better
,only worse! I will be keeping an eye on this ng ,hoping to see that you are
gonna take care of you,and not do something that you will regret.
Becky
Three weeks, 20 hours, 38 minutes and 45 seconds. 1092 cigarettes not
smoked, saving $101.65. Life saved: 3 days, 19 hours, 0 minutes.

"AZ" <azikra@bellsouth.net> wrote in message
news:WPBfi.5277$G9.4631@bignews6.bellsouth.net...
> What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking
> walked out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things?
> What the fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before
> she walked into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I
> was absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it
> hurts when the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks
> out. She packed what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own
> kids, and left. She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later.
> Fucking hell.
> After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
> again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I
> won't love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually
> healed my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I
> did with all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The
> last three weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took
> my Libido away for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big
> fucking issue. I don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in
> the world for not noticing the little things that women always pay
> attention to.
> This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
> later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
> have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in
> this group anymore.
> Goddamn it all to hell.
>
> AZ
>

On Jun 24, 6:16 pm, "Becky" <sobern2...@nospam.comcast.net> wrote:
> AZ!!! Please listen to me!!!! I know you are hurting and pissed right
> now,but blowing your sobriety and your smokefree time wont bring her
> back!!!Please dont do this!!!!! If you are in a 12 step program CALL YOUR
> SPONSOR IMMEDIATELY AND GET TO A MEETING!!!!!`Share at teh meeting what is
> going on, cry ,rant whatever you need to do to get thru this. But I can tell
> you from experience that drinking and smoking over this wont help at all. It
> might dull the pain for awhile but tomorrow when you wake up,the remorse you
> will no doubt feel will just make what you are feeling 10 times
> worse.Believe me I know. I spent years drinking and smoking to deal with
> feelings and situations,and it never ever ever made the situation better
> ,only worse! I will be keeping an eye on this ng ,hoping to see that you are
> gonna take care of you,and not do something that you will regret.
> Becky
> Three weeks, 20 hours, 38 minutes and 45 seconds. 1092 cigarettes not
> smoked, saving $101.65. Life saved: 3 days, 19 hours, 0 minutes.
>
> "AZ" <azi...@bellsouth.net> wrote in message
>
> news:WPBfi.5277$G9.4631@bignews6.bellsouth.net...
>
>
>
> > What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking
> > walked out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things?
> > What the fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before
> > she walked into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I
> > was absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it
> > hurts when the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks
> > out. She packed what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own
> > kids, and left. She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later.
> > Fucking hell.
> > After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
> > again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I
> > won't love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually
> > healed my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I
> > did with all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The
> > last three weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took
> > my Libido away for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big
> > fucking issue. I don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in
> > the world for not noticing the little things that women always pay
> > attention to.
> > This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
> > later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
> > have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in
> > this group anymore.
> > Goddamn it all to hell.
>
> > AZ- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

AZ - What Becky said. Don't give her the power to blow your quits. You
are and can be in control, still. Don't give someone else the power to
ruin your life. You can do this - you ARE doing this - stay strong and
in control. Don't let the addictions rule your life.
Hugs,
Pam

"AZ" <azikra@bellsouth.net> wrote:

>What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking walked
>out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things? What the
>fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before she walked
>into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I was
>absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it hurts when
>the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks out. She packed
>what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own kids, and left.
>She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later. Fucking hell.
>After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
>again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I won't
>love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually healed
>my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I did with
>all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The last three
>weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took my Libido away
>for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big fucking issue. I
>don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in the world for not
>noticing the little things that women always pay attention to.
>This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
>later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
>have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in this
>group anymore.
>Goddamn it all to hell.

No! Man! Listen! It is not worth it! The crap won't get her back and
i't wont help you either!

Easy! First, if she really did walk out on you, without even telling
you what the problem is, she almost did not deserve you in the first
place. But we know things are never that simple.
Let the day pass. Sleep it over.
Call her in the morning and ask her to honestly say why she did what
she did.
Maybe she did not understand what you are goung through on your quit,
it could be simple things really (and most of the time really are).
Talk talk talk. Straighten things out. Millions of relationships every
year could be saved just with more communication alone.

And if you did smoke, PLEASE throw the pack away and start over.

It's just not worth it!

--
Tihomir
*I don't smoke anymore*

"Print is the sharpest and the strongest weapon of our party." -- Joseph Stalin

On Sun, 24 Jun 2007 17:00:35 -0500, "AZ" <azikra@bellsouth.net> wrote:

>What the fuck is the use?
<snip>
>Goddamn it all to hell.
>
>AZ

You're getting awesome advice re: smoking and drinking. I hope you
realize that everyone in this group wants nothing but the best for you
and right now that involves no smoking and no drinking.

Stay sober and smober. Neither drink or smoke will make any situation
better or make it go away. Hang in there, AZ and keep posting here.

--
BessieBee
sometimes known as LeslieB

"OK, so what's the speed of dark?"
Steven Wright

AZ,

Oh, AZ. DAMN! Re-group your thoughts and calm down a bit iff possible.
Please take care of your self and protect your quits.

BTW - #10 rant from this Butfuc Missouri USA Judge.

jacks, VOF

((((((((((AZ)))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry this happened to you. I can only imagine how you must
be feeling...but DO NOT throw away your sobriety and smober time!! It
isn't worth it and you will regret it down the line. Get back into
the group and rant and rave as much as you need. But please do not
make yourself feel worse by falling back on your vices!

Lots of love
Summer 5M+
xXx
No meter cause I'm posting via google.

On 24 Jun, 23:00, "AZ" <azi...@bellsouth.net> wrote:
> What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking walked
> out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things? What the
> fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before she walked
> into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I was
> absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it hurts when
> the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks out. She packed
> what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own kids, and left.
> She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later. Fucking hell.
> After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
> again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I won't
> love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually healed
> my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I did with
> all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The last three
> weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took my Libido away
> for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big fucking issue. I
> don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in the world for not
> noticing the little things that women always pay attention to.
> This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
> later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
> have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in this
> group anymore.
> Goddamn it all to hell.
>
> AZ

On Sun, 24 Jun 2007 17:00:35 -0500, "AZ" <azikra@bellsouth.net> wrote:

>What the fuck is the use? My girlfriend of three years just fucking walked
>out on me. She needed some FUCKING time to think about things? What the
>fuck is that supposed to mean? I was divorced for 6 years before she walked
>into my life. After THAT (second) divorce, I was shattered. I was
>absolutely broken. My ex wife left a hole so big in my heart, it hurts when
>the fucking wind blows. And now this. My girlfriend walks out. She packed
>what she could, took the two boys that I love like my own kids, and left.
>She said she'll back for the rest of her stuff later. Fucking hell.
>After my second divorce I promised myself never, EVER, to fall in love
>again. I dated a lot of girls, and I told them from the beginning "I won't
>love you, and won't marry you". Leslie was different. She actually healed
>my broken heart, And I fucked up and told her I loved her. And I did with
>all my heart but she knows I will never get married again. The last three
>weeks without smoking have made a bit moody, I guess. I took my Libido away
>for a while. So, what the fuck? Maybe that was the big fucking issue. I
>don't know. Plus, I think I am the biggest asshole in the world for not
>noticing the little things that women always pay attention to.
>This Labor day marks my fifth year being sober, but that's gonna go way
>later on. Fuck it. Now, where the fuck is that 22 year old Scotch that I
>have? And where the fuck are my Cigarettes? I guess I don't belong in this
>group anymore.
>Goddamn it all to hell.
>
>AZ
>

That fucking sucks. I know what you mean.

I don't have any good advice for you buddy because I've been down the
same path and I didn't do the right things AND I didn't learn shit. I
stay away from relationships now. That's not good, but it's working
for me. There has to be a better way than my example.

Oh, and the smoking thing? Get real. I'm ignoring this childish cry
for help. Your pissed and or hurt, not stupid.
No, I'm not Superman, but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last
night.