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I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons. Both
great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
shit. OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley

One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
minutes.

(((((Siley))))) Hope when you get up you feel 100% better!!!! Look at that
meter, you are doing so good...

Those are 2 good reasons not to go back to smoking
I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe

We are here for you.
Cindy
One week, six days, 9 hours, 50 minutes and 15 seconds. 268 cigarettes not
smoked, saving $60.34. Life saved: 22 hours, 20 minutes.


"siley" <sileyr@gmail.com> wrote in message
news:47b0785a-6ccc-42e4-9f6e-442c7e5ae8a9@k39g2000hsf.googlegroups.com...
>I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons. Both
> great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

On 14 Jan, 14:44, siley <sil...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

Believe me I know exactly how you feel - I could so easily sit down
now and smoke a whole pack the way I'm feeling. You just start
thinking about a cigarette and how one won't hurt and how it will help
you to give up if you could just have one to ease the craving - and
you have one because your tired of fighting the urge - only to find an
hour later you want another - and another - and it never stops. I
have given up so many times and become so tired of fighting the urge
that I have given in - but then I get tired of being addicted and feel
silly and stupid that I can't stop smoking - this cycle has been going
on for years - so really we are just exchanging one struggle for
another - we might as well live with the struggle to quit - save money
and be healthier!!! You seem to be doing really well - over a month
quit - I am still less than 2 weeks and don't want to go back and have
to start quitting all over again - keep quitting is the really tiring
part. At least if we stay smober there will come a point when we won't
need to struggle ever again.

On Mon, 14 Jan 2008 06:44:18 -0800 (PST), siley <sileyr@gmail.com>
wrote:

>I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
>pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
>all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
>always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
>the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
>only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
>family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
>person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons.

You don't want to have to tell us either. You don't want to have to
go back to 0 0 0 on your meter. You don't want to have to start all
over again.

> Both
>great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
>shit.

Of course you are. But, it gets better. I don't know your quit
history so I don't know if you have a really long quit under your
belt. If not, listen to those of us who have been there. It does get
easier. You need to find this out for yourself.

> OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley

Good idea!!
Stay strong, stay stubborn and stay committed! You *can* do this.
Sue
One year, nine months, three weeks, three days, 8 hours, 56 minutes
and 59 seconds. 21924 cigarettes not smoked, saving $3,650.62. Life
saved: 10 weeks, 6 days, 3 hours, 0 minutes.

>
>One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
>cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
>minutes.

Thank you Cindy, Sue and SuzeQ. You all made some very wise points.
I like the one of you're either sick of quitting or sick of smoking,
which would you rather be. Cause I do get sick of smoking, and get
sick of hating myself for smoking, get sick of being a junkie. At
least if I quit it will someday be over.


On Jan 14, 7:52*am, "Cindy" <crog...@maine.rr.com> wrote:
> (((((Siley))))) *Hope when you get up you feel 100% better!!!! *Look at that
> meter, you are doing so good...
>
> Those are 2 good reasons not to go back to smoking
> I don't want to tell my
>
> > family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> > person who couldn't breathe
>
> We are here for you.
> Cindy
> One week, six days, 9 hours, 50 minutes and 15 seconds. 268 cigarettes not
> smoked, saving $60.34. Life saved: 22 hours, 20 minutes.
>
> "siley" <sil...@gmail.com> wrote in message
>
> news:47b0785a-6ccc-42e4-9f6e-442c7e5ae8a9@k39g2000hsf.googlegroups.com...
>
>
>
> >I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> > pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> > all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> > always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> > the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> > only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> > family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> > person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> > great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> > shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> > One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> > cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> > minutes.- Hide quoted text -
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> - Show quoted text -

On 14 Jan, 14:44, siley <sil...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

Don't give in to these feelings, Your doing so well and you are over
the hard bit, Just take things one day at a time and it will get
easier ....George.
Two years, nine months, one day, 15 hours, 42 minutes and 57 seconds.
30199 cigarettes not smoked, saving £6,765.00. Life saved: 14 weeks, 6
days, 20 hours, 35 minutes.

I haven't craved a cigarette, but I have many times wanted relief.
I continually experience feelings that cause me discomfort.
For 25 or 30 years I dealt with this discomfort by lighting up a
cigarette.
The nicotine seemed to provide instant relief.
Well that was the big lie for me.
All it did was created an addiction I was unable to avoid feeding.
Now, here I am having to find new ways to deal with the discomfort.
I am not going back to that hell.
Chantix and AS3 let me outta that prison, I'm not going back.
It sucked, I hated it, It was killing me and my family.
Screw those those god damned mother fucking cigarettes! (Sorry,
Wayne)

On Jan 14, 10:34*am, siley <sil...@gmail.com> wrote:
> Thank you Cindy, Sue and SuzeQ. *You all made some very wise points.
> I like the one of you're either sick of quitting or sick of smoking,
> which would you rather be. *Cause I do get sick of smoking, and get
> sick of hating myself for smoking, get sick of being a junkie. *At
> least if I quit it will someday be over.

Hey! That's it! That's a *positive*!

You WILL be over it -- it doesn't last for ever.

Some days if you're tired of fighting it then choose not to fight it
-- who says you have to? Just don't smoke that's all -- *you* have
the power. I think it's just acceptance -- but please, please,
please, realize it does get easier. It does get better. And it is
very, very, very, very much worth it.

In my case, by 6 months it was a done deal -- the prior 5 months, 4
weeks, and few days were not a continuous Day One struggle tho -- it
did get better. But I kept pretty busy -- we put our house up for
sale and decluttered and kept it spotless (with 2 kids and 3 cats),
shopped for a house, sold, bought, packed, moved, settled in ... time
flew by. It was stressful but each day I couldn't help but take pride
in my accomplishment. AS3 is a great place to toot your horn -- you
have an outstanding quit going Siley -- please take great pride in
yourself for this. It is outstanding -- and everyone here knows it
and understands it and we would love to cheer you on and reinforce
that pride.

Cheers and Big Hugs,
Marvin

Siley! I do hope the extra sleep helped you get a better outlook at
how far you have come. You need to reward yourself as you have over a
month of smobriety and that is something you did not think you could
achieve when you first came here. As has been said, smoking does
nothing to enhance your life, just feed your junkie. Between being
sick and tired of being stressed over smobriety and being sick and
tired of smoking, go for the smobriety. You will NOT stay in this
space and when you snap out of it you will have even more smobriety
under your belt!

Get out and take a walk. It can really help clear your head and give
you a better prespective on why you are working your smobriety!

FlatironMike
Eleven months, three days, 15 hours, 4 minutes and 28 seconds. 6752
cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,025.77. Life saved: 3 weeks, 2 days,
10 hours, 40 minutes.

On Jan 14, 9:44*am, siley <sil...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

((((Siley)))) Two VERY good reasons to stay quit, also not wanting to
trash that beautiful meter and have to hobble back. Stephanie

Both are great resons not to smoke. sometimes you just need to hang on with
your fingernails I know right now it might not be helpful to say it will get
better BUT it will ,usually right after a hellhole of a day
--
Lynn VOF Leaper
"Everyone seems normal until you get to know them."



"siley" <sileyr@gmail.com> wrote in message
news:47b0785a-6ccc-42e4-9f6e-442c7e5ae8a9@k39g2000hsf.googlegroups.com...
>I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons. Both
> great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

On Jan 14, 5:22*pm, "Lynn" <lynn.sc...@ns.spammenotsympatico.ca>
wrote:
> Both are great resons not to smoke. sometimes you just need to hang on with
> your fingernails I know right now it might not be helpful to say it will get
> better BUT it will ,usually right after a hellhole of a day
> --
> Lynn VOF Leaper
> "Everyone seems normal until you get to know them."
>
> "siley" <sil...@gmail.com> wrote in message
>
> news:47b0785a-6ccc-42e4-9f6e-442c7e5ae8a9@k39g2000hsf.googlegroups.com...
>
>
>
> >I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> > pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> > all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> > always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> > the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> > only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> > family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> > person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> > great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> > shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> > One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> > cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> > minutes.- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

Well, you CAN smoke again, but what would that accomplish? Just
another failure you will have to acknowledge and feel bad about.
You're doing great honey, and as everyone else said, IT WILL GET
BETTER. Just get through each day - one day at a time.
Hugs,
Pam

Siley, I was feeling the same at that stage and many times I thought of
going back to smoking. I felt, like yourself, mentally
and physically tired of /about everything. Somehow I managed to resist those
urges and I am so pleased that I did, as I have been feeling so less tired
during the last few months, and much happier with myself for having reached
the six months without smoking
Please be strong, you will benefit for it.
A big hug,
E


"siley" <sileyr@gmail.com> wrote in message
news:47b0785a-6ccc-42e4-9f6e-442c7e5ae8a9@k39g2000hsf.googlegroups.com...
>I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons. Both
> great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

On Jan 14, 6:44*am, siley <sil...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. *I want to go out and buy a
> pack and smoke them all. *I am so tired of this. *I am junkie thinking
> all over the place. *Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. *I
> always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
> the time. *Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. *The
> only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
> family I failed again. *I don't want to go back to being that sick
> person who couldn't breathe. *OK, maybe that's two reasons. *Both
> great reasons to not smoke. *Geez I am totally totally sick of this
> shit. *OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley
>
> One month, four days, 20 hours, 43 minutes and 13 seconds. 1793
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $224.14. Life saved: 6 days, 5 hours, 25
> minutes.

Hi you should be so proud of yourself for trying, I know excatly how
you feel, beleive me i do at the moment i could eat a cig but ive gone
8 days and i dont want to fail just like you i felt unable to
breath.Keep it going Paula

Instead of taking 14 puffs of smoke, siley spoketh upon us:

>I want to smoke so bad I can't stand it. I want to go out and buy a
>pack and smoke them all. I am so tired of this. I am junkie thinking
>all over the place. Guess I am going back to bed and sleep it off. I
>always have trouble in my quit here, I get tired of fighting it all
>the time. Somehow I got the kids off to school this morning. The
>only reason I can think of for not smoking is I don't want to tell my
>family I failed again. I don't want to go back to being that sick
>person who couldn't breathe. OK, maybe that's two reasons. Both
>great reasons to not smoke. Geez I am totally totally sick of this
>shit. OK, I'm going back to bed now, Siley

This too shall pass siley. It was worse. It will be better.

--
Tihomir 7M2W, Knin, HR 44°N 16°E
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.... All things being equal, a fat person uses more soap than a thin person.