I slept 20 hours :)

after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.

/me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
doing what she is programmed to do.

today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
on the music.

The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.

oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
maybe go out and buy some food.

PolarBear
just showing that my meter is still intact
two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.

On Sep 6, 11:14*am, PolarBear <carme...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
> is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
> sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.
>
> /me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
> doing what she is programmed to do.
>
> today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
> boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
> on the music.
>
> The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
> during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
> the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
> by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.
>
> oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
> maybe go out and buy some food.
>
> PolarBear
> just showing that my meter is still intact
> two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
> 736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.

Every two hours, come here and post.
Robo-Bear....

Polar,
I so relate to what you are saying.
Smoking used to be a "reward"
But we both know it's not, so that's why we are here.
I am so happy and free right now it is totally righteous.
I can be around others who smoke and I have NO desire to have one
You will be there too.
It's such a positive feeling of strength and you are doing the
abosolute best for yourself
and all your loved ones.
You are doing great!
My best to you PolarBear :-D
Suzie
Eight months, three weeks, 13 hours, 21 minutes and 6 seconds. 5311
cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,141.71. Life saved: 2 weeks, 4 days,
10 hours, 35 minutes.

P.S.
the earlier stages you are in. Take even more special care of
yourself. Sleeping more is okay. It's a part of your body healing.
It's a really good thing. I slept alot more during the first months
that I quit.
Hang Tough!!
Suz

PolarBear wrote:
> after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
> is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
> sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.
>
> /me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
> doing what she is programmed to do.
>
> today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
> boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
> on the music.
>
> The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
> during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
> the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
> by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.
>
> oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
> maybe go out and buy some food.
>
> PolarBear
> just showing that my meter is still intact
> two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
> 736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.
>
>

(((((Carmen)))))

I can relate to that break/reward thing. I smoked for 25+ years. I
also have ADHD, and I used cigarettes as a coping mechanism for my poor
little brain. When I'd get frustrated, distracted, or over-stimulated,
I'd step outside and have a cigarette. It would take me 6 cigarettes to
clean two bathrooms on my house cleaning day. (YIKES! That's the first
time I've counted them up!) When I was working on my computer, it would
be even worse! I would have stopped in the middle of this email if I
got to a place where I couldn't think of the right words or wasn't sure
what comes next. This email would have taken me 30 minutes to write.

I thank GOD that I had enough sense to put those death sticks DOWN! It
took me a long time to learn to do things without them. I didn't quite
know what to do with myself... For some tasks, I had to learn to
complete them in their entirety without taking a break (I mean, who
needs 6 breaks to clean a couple of bathrooms?). With others, I found
more constructive things to do that still allowed me to walk away from
the task at hand for a minute or two (okay, so I do take a "pause" when
I'm doing the bathrooms!), like checking the mail, making my bed,
loading up the breakfast dishes in the dishwasher, entering a recipe in
my database, sticking a picture on one of my scrapbook pages I have in
progress....

I'm not saying any of it was easy...rather, just the opposite. Learning
to live without cigarettes is one of the hardest things I've ever done.
But it has also been one of the most rewarding. My body rewards me
EVERY DAY. And my sense of well-being has improved so much that I find
it difficult to describe.

I know it's very hard right now. But just keep to it. Keep thinking of
alternative things you can do INSTEAD of smoking. Try and think of
things that make you feel good, or things that are productive or
healthy. If you start filling all those breaks with those kinds of
things, eventually it will feel like THAT is what you're supposed to be
doing, and you won't even be thinking about the cigarettes at all. It
takes time, but I SWEAR that's the way it happened for me....

Cindy
Smobriety comes to: 1Y 8M 0W D 22H 40Mns $-Saved to date: $2393.37
Cigs not smoked: 12118

Carmen, I am glad that you got some sleep. Just hang in there as you
know that your mood is going to swing back again soon so just let
today be today. Remember that as you clean and pull your place back
together you will have a nice clean smoke-free house to enjoy for a
long time!

FlatironMike
One year, six months, three weeks, six days, 13 hours, 8 minutes and
11 seconds. 11490 cigarettes not smoked, saving $3,447.03. Life saved:
5 weeks, 4 days, 21 hours, 30 minutes.

On Sep 7, 9:26*am, Cindy Murray <c1ndyl...@tx.rr.com> wrote:
> PolarBear wrote:
> > after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
> > is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
> > sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.
>
> > /me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
> > doing what she is programmed to do.
>
> > today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
> > boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
> > on the music.
>
> > The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
> > during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
> > the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
> > by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.
>
> > oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
> > maybe go out and buy some food.
>
> > PolarBear
> > just showing that my meter is still intact
> > two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
> > 736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.
>
> (((((Carmen)))))
>
> I can relate to that break/reward thing. *I smoked for 25+ years. *I
> also have ADHD, and I used cigarettes as a coping mechanism for my poor
> little brain. *When I'd get frustrated, distracted, or over-stimulated,
> I'd step outside and have a cigarette. *It would take me 6 cigarettes to
> clean two bathrooms on my house cleaning day. *(YIKES! *That's the first
> time I've counted them up!) When I was working on my computer, it would
> be even worse! *I would have stopped in the middle of this email if I
> got to a place where I couldn't think of the right words or wasn't sure
> what comes next. *This email would have taken me 30 minutes to write.
>
> I thank GOD that I had enough sense to put those death sticks DOWN! *It
> took me a long time to learn to do things without them. *I didn't quite
> know what to do with myself... For some tasks, I had to learn to
> complete them in their entirety without taking a break (I mean, who
> needs 6 breaks to clean a couple of bathrooms?). *With others, I found
> more constructive things to do that still allowed me to walk away from
> the task at hand for a minute or two (okay, so I do take a "pause" when
> I'm doing the bathrooms!), like checking the mail, making my bed,
> loading up the breakfast dishes in the dishwasher, entering a recipe in
> my database, sticking a picture on one of my scrapbook pages I have in
> progress....
>
> I'm not saying any of it was easy...rather, just the opposite. *Learning
> to live without cigarettes is one of the hardest things I've ever done.
> * But it has also been one of the most rewarding. *My body rewards me
> EVERY DAY. *And my sense of well-being has improved so much that I find
> it difficult to describe.
>
> I know it's very hard right now. *But just keep to it. *Keep thinkingof
> alternative things you can do INSTEAD of smoking. *Try and think of
> things that make you feel good, or things that are productive or
> healthy. *If you start filling all those breaks with those kinds of
> things, eventually it will feel like THAT is what you're supposed to be
> doing, and you won't even be thinking about the cigarettes at all. *It
> takes time, but I SWEAR that's the way it happened for me....
>
> Cindy
> Smobriety comes to: 1Y *8M *0W *D *22H 40Mns *$-Saved to date: $2393.37
> * Cigs not smoked: *12118- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

Cindy..... this is good stuff.....

DavidL wrote:
> On Sep 7, 9:26 am, Cindy Murray <c1ndyl...@tx.rr.com> wrote:
>> PolarBear wrote:
>>> after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
>>> is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
>>> sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.
>>> /me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
>>> doing what she is programmed to do.
>>> today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
>>> boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
>>> on the music.
>>> The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
>>> during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
>>> the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
>>> by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.
>>> oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
>>> maybe go out and buy some food.
>>> PolarBear
>>> just showing that my meter is still intact
>>> two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
>>> 736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.
>> (((((Carmen)))))
>>
>> I can relate to that break/reward thing. I smoked for 25+ years. I
>> also have ADHD, and I used cigarettes as a coping mechanism for my poor
>> little brain. When I'd get frustrated, distracted, or over-stimulated,
>> I'd step outside and have a cigarette. It would take me 6 cigarettes to
>> clean two bathrooms on my house cleaning day. (YIKES! That's the first
>> time I've counted them up!) When I was working on my computer, it would
>> be even worse! I would have stopped in the middle of this email if I
>> got to a place where I couldn't think of the right words or wasn't sure
>> what comes next. This email would have taken me 30 minutes to write.
>>
>> I thank GOD that I had enough sense to put those death sticks DOWN! It
>> took me a long time to learn to do things without them. I didn't quite
>> know what to do with myself... For some tasks, I had to learn to
>> complete them in their entirety without taking a break (I mean, who
>> needs 6 breaks to clean a couple of bathrooms?). With others, I found
>> more constructive things to do that still allowed me to walk away from
>> the task at hand for a minute or two (okay, so I do take a "pause" when
>> I'm doing the bathrooms!), like checking the mail, making my bed,
>> loading up the breakfast dishes in the dishwasher, entering a recipe in
>> my database, sticking a picture on one of my scrapbook pages I have in
>> progress....
>>
>> I'm not saying any of it was easy...rather, just the opposite. Learning
>> to live without cigarettes is one of the hardest things I've ever done.
>> But it has also been one of the most rewarding. My body rewards me
>> EVERY DAY. And my sense of well-being has improved so much that I find
>> it difficult to describe.
>>
>> I know it's very hard right now. But just keep to it. Keep thinking of
>> alternative things you can do INSTEAD of smoking. Try and think of
>> things that make you feel good, or things that are productive or
>> healthy. If you start filling all those breaks with those kinds of
>> things, eventually it will feel like THAT is what you're supposed to be
>> doing, and you won't even be thinking about the cigarettes at all. It
>> takes time, but I SWEAR that's the way it happened for me....
>>
>> Cindy
>> Smobriety comes to: 1Y 8M 0W D 22H 40Mns $-Saved to date: $2393.37
>> Cigs not smoked: 12118- Hide quoted text -
>>
>> - Show quoted text -
>
> Cindy..... this is good stuff.....

Thanks David, but I can't take credit for it. I've just paraphrased
what everyone else here has said a dozen times! I learned it all
from you guys!

Cindy
Smobriety comes to: 1Y 8M 0W 2D 19H 35Mns $-Saved to date: $2400.78
Cigs not smoked: 12156

On Sep 9, 11:06*am, Cindy Murray <c1ndyl...@tx.rr.com> wrote:
> DavidL wrote:
> > On Sep 7, 9:26 am, Cindy Murray <c1ndyl...@tx.rr.com> wrote:
> >> PolarBear wrote:
> >>> after sleeping for almost 20 hours I feel physically better. My mood
> >>> is still down and I still don't care about things around me. Real life
> >>> sucks. But somehow I am struggling to get things done.
> >>> /me wants to be a robot again, without feelings, without thought, just
> >>> doing what she is programmed to do.
> >>> today is kitchen cleaning day and maybe my room after. I got lots of
> >>> boxes yesterday. A notebook and a camera. Oh yeah and my ipod to turn
> >>> on the music.
> >>> The strange part is that now its so much harder not to smoke than
> >>> during the more stressful weeks. At least it feels like it. There is
> >>> the rewarding part after getting things done. I used to devide my day
> >>> by taking a break every two hour and have a smoke.
> >>> oh well I just needed to rant I am off to cleaning my kittchen and
> >>> maybe go out and buy some food.
> >>> PolarBear
> >>> just showing that my meter is still intact
> >>> two months, one week, five days, 14 hours, 39 minutes and 56 seconds.
> >>> 736 cigarettes not smoked, saved $301.80 to pay for her Wii.
> >> (((((Carmen)))))
>
> >> I can relate to that break/reward thing. *I smoked for 25+ years. *I
> >> also have ADHD, and I used cigarettes as a coping mechanism for my poor
> >> little brain. *When I'd get frustrated, distracted, or over-stimulated,
> >> I'd step outside and have a cigarette. *It would take me 6 cigarettes to
> >> clean two bathrooms on my house cleaning day. *(YIKES! *That's thefirst
> >> time I've counted them up!) When I was working on my computer, it would
> >> be even worse! *I would have stopped in the middle of this email if I
> >> got to a place where I couldn't think of the right words or wasn't sure
> >> what comes next. *This email would have taken me 30 minutes to write..
>
> >> I thank GOD that I had enough sense to put those death sticks DOWN! *It
> >> took me a long time to learn to do things without them. *I didn't quite
> >> know what to do with myself... For some tasks, I had to learn to
> >> complete them in their entirety without taking a break (I mean, who
> >> needs 6 breaks to clean a couple of bathrooms?). *With others, I found
> >> more constructive things to do that still allowed me to walk away from
> >> the task at hand for a minute or two (okay, so I do take a "pause" when
> >> I'm doing the bathrooms!), like checking the mail, making my bed,
> >> loading up the breakfast dishes in the dishwasher, entering a recipe in
> >> my database, sticking a picture on one of my scrapbook pages I have in
> >> progress....
>
> >> I'm not saying any of it was easy...rather, just the opposite. *Learning
> >> to live without cigarettes is one of the hardest things I've ever done..
> >> * But it has also been one of the most rewarding. *My body rewardsme
> >> EVERY DAY. *And my sense of well-being has improved so much that I find
> >> it difficult to describe.
>
> >> I know it's very hard right now. *But just keep to it. *Keep thinking of
> >> alternative things you can do INSTEAD of smoking. *Try and think of
> >> things that make you feel good, or things that are productive or
> >> healthy. *If you start filling all those breaks with those kinds of
> >> things, eventually it will feel like THAT is what you're supposed to be
> >> doing, and you won't even be thinking about the cigarettes at all. *It
> >> takes time, but I SWEAR that's the way it happened for me....
>
> >> Cindy
> >> Smobriety comes to: 1Y *8M *0W *D *22H 40Mns *$-Saved to date: $2393.37
> >> * Cigs not smoked: *12118- Hide quoted text -
>
> >> - Show quoted text -
>
> > Cindy..... this is good stuff.....
>
> Thanks David, but I can't take credit for it. *I've just paraphrased
> what everyone else here has said a dozen times! *I learned it all
> from you guys!
>
> Cindy
> Smobriety comes to: 1Y *8M *0W *2D *19H 35Mns *$-Saved to date:$2400.78
> * Cigs not smoked: *12156- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

No..... I'm talking about the experience sharing part....