I Want to Smoke, Dang It!

This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!

I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
(actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.

This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.

What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
But...I will not smoke today!

Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?

Sigh,
Rob
I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
$259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.

Once upon a time, Billy Bob F. said:

>This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
>cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
>without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
(...)
>What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
>one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
>But...I will not smoke today!
>
>Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?

Bite down harder! I have full confidence when you say you will not
smoke today, and that is all it takes. You have done a great job so
far, and one day of cravings is not worth to ruin all you made so far.
I have not used NRT so take my words with a grain of salt, but I think
it is only natural that you crave for a bit when you decrease the
nicotine intake. Nicotine is what keeps us enslaved after all, not the
shitstick itself.

>I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
>minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
>$259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.

This is your success, your battle that you won. Whenever a craving
hits, keep reading your meter. You can and will do it!

--
Tihomir 5M *I don't smoke anymore*

.... A man shall be satisfied with the fruit of his mouth

Cravings suck! but hey you are stronger than and ol craving aren't you. you
know to come here and tell us. take a dep breath,... do it!.... let it out
awwww see feel better? no?
ok you have my permission to go eat some chocolate and whatever else looks
good to eat. just today tho and this permission runs out at 12.00 am
tonight.

--
Lynn VOF Leaper
"Everyone seems normal until you get to know them."



"Billy Bob F." <billybobf@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:1193743282.533338.135870@19g2000hsx.googlegro ups.com...
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.
>

Rob,
I know how that feels. Does it suck? Damn right it does. The good news is
the craving does not last. I've had them, we all had'em. Just hold on like
life is ending. I swear to you it'll go away. Post every minute if you
have to. We are all here to support you

--
AZ

"Billy Bob F." <billybobf@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:1193743282.533338.135870@19g2000hsx.googlegro ups.com...
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.
>

Lynn sed:
> ok you have my permission to go eat some chocolate and whatever else looks
> good to eat. just today tho and this permission runs out at 12.00 am
> tonight.

Oh, you have no idea, Lynn. I just got back from a two week trip to
Sweden and I am swimming in chocolate. I probably ate a pound
yesterday. I have a 1 kg bag of D'aims I brought back to share with
my group. I *hate* them because I can't seem to stop eating them.
Hang on while I go get one, now that I think about it.

mmmm. Now, where was I? Oh, yeah....if I run out of those, I also
have all but one "triangle" of a whole Toblerone bar. So, I think I'm
set in the chocolate department. In fact, I think I'll have a little
bit of that Toblerone now.

Wiping the smudges off my keyboard,
Rob

Mmmmmmmm...chocolate.
-- Homer Simpson

Here's another annoying phrase that I used to hear early in my AA
journey: "you're right where you're supposed to be."
At one month or so it is *normal* to feel this way, and when you feel
this way, ODAAT works so well it's scary. Just commit to staying smoke
free today. Do it again tomorrow. Repeat as necessary.
SteveS
OOF

Billy Bob F. wrote:
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.
>

Yeah, well, don't!!
Sue

On Tue, 30 Oct 2007 04:21:22 -0700, "Billy Bob F."
<billybobf@hotmail.com> wrote:

>This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
>cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
>without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
>I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
>(actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
>approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
>to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
>weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
>This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
>yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
>point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
>too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
>What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
>one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
>But...I will not smoke today!
>
>Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
>Sigh,
>Rob
>I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
>minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
>$259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.

On Oct 30, 6:21 am, "Billy Bob F." <billyb...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.

I've had periods of time that cravings returned.
I'd stop and wonder, "why the hell are they back?"
I'd remember all the times (now in the hundreds) that I was able to
get past previous cravings.
Seems like they went away without my even noticing.
You've not smoked 1300+ times.
Do that again, then again, then again.....

I think it's because you stepped down. When I stepped down from the
21mg patches to the 14mg patches (after delaying it as long as I
reasonably could), I was a complete and total bitch for at least a
week. Worse than usual, even.

That said, yes, it is indeed a sneaky little addiction. It still
sneaks up on most of us, if not ALL of us, from time to time. But
since you know the "why" (where your cravings are probably coming
from), let's focus on the "how." How you're going to get through it,
that is. Deep breathing? Cold water? Chewing gum? Finding something to
do with your hands?

You *will* get through it. I did and believe me, if I did, anyone can.
Hang in there and constantly remind yourself how proud you are of
yourself. It can be a powerful motivator not to smoke, or at least it
was in my case.

Hugs
Ashley

Rob, the step down probably is part of the reason for the ungodly
crave. Still, sit with the crave and know that you will not die from
it and that is going to pass and you will be stronger because you said
NOOOOO again to your addiction. It does get better the longer you are
smober so just hang tuff & don't puff. Your meter is looking good and
you know it will only improve with age.

FlatironMike
Eight months, two weeks, five days, 15 hours, 25 minutes and 5
seconds. 5232 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,569.60. Life saved: 2
weeks, 4 days, 4 hours, 0 minutes.

On Oct 30, 7:21 am, "Billy Bob F." <billyb...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a

yeah well you're not alone. I get those *really* strong urges now and
again and it'll be 4 months next Tuesday. They come out of nowhere and
they are unlike the 5 minute ones.
It's almost like your lungs are wanting that rush of smoke. I don't
know why they happen I just know that its normal. Seems most ex
smokers have experienced this. I'm sure its contributed to many failed
attempts.
I used the patch and had no problems at all when stepping down from 21
to 14, then 14 to 7. I never cut the patches though..Perhaps the
nicotine isn't spread uniformly so you might be cutting down by more
than a 3rd?? I did get incredibly annoying rashes/welts, so we are all
different. Take a walk or do whatever you need to do to get past it
because I can guarantee the urge WILL go away. It always does.

Ashley came down from the mountain of enlightenment and opined:
> I think it's because you stepped down. When I stepped down from the
> 21mg patches to the 14mg patches (after delaying it as long as I
> reasonably could), I was a complete and total bitch for at least a
> week. Worse than usual, even.

That really makes a lot of sense. When I first read it, it got me
thinking. Even though I haven't been smoking, I've been dosing with
just about the equivalent of a pack of cigarettes a day--just about
what my body has been used to. It shouldn't take a rocket scientist
to explain that my body wouldn't be happy with 2/3 of that amount
(just a writer, I guess). Plus, I may have cut the patch a tad bit
small today. It's not an exact science turning a 21mg into a 14, but
I had one more box of ($7.50, by the way) 21 mg. patches and I didn't
want to waste them.

Thanks to all who responded so positively today. I really appreciate
it. I no longer reallyreally want a cigarette, I just want this day
to end :-) I have only one more outing today to practice handbells
and I have no intention of smoking. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I
hope so, because most of today sucked. But, at least I didn't smoke,
so it certainly could have been worse.

Cheers and hugs,
Rob
One month, two weeks, 7 hours, 33 minutes and 28 seconds, dammit!

> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.

I will never say that either, after having said it with such confidence and
then smoked later.
This too shall pass!
With hope and heart,
Kathleen



>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.
>

Hun,
YOU don't want to smoke a stinkystick. Your inner-addict-brat wants it.
Seperate yourself from that jerk. He lies.

You will win.

Hugs,
Cat



"Billy Bob F." <billybobf@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:1193743282.533338.135870@19g2000hsx.googlegro ups.com...
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.
>

On Oct 30, 7:41 pm, "CuckooCat" <si...@laughing.net> wrote:
> Hun,
> YOU don't want to smoke a stinkystick. Your inner-addict-brat wants it.
> Seperate yourself from that jerk. He lies.
>
> You will win.
>
> Hugs,
> Cat
>
> "Billy Bob F." <billyb...@hotmail.com> wrote in messagenews:1193743282.533338.135870@19g2000hsx.go oglegroups.com...
>
>
>
> > This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> > cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> > without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> > I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> > (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> > approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> > to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> > weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> > This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> > yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> > point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> > too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> > What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> > one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> > But...I will not smoke today!
>
> > Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> > Sigh,
> > Rob
> > I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> > minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> > $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

Well, you could smoke you know if you really want to. Then you'd have
to start quitting all over again. You've "been there, done that",
haven't you? You don't need any advice - you already know what to do.
Your wife has probably already spent your cig savings and is
anticipating future savings, so you'd better give yourself a break and
just "suck it up".
Your less than supportive quit buddy (but "tough love" does count,
which is what I do best!) You CAN do this!
Hugs,
Pam

On 30 okt, 12:21, "Billy Bob F." <billyb...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> This really sucks. I woke up this morning actually *craving* a
> cigarette. This is absolutely not fair! I've gone for over six weeks
> without wanting one this bad and it's about to drive me nuts!
>
> I don't know if it's because I stepped down to 14 mg. patches
> (actually, I'm trimming off my last box of 75% off 21mg. to
> approximate 14mg.) or what, but I've definitely made the decision not
> to just stop the patch mid-program as I was contemplating this
> weekend. What a sneaky addicition this is.
>
> This is kind of a follow-up comment on some threads I splashed into
> yesterday (sorry for being so argumentative in those), but at this
> point, I can't imagine saying "I will never smoke again". It is just
> too ambitious for my feeble little addicted mind.
>
> What I can say is that I will not smoke a cigarette today. I want
> one. I reallyreally want one. I might smoke a pack tomorrow.
> But...I will not smoke today!
>
> Did I mention I wanted a cigarette?
>
> Sigh,
> Rob
> I have's smoked for one month, one week, six days, 20 hours, 19
> minutes and 25 seconds. That's 1315 cigarettes not smoked, saving
> $259.79 for my wife to spend on stuff.

I know many will just tell you you dont want to smoke, but you know
damm well you do want to smoke *one*. It is good to admit instead of
starting that inner fight. I want to, no I don't. Yes I want one.. No
I don't.. It's an endless inner fight that you can't win. What you
want is merely a memory of a cigarette you thought felt good. What Pam
said, yes, smoking is always an option but is it the option you choose
for? Smoking that one cigarette, in hopes it will be as good as the
one you faintly remember (not even remembering WHEN you smoked that
"one" ). And even if so, will it be worth to become an active addict
again or go through withdrawal again?

Those are the choices. Freedom or chains of addiction. Pick the one
that appeals the most.

Inky,

Free since 22/06/07. Four months, one week, five days, 9 hours, 30
minutes and 39 seconds. 4031 stinkers not smoked, saving € 427,38.
Life saved: 1 week, 6 days, 23 hours, 55 minutes.