Im 2 weeks 2 days

[SilentNight]

Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
im rambling....
****

SilentNight
Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
minutes.

[Gary W.]

On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 04:32:54 -0700, SilentNight
<[email protected]> wrote:

>Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
>and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
>its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
>smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
>emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
>pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
>****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
>im rambling....
>****
>
>SilentNight
>Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
>cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
>minutes.

Sorry you're down today. I could tell you all the 'let it go' stories
and 'don't blame yourself' ****, but like you, I think only a few
carefully selected words can really express the moment...



****, **** gaud damn it, pissing ****ing flying rat ****, damn dog
****ty **** balls on a stick, ****ty **** **** ****, blingity blang
bastard ****ing ****ed pile of ****!


There, I feel better. You?

Gary W
--

[FlatIronMike]

Staying smober is harder to do when we are upset about other aspects
of our lives. It's rough but it's real and life is going always be
like that. Just hang in there as you know deep down that smoking
won't solve a ****ing thing and then you'll be pissed at yourself at
caving into the addiction. Hang Tuff & Don't Puff. Our addiction
does get better and that can make the rest of our lives more
manageable.

FlatironMike
FSS
Four months, three weeks, one day, 12 hours, 45 minutes and 10
seconds. 2850 cigarettes not smoked, saving $854.94. Life saved: 1
week, 2 days, 21 hours, 30 minutes.

[SilentNight]

On Jul 3, 8:34 am, Gary W. <jd123_marq...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 04:32:54 -0700, SilentNight
>
> <M.Better...@gmail.com> wrote:
> >Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
> >and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
> >its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
> >smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
> >emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
> >pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
> >****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
> >im rambling....
> >****
>
> >SilentNight
> >Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
> >cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
> >minutes.
>
> Sorry you're down today. I could tell you all the 'let it go' stories
> and 'don't blame yourself' ****, but like you, I think only a few
> carefully selected words can really express the moment...
>
> ****, **** gaud damn it, pissing ****ing flying rat ****, damn dog
> ****ty **** balls on a stick, ****ty **** **** ****, blingity blang
> bastard ****ing ****ed pile of ****!
>
> There, I feel better. You?
>
> Gary W
> --

yeah...guess i do - lol
Drove 'a' flatbed truck today (which was good, although mine is STILL
in the yard)
PLUS..it was an ok day financially.
and GREAT because I still havent had a smoke. I drove the whole day
today...and I dont think I had a craving...it didnt cross my mind -
WOW...thats something.
Thanks quit buddies.
Steve
Two weeks, three days, 3 hours, 52 minutes and 34 seconds. 429
cigarettes not smoked, saving $68.64. Life saved: 1 day, 11 hours, 45
minutes.

[CuckooCat]

Hang in there Steve, you are really doing great.
Stay the course, take good care of yourself, you will get past this.
hugs,
Cat
'



"SilentNight" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:118346237[email protected] ps.com...
> Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
> and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
> its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
> smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
> emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
> pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
> ****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
> im rambling....
> ****
>
> SilentNight
> Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
> minutes.
>

[Gary W.]

On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 15:43:51 -0700, SilentNight
<[email protected]> wrote:

>On Jul 3, 8:34 am, Gary W. <jd123_marq...@hotmail.com> wrote:
>> On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 04:32:54 -0700, SilentNight
>>
>> <M.Better...@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
>> >and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
>> >its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
>> >smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
>> >emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
>> >pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
>> >****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
>> >im rambling....
>> >****
>>
>> >SilentNight
>> >Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
>> >cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
>> >minutes.
>>
>> Sorry you're down today. I could tell you all the 'let it go' stories
>> and 'don't blame yourself' ****, but like you, I think only a few
>> carefully selected words can really express the moment...
>>
>> ****, **** gaud damn it, pissing ****ing flying rat ****, damn dog
>> ****ty **** balls on a stick, ****ty **** **** ****, blingity blang
>> bastard ****ing ****ed pile of ****!
>>
>> There, I feel better. You?
>>
>> Gary W
>> --
>
>yeah...guess i do - lol
>Drove 'a' flatbed truck today (which was good, although mine is STILL
>in the yard)
>PLUS..it was an ok day financially.
>and GREAT because I still havent had a smoke. I drove the whole day
>today...and I dont think I had a craving...it didnt cross my mind -
>WOW...thats something.
> Thanks quit buddies.
>Steve
>Two weeks, three days, 3 hours, 52 minutes and 34 seconds. 429
>cigarettes not smoked, saving $68.64. Life saved: 1 day, 11 hours, 45
>minutes.

I'd say hang in there, but seems you're done "hanging on" and moving
up to "living on". It's going to be a good life, or at least much
better than a smoking life. Freedom, that's what it's about for me.
Freedom to live a better life.

Gary W.
--

[FlatIronMike]

Hey Buddy! Glad that today was a better one for you on several
fronts. Letting go and letting god is how it is said in 'the rooms'
and there is a lot of truth there. I am glad you were too busy today
to think of smoking!

FlatironMike
FSS
Four months, three weeks, one day, 20 hours, 55 minutes and 5 seconds.
2857 cigarettes not smoked, saving $856.98. Life saved: 1 week, 2
days, 22 hours, 5 minutes.

[Becky]

Hi Steve,
Glad you are feeling better.Im glad you are dealing with all the **** in
your life and all the feelings without smoking.there is a saying I really
like "This too shall pass". It sounds trite I know,and the first time
someone said that to me I wanted to kick their ****ing skull in,but it
really is true!! Sometimes I use it as a mantra of sorts..... over and over
until I feel better and calmer. Give it a try.
Becky
One month, 23 hours, 0 minutes and 6 seconds. 1547 cigarettes not smoked,
saving $143.96. Life saved: 5 days, 8 hours, 55 minutes.


"SilentNight" <[email protected]> wrote in message
news:[email protected] ps.com...
> On Jul 3, 8:34 am, Gary W. <jd123_marq...@hotmail.com> wrote:
>> On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 04:32:54 -0700, SilentNight
>>
>> <M.Better...@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
>> >and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
>> >its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
>> >smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
>> >emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
>> >pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
>> >****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
>> >im rambling....
>> >****
>>
>> >SilentNight
>> >Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
>> >cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
>> >minutes.
>>
>> Sorry you're down today. I could tell you all the 'let it go' stories
>> and 'don't blame yourself' ****, but like you, I think only a few
>> carefully selected words can really express the moment...
>>
>> ****, **** gaud damn it, pissing ****ing flying rat ****, damn dog
>> ****ty **** balls on a stick, ****ty **** **** ****, blingity blang
>> bastard ****ing ****ed pile of ****!
>>
>> There, I feel better. You?
>>
>> Gary W
>> --
>
> yeah...guess i do - lol
> Drove 'a' flatbed truck today (which was good, although mine is STILL
> in the yard)
> PLUS..it was an ok day financially.
> and GREAT because I still havent had a smoke. I drove the whole day
> today...and I dont think I had a craving...it didnt cross my mind -
> WOW...thats something.
> Thanks quit buddies.
> Steve
> Two weeks, three days, 3 hours, 52 minutes and 34 seconds. 429
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $68.64. Life saved: 1 day, 11 hours, 45
> minutes.
>

[SilentNight]

On Jul 3, 8:38 pm, "Becky" <sobern2...@nospam.comcast.net> wrote:
> Hi Steve,
> Glad you are feeling better.Im glad you are dealing with all the **** in
> your life and all the feelings without smoking.there is a saying I really
> like "This too shall pass". It sounds trite I know,and the first time
> someone said that to me I wanted to kick their ****ing skull in,but it
> really is true!! Sometimes I use it as a mantra of sorts..... over and over
> until I feel better and calmer. Give it a try.
> Becky
> One month, 23 hours, 0 minutes and 6 seconds. 1547 cigarettes not smoked,
> saving $143.96. Life saved: 5 days, 8 hours, 55 minutes.
>
> "SilentNight" <M.Better...@gmail.com> wrote in message
>
> news:[email protected] ps.com...
>
>
>
> > On Jul 3, 8:34 am, Gary W. <jd123_marq...@hotmail.com> wrote:
> >> On Tue, 03 Jul 2007 04:32:54 -0700, SilentNight
>
> >> <M.Better...@gmail.com> wrote:
> >> >Im 2 weeks and 2 days...
> >> >and right now as i type, before leaving for 'work'...im so very sad.
> >> >its more to do with a past relationship, than it is about
> >> >smoking....but its still a very dangerous time for me...a dangerous
> >> >emotional place....cause i know i can still go and easily buy a
> >> >pack......even though i prefer to quit..like i got some subconcious
> >> >****ing thing in my to self destruct....blaming myself for the past.
> >> >im rambling....
> >> >****
>
> >> >SilentNight
> >> >Two weeks, two days, 16 hours, 41 minutes and 41 seconds. 417
> >> >cigarettes not smoked, saving $66.78. Life saved: 1 day, 10 hours, 45
> >> >minutes.
>
> >> Sorry you're down today. I could tell you all the 'let it go' stories
> >> and 'don't blame yourself' ****, but like you, I think only a few
> >> carefully selected words can really express the moment...
>
> >> ****, **** gaud damn it, pissing ****ing flying rat ****, damn dog
> >> ****ty **** balls on a stick, ****ty **** **** ****, blingity blang
> >> bastard ****ing ****ed pile of ****!
>
> >> There, I feel better. You?
>
> >> Gary W
> >> --
>
> > yeah...guess i do - lol
> > Drove 'a' flatbed truck today (which was good, although mine is STILL
> > in the yard)
> > PLUS..it was an ok day financially.
> > and GREAT because I still havent had a smoke. I drove the whole day
> > today...and I dont think I had a craving...it didnt cross my mind -
> > WOW...thats something.
> > Thanks quit buddies.
> > Steve
> > Two weeks, three days, 3 hours, 52 minutes and 34 seconds. 429
> > cigarettes not smoked, saving $68.64. Life saved: 1 day, 11 hours, 45
> > minutes.- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

Thanks Becky..Mike...everyone
Beck..Im so proud of your quit MONTH...
cant wait till i pass a month.
So glad for you.....KEEP IT UP.
Steve

[Angie]

Yes it is a self destructive mindset that drew me back to smoking.
I've found that if I get a bit more exercise I become more accustomed
to the exercise instead of thesmoking.
I