My Brother John - R.I.P.

On Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:30:10 -0700, chefmcc wrote:

> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death, his
> body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut, a
> shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain although
> heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me, occassionaly
> focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to be a response to
> my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say goodbye
> and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will never
> subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no match
> for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave it to
> him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again, never
> lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down on
> all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last ten
> years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never complianed
> about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going. I never heard a why me
> from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I, but he could never put
> them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you all
> the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.




Paul,
I am so very sorry for your loss. Words fail me.
Peace,
Andy


--
I havent smoked for 1 year, 4 months, 1 week, 17 hours, 35 minutes and 47
seconds.
14841 cigarettes were not smoked, saving me $3710.25
But I don't know for the life of me where the money is damn it.

On Aug 10, 12:30 pm, chefmcc <chef...@frontiernet.net> wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.

Hi Paul,
On the 19th of this months it will be 2 years since I went through the
same ordeal with my husband. He also could not quit those damned
cancer sticks, so I do know how you feel and I wish I could make the
pain go away. It will- in time!

Your brother is free now, no more suffering!

My heart feels for you and your family!
Love Lizzy

I am free:: One year, six months, four weeks, 19 hours, 35 minutes and
36 seconds. 17244 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,414.05 spending
over half of it - almost time to go shopping again. Life saved: 8
weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 0 minutes.

On Aug 10, 12:30 pm, chefmcc <chef...@frontiernet.net> wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.

Hi Paul,
On the 19th of this months it will be 2 years since I went through the
same ordeal with my husband. He also could not quit those damned
cancer sticks, so I do know how you feel and I wish I could make the
pain go away. It will- in time!

Your brother is free now, no more suffering!

My heart feels for you and your family!
Love Lizzy

I am free:: One year, six months, four weeks, 19 hours, 35 minutes and
36 seconds. 17244 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,414.05 spending
over half of it - almost time to go shopping again. Life saved: 8
weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 0 minutes.

Paul, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure your brother was a person
worth knowing.
Sue

On Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:30:10 -0700, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net>
wrote:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
>His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
>aggressive treatment regimen.
>Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
>his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
>a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
>although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
>occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
>be a response to my words.
>
>His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
>Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
>goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
>never subside.
>
>My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
>match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
>it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
>never lasting long.
>
>He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
>on all fours with his face in it.
>He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
>ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
>complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
>I never heard a why me from him.
>
>He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
>but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
>If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
>picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
>all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
>have fun be brave
>Paul
>
>
>I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
>hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
>screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
>hours, 30 minutes of my life.

Paul, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure your brother was a person
worth knowing.
Sue

On Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:30:10 -0700, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net>
wrote:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
>His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
>aggressive treatment regimen.
>Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
>his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
>a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
>although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
>occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
>be a response to my words.
>
>His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
>Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
>goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
>never subside.
>
>My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
>match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
>it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
>never lasting long.
>
>He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
>on all fours with his face in it.
>He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
>ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
>complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
>I never heard a why me from him.
>
>He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
>but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
>If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
>picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
>all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
>have fun be brave
>Paul
>
>
>I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
>hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
>screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
>hours, 30 minutes of my life.

Paul,

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for posting. I know in here we
are often light-hearted and that is a good thing. But I know that, for
me at least, it is critical that I am periodically reminded (or remind
myself) of the seriousness of this addiction and the consequences of
not quitting.
ConcordPhil
Charter member of the Lucky 7s and grateful to have not smoked 666
cigarettes in the past 1M 2D 7h 12m. Being smoke-free these past 33 days
has saved me $166.49 and 2D 7h 30m of my life.

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Paul,

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for posting. I know in here we
are often light-hearted and that is a good thing. But I know that, for
me at least, it is critical that I am periodically reminded (or remind
myself) of the seriousness of this addiction and the consequences of
not quitting.
ConcordPhil
Charter member of the Lucky 7s and grateful to have not smoked 666
cigarettes in the past 1M 2D 7h 12m. Being smoke-free these past 33 days
has saved me $166.49 and 2D 7h 30m of my life.

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

On Aug 10, 11:30 am, chefmcc <chef...@frontiernet.net> wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

Dear Paul: I am so sorry about your brother John. You were a good
brother, and you quit in time. Thanks for the glimpse into your life.

Love John (jsteam)

On Aug 10, 11:30 am, chefmcc <chef...@frontiernet.net> wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

Dear Paul: I am so sorry about your brother John. You were a good
brother, and you quit in time. Thanks for the glimpse into your life.

Love John (jsteam)

Paul, I'm very sorry to read this. Having watched both my parents die from
lung cancer, I understand the pain you're going through.

Use this to inspire yourself to stay quit. Smoking kills people needlessly
and there isn't any benefit to be gained by smoking. None.

Lee
OOF

--
Hawaiian trapped in a Minnesotan's body


"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Paul, I'm very sorry to read this. Having watched both my parents die from
lung cancer, I understand the pain you're going through.

Use this to inspire yourself to stay quit. Smoking kills people needlessly
and there isn't any benefit to be gained by smoking. None.

Lee
OOF

--
Hawaiian trapped in a Minnesotan's body


"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Paul,

I sure am sorry to hear the news about your brother.
You post was very touching and I'm sure will strengthen
others' resolve to quit smoking.
Thanks for sharing. God bless your family.

jacks, VOF

Paul,

I sure am sorry to hear the news about your brother.
You post was very touching and I'm sure will strengthen
others' resolve to quit smoking.
Thanks for sharing. God bless your family.

jacks, VOF

45 is way to young.
Keep your quit!

I hope his daughters never make the same mistake he did.

My deepest condolences to you and his entire family.

August :-(



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

45 is way to young.
Keep your quit!

I hope his daughters never make the same mistake he did.

My deepest condolences to you and his entire family.

August :-(



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

I didn't know this Lee. I'm sorry to hear that.
That OOF sure helps from you going down that same path.

August

"Lee in Duluth MN" <blahblahblah@albundy.com> wrote in message
news:Xbbvi.55$9L2.51@newsfe05.lga...
> Paul, I'm very sorry to read this. Having watched both my parents die
> from lung cancer, I understand the pain you're going through.
>
> Use this to inspire yourself to stay quit. Smoking kills people
> needlessly and there isn't any benefit to be gained by smoking. None.
>
> Lee
> OOF
>

I didn't know this Lee. I'm sorry to hear that.
That OOF sure helps from you going down that same path.

August

"Lee in Duluth MN" <blahblahblah@albundy.com> wrote in message
news:Xbbvi.55$9L2.51@newsfe05.lga...
> Paul, I'm very sorry to read this. Having watched both my parents die
> from lung cancer, I understand the pain you're going through.
>
> Use this to inspire yourself to stay quit. Smoking kills people
> needlessly and there isn't any benefit to be gained by smoking. None.
>
> Lee
> OOF
>

I'm so sorry for your loss Paul.
With hope and heart,
Kathleen


> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

I'm so sorry for your loss Paul.
With hope and heart,
Kathleen


> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Very sorry to hear about your brother. Lung cancer isn't a pretty way to
go.

AnneD

"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

Very sorry to hear about your brother. Lung cancer isn't a pretty way to
go.

AnneD

"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

(((Chef Paul))) No words, just thinking of you.

--
Batman: "That's life, Robin, full of ups and downs. It ill befits any of us
to become to confident."
-
"chefmcc" <> schreef in bericht ...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

(((Chef Paul))) No words, just thinking of you.

--
Batman: "That's life, Robin, full of ups and downs. It ill befits any of us
to become to confident."
-
"chefmcc" <> schreef in bericht ...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

I am very sorry to hear of your loss chefmcc~
{{{{{{chefmcc}}}}}}
My thoughts are with you and your family~
My deepest sympathy~
mibabet
"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

I am very sorry to hear of your loss chefmcc~
{{{{{{chefmcc}}}}}}
My thoughts are with you and your family~
My deepest sympathy~
mibabet
"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

((((((((((((((((((((((((Paul)))))))))))))))))))))

I am so terribly sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.

--
Lots of love
Summer (007) -- 7M+
_________________________________________________

e-Mail: summer DOT cashmore AT ntlworld DOT com
http://www.summcash.blogspot.com/
"When I found the skull in the woods, the first thing I did was call
the police. But then I got curious about it. I picked it up, and
started wondering who this person was, and why he had deer horns."
-- Jack Handy
_________________________________________________


"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

((((((((((((((((((((((((Paul)))))))))))))))))))))

I am so terribly sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.

--
Lots of love
Summer (007) -- 7M+
_________________________________________________

e-Mail: summer DOT cashmore AT ntlworld DOT com
http://www.summcash.blogspot.com/
"When I found the skull in the woods, the first thing I did was call
the police. But then I got curious about it. I picked it up, and
started wondering who this person was, and why he had deer horns."
-- Jack Handy
_________________________________________________


"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

I don't know what to say.. I'm really sorry..Sounds like a replay of
what I went though Aug 4th. I can feel your pain. Cancer sucks.
Cigarettes suck. Feel free to cry, its o.k.. He's at peace now, think
of it tha way. No more chemo on/chemo off, Stent in/Stent out, tests,
more tests, this dr that dr, pharmacies, you know what I mean. We are
the ones left to grieve Do your best if you want to talk or vent just
come on here. Way too many of these types of posts. It really is gut
wrenching.
Hang in. You have your own lie to live and your Bro' wouldn't want
that to change.
All the best - Steve

I don't know what to say.. I'm really sorry..Sounds like a replay of
what I went though Aug 4th. I can feel your pain. Cancer sucks.
Cigarettes suck. Feel free to cry, its o.k.. He's at peace now, think
of it tha way. No more chemo on/chemo off, Stent in/Stent out, tests,
more tests, this dr that dr, pharmacies, you know what I mean. We are
the ones left to grieve Do your best if you want to talk or vent just
come on here. Way too many of these types of posts. It really is gut
wrenching.
Hang in. You have your own lie to live and your Bro' wouldn't want
that to change.
All the best - Steve

I am so sorry for your loss.