My Brother John - R.I.P.

Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.

He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
aggressive treatment regimen.
Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
be a response to my words.

His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
never subside.

My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
never lasting long.

He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
on all fours with his face in it.
He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
I never heard a why me from him.

He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
but he could never put them down until it killed him.

If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.


have fun be brave
Paul


I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
hours, 30 minutes of my life.

Oh Paul, I am sooo sorry.
Sending prayers for your family during this horrible time.

To John...
<clink>

ExtraBigHugs,
Cat



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Oh Paul, I am sooo sorry.
Sending prayers for your family during this horrible time.

To John...
<clink>

ExtraBigHugs,
Cat



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

My heartfelt condolences to you and your family Paul.

~Echo



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

My heartfelt condolences to you and your family Paul.

~Echo



"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

On Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:30:10 -0700, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net>
wrote:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

{{{{{{{{{{{Paul}}}}}}}}}}

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I hope that
your memories of Paul will, eventually, bring a warm smile to your
face and heart.

--
BessieBee

"If you want the rainbow, you got to put up with the rain"
Steven Wright

On Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:30:10 -0700, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net>
wrote:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

{{{{{{{{{{{Paul}}}}}}}}}}

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I hope that
your memories of Paul will, eventually, bring a warm smile to your
face and heart.

--
BessieBee

"If you want the rainbow, you got to put up with the rain"
Steven Wright

Paul, I can only say that I am saddened by your loss and my thoughts
do go out to you and your family.

FlatironMike
Five months, four weeks, two days, 14 hours, 26 minutes and 19
seconds. 3612 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,083.36. Life saved: 1
week, 5 days, 13 hours, 0 minutes.

Paul, I can only say that I am saddened by your loss and my thoughts
do go out to you and your family.

FlatironMike
Five months, four weeks, two days, 14 hours, 26 minutes and 19
seconds. 3612 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,083.36. Life saved: 1
week, 5 days, 13 hours, 0 minutes.

chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com:

> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John,
his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>

Thank you for sharing this Paul. Warmest thoughts for you and your
family.


Wayne
Smober Time: 6D, 1H, 50m
Not Smoked: 170
Money Saved: $26.80
Life saved: 14H, 10m

chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com:

> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John,
his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>

Thank you for sharing this Paul. Warmest thoughts for you and your
family.


Wayne
Smober Time: 6D, 1H, 50m
Not Smoked: 170
Money Saved: $26.80
Life saved: 14H, 10m

Paul, I am so sorry to hear about your brother.
I feel the best way we can honor him and others is to keep our quits.
My thoughts and prayers for your and your family.

Hugs
Ashley

Paul, I am so sorry to hear about your brother.
I feel the best way we can honor him and others is to keep our quits.
My thoughts and prayers for your and your family.

Hugs
Ashley

((((((((Paul & Family))))))))))))

My heart goes out to you all.

So very sorry Paul ...

Much Love.

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>


--
I don't smoke. I smell like bread. Life is Good.

((((((((Paul & Family))))))))))))

My heart goes out to you all.

So very sorry Paul ...

Much Love.

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>


--
I don't smoke. I smell like bread. Life is Good.

Forgot my meter!

No smoking for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 11 hours, 15 minutes and 58
seconds. I have saved $136.30 by not smoking 727 cigarettes and I have
an additional 2 Days, 12 hours and 35 minutes of my life to show for
it.

Forgot my meter!

No smoking for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 11 hours, 15 minutes and 58
seconds. I have saved $136.30 by not smoking 727 cigarettes and I have
an additional 2 Days, 12 hours and 35 minutes of my life to show for
it.

Paul, I am so sorry to hear about your brother.
I feel the best way we can honor him and others is to keep our quits.
My thoughts and prayers for your and your family.

Hugs
Ashley



No smoking for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 11 hours, 17 minutes and 30
seconds. I have saved $136.30 by not smoking 727 cigarettes and I have
an additional 2 Days, 12 hours and 35 minutes of my life to show for
it.

Paul, I am so sorry to hear about your brother.
I feel the best way we can honor him and others is to keep our quits.
My thoughts and prayers for your and your family.

Hugs
Ashley



No smoking for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 11 hours, 17 minutes and 30
seconds. I have saved $136.30 by not smoking 727 cigarettes and I have
an additional 2 Days, 12 hours and 35 minutes of my life to show for
it.

Paul,
I am so sorry for the loss of your brother.thanks for posting and letting
us know.
Becky
Two months, one week, 15 hours, 56 minutes and 51 seconds. 3433 cigarettes
not smoked, saving $319.29. Life saved: 1 week, 4 days, 22 hours, 5 minutes.

"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Paul,
I am so sorry for the loss of your brother.thanks for posting and letting
us know.
Becky
Two months, one week, 15 hours, 56 minutes and 51 seconds. 3433 cigarettes
not smoked, saving $319.29. Life saved: 1 week, 4 days, 22 hours, 5 minutes.

"chefmcc" <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> wrote in message
news:1186763410.350608.233990@d30g2000prg.googlegr oups.com...
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Sad story, Paul. Really sorry to hear of your loss, your brother sounds
like the kind of guy I would end up being great friends with.
Hang in there, you and yours.
SteveS
OOF

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Sad story, Paul. Really sorry to hear of your loss, your brother sounds
like the kind of guy I would end up being great friends with.
Hang in there, you and yours.
SteveS
OOF

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Wow, Paul. I can't find the words to say what I would like to. Please
know that you and your family are in my thoughts.
Debbie VOF


chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Wow, Paul. I can't find the words to say what I would like to. Please
know that you and your family are in my thoughts.
Debbie VOF


chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>

Once upon a time, chefmcc said:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

Paul! My deepest condolence to you and your family.
God bless your for your wonderful description of your brother, and for
sharing your personal hurt with us.

--
Tihomir *I don't smoke anymore* -÷- Remove my shirt to E-mail me.
IRCchat: #nosmokers at irc.starlink.org
irc://irc.starlink.org/nosmokers

.... He that deeply desires honor, is not usually worthy of it

Once upon a time, chefmcc said:

>Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
>struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
>He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.

Paul! My deepest condolence to you and your family.
God bless your for your wonderful description of your brother, and for
sharing your personal hurt with us.

--
Tihomir *I don't smoke anymore* -÷- Remove my shirt to E-mail me.
IRCchat: #nosmokers at irc.starlink.org
irc://irc.starlink.org/nosmokers

.... He that deeply desires honor, is not usually worthy of it

Paul, i'm so sorry to hear about John's death. Truly tragic at such a
young age. Thank you for taking a moment to share with us and for the
reality check. Smoking kills.

((((((((((((Paul and family))))))))))))))))

DDJacque
TOF

On 2007-08-10 12:30:10 -0400, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> said:

> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.


--

Paul, i'm so sorry to hear about John's death. Truly tragic at such a
young age. Thank you for taking a moment to share with us and for the
reality check. Smoking kills.

((((((((((((Paul and family))))))))))))))))

DDJacque
TOF

On 2007-08-10 12:30:10 -0400, chefmcc <chefmcc@frontiernet.net> said:

> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.


--

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>
Sorry for your loss Paul. You and yours are in my thoughts.
Kind Regards Chris

chefmcc wrote:
> Some of you may recall I posted once or twice re: my brother John, his
> struggles and his cancer diagnosis this past spring.
>
> He died on the morning of July 31. He was 45.
>
> His cancer had progressed at an incredible pace despite a very
> aggressive treatment regimen.
> Lung, liver, thyroid, brain. I was with him hours before his death,
> his body ravaged, cheeks sunken, eyes glazed, skin yellowed and taut,
> a shell of the man I'd grown up with. He was in tremendous pain
> although heaviliy medicated. He seemed to look right through me,
> occassionaly focusing and giving me a blink or two in what I took to
> be a response to my words.
>
> His wife was with him as were his daughters 13 and 18 years old.
> Parents, siblings, spouses, friends, cousins all gathered to say
> goodbye and share the grief which at this moment feels like it will
> never subside.
>
> My brother John was the toughest man I have ever known but was no
> match for cancer and he could never conquer the cigarettes that gave
> it to him. Like all of us he attempted to quit time and time again,
> never lasting long.
>
> He lived his life like a dog drinking from a lake on a hot day, down
> on all fours with his face in it.
> He never stopped fighting the M.S. that had plagued him for the last
> ten years or so, refusing to give up hockey and golf. He never
> complianed about the hand he was dealt, just kept on going.
> I never heard a why me from him.
>
> He was as addicted to cigarettes as you and I,
> but he could never put them down until it killed him.
>
> If you are preparing to quit, trying to convince yourself to quit,
> picking yourself up after relapsing into smoking (again), I wish you
> all the best, I wish you a better outcome than my brother John.
>
>
> have fun be brave
> Paul
>
>
> I have not smoked for One year, six months, three weeks, four days, 13
> hours, 42 minutes and 52 seconds. Said no thanks to 6858 cigarettes,
> screwing R.J. Reynolds out of $1,320.23. Saving: 3 weeks, 2 days, 19
> hours, 30 minutes of my life.
>
Sorry for your loss Paul. You and yours are in my thoughts.
Kind Regards Chris

aww (((Paul ))) I am sorry you brother had such a hard fight going out of
this world.

--
Lynn VOF Leaper

"chefmcc" <chefmcc@f