Odds & Ends & Random thoughts.

I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
why I quit. This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
to watch some old favorite movies. One of which is Elevator to the
Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). It is a French subtitled movie
made in 1958. I dig that stuff. Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
I cleared out the room when I put that in. The husband went upstairs
to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? She then promptly
removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! EVERYONE IN
THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! They all smoke, the young,the old,
the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. All these old
'50's French films are that way. And you know what? The first thing
I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". HUH?!? I
didn't think...ewwww gross. I thought..."Damn. Jeanne Moureau sure
looks sexy smoking...how cool". Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
that at 6 months. And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. I really
do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. I
think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
It was a little moment of reality.

Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
going to be smoking within days...NOT. Here are some other things I
thought of...

In regards to the above-mentioned film. They are frozen in time.
Frozen in 1958. Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
their cigarettes. BUT...this is 2008. I wonder what they look like
now, if any of them are alive? I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
health? their looks? I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.

Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
notice within the past month. I am now able to take nice, big deep
DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
oxygen. Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. I don't think I was
breathing very good at all for a very long time. I feel so much
better now in terms of breathing. I also really notice and appreciate
good smells. I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
life! It isn't masked by my smoke smell.

I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
quitting smoking. I've bought some lovely little things and some big
things with my no-smoking $$$. This has been fun, too! I have a goal
now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
"healthy". Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
( and...I was never hungry.


Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
didn't want to do that.

Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. I
also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. These both are very
helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. I always ALWAYS
dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. And...it almost
always worked. It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. I am able to
relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
presence of smoke! Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
smoking. A miracle. I'm grateful for that!

As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
the world of smoking. It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
and on...Marlboro Reds. That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
to her until I am blue in the face. I don't know what else I can say
or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. A
bittersweet victory to be sure. Quite a bit of guilt as well. But, I
will not let it affect my smoke-free status. It is another
inspiration to stay smoke free. I will continue to try to stop my
daughter from going too far down this road. Any suggestions are
welcomed.

Well, for the most part, all is well in my world.

I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. I'm not
having any major craves. Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
certainly manageable.

Thanks for listening to my many ramblings
PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
22 hours, 15 minutes.

PKK!

Until 'Surround Smell' is invented, I guess smoking will always seem
Cool 'n' Sexy on film.

I still notice smoking/smokers in movies too but remember the reality
of the situation -- they don't 'get' to smoke -- they 'have' to smoke.

Cheers!

-- St Marvin Of Wii

On Feb 12, 3:39*pm, "PreciousKitty...@gmail.com"
<PreciousKitty...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> why I quit. *This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> to watch some old favorite movies. *One of which is Elevator to the
> Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). *It is a French subtitled movie
> made in 1958. *I dig that stuff. *Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
> I cleared out the room when I put that in. *The husband went upstairs
> to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? *She then promptly
> removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! *EVERYONE IN
> THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! *They all smoke, the young,the old,
> the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. *All these old
> '50's French films are that way. *And you know what? *The first thing
> I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". *HUH?!? *I
> didn't think...ewwww gross. *I thought..."Damn. *Jeanne Moureau sure
> looks sexy smoking...how cool". *Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> that at 6 months. *And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. *I really
> do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. *I
> think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> It was a little moment of reality.
>
> Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> going to be smoking within days...NOT. *Here are some other things I
> thought of...
>
> In regards to the above-mentioned film. *They are frozen in time.
> Frozen in 1958. *Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> their cigarettes. *BUT...this is 2008. *I wonder what they look like
> now, if any of them are alive? *I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> health? *their looks? *I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
> Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
> notice within the past month. *I am now able to take nice, big deep
> DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
> oxygen. *Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. *I don't think I was
> breathing very good at all for a very long time. *I feel so much
> better now in terms of breathing. *I also really notice and appreciate
> good smells. *I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
> smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
> life! *It isn't masked by my smoke smell.
>
> I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
> quitting smoking. *I've bought some lovely little things and some big
> things with my no-smoking $$$. *This has been fun, too! *I have a goal
> now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
> further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
> Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
> "healthy". *Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
> eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
> ( and...I was never hungry.
>
> Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
> rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
> remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
> didn't want to do that.
>
> Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. *I
> also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. *These both are very
> helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. *I always ALWAYS
> dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
> down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. *And...it almost
> always worked. *It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
> deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. *I am able to
> relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
> presence of smoke! *Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
> smoking. *A miracle. *I'm grateful for that!
>
> As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
> the world of smoking. *It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
> and on...Marlboro Reds. *That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
> to her until I am blue in the face. *I don't know what else I can say
> or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
> cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
> same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. *A
> bittersweet victory to be sure. *Quite a bit of guilt as well. *But, I
> will not let it affect my smoke-free status. *It is another
> inspiration to stay smoke free. *I will continue to try to stop my
> daughter from going too far down this road. *Any suggestions are
> welcomed.
>
> Well, *for the most part, all is well in my world.
>
> I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. *I'm not
> having any major craves. *Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> certainly manageable.
>
> Thanks for listening to my many ramblings *
> PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> 22 hours, 15 minutes.

On Tue, 12 Feb 2008 12:39:22 -0800 (PST), "PreciousKittyKat@gmail.com"
<PreciousKittyKat@gmail.com> wrote:

>I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
>why I quit.

Your random thoughts are great. Thanks for sharing. I agree your
opinions about the "look" of smoking.
Sorry about your daughter. I have two smoking children and two not
(although one used to). My granddaughter smokes. (
Sue

Thank you for an interesting and very thoughtful read!

Jeanne Moreau - looks fantabulous at age 80.

Yori Bertin - 67 and still with us!

Georges Poujouly died at 60

Jean Wall died of a heart attack at 58

Elga Andersen died at 59

Maurice Ronet died at 56

Cheers & hugs,
robbster

PreciousKittyKat@gmail.com wrote:
> I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> why I quit. This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> to watch some old favorite movies. One of which is Elevator to the
> Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). It is a French subtitled movie
> made in 1958. I dig that stuff. Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
> I cleared out the room when I put that in. The husband went upstairs
> to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? She then promptly
> removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! EVERYONE IN
> THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! They all smoke, the young,the old,
> the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. All these old
> '50's French films are that way. And you know what? The first thing
> I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". HUH?!? I
> didn't think...ewwww gross. I thought..."Damn. Jeanne Moureau sure
> looks sexy smoking...how cool". Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> that at 6 months. And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. I really
> do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. I
> think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> It was a little moment of reality.
>
> Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> going to be smoking within days...NOT. Here are some other things I
> thought of...
>
> In regards to the above-mentioned film. They are frozen in time.
> Frozen in 1958. Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> their cigarettes. BUT...this is 2008. I wonder what they look like
> now, if any of them are alive? I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> health? their looks? I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
> Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
> notice within the past month. I am now able to take nice, big deep
> DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
> oxygen. Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. I don't think I was
> breathing very good at all for a very long time. I feel so much
> better now in terms of breathing. I also really notice and appreciate
> good smells. I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
> smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
> life! It isn't masked by my smoke smell.
>
> I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
> quitting smoking. I've bought some lovely little things and some big
> things with my no-smoking $$$. This has been fun, too! I have a goal
> now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
> further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
> Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
> "healthy". Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
> eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
> ( and...I was never hungry.
>
>
> Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
> rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
> remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
> didn't want to do that.
>
> Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. I
> also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. These both are very
> helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. I always ALWAYS
> dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
> down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. And...it almost
> always worked. It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
> deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. I am able to
> relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
> presence of smoke! Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
> smoking. A miracle. I'm grateful for that!
>
> As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
> the world of smoking. It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
> and on...Marlboro Reds. That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
> to her until I am blue in the face. I don't know what else I can say
> or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
> cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
> same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. A
> bittersweet victory to be sure. Quite a bit of guilt as well. But, I
> will not let it affect my smoke-free status. It is another
> inspiration to stay smoke free. I will continue to try to stop my
> daughter from going too far down this road. Any suggestions are
> welcomed.
>
> Well, for the most part, all is well in my world.
>
> I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. I'm not
> having any major craves. Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> certainly manageable.
>
> Thanks for listening to my many ramblings
> PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> 22 hours, 15 minutes.
>

On Feb 12, 3:39*pm, "PreciousKitty...@gmail.com"
<PreciousKitty...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> why I quit. *This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> to watch some old favorite movies. *One of which is Elevator to the
> Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). *It is a French subtitled movie
> made in 1958. *I dig that stuff. *Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
> I cleared out the room when I put that in. *The husband went upstairs
> to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? *She then promptly
> removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! *EVERYONE IN
> THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! *They all smoke, the young,the old,
> the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. *All these old
> '50's French films are that way. *And you know what? *The first thing
> I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". *HUH?!? *I
> didn't think...ewwww gross. *I thought..."Damn. *Jeanne Moureau sure
> looks sexy smoking...how cool". *Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> that at 6 months. *And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. *I really
> do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. *I
> think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> It was a little moment of reality.
>
> Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> going to be smoking within days...NOT. *Here are some other things I
> thought of...
>
> In regards to the above-mentioned film. *They are frozen in time.
> Frozen in 1958. *Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> their cigarettes. *BUT...this is 2008. *I wonder what they look like
> now, if any of them are alive? *I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> health? *their looks? *I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
> Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
> notice within the past month. *I am now able to take nice, big deep
> DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
> oxygen. *Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. *I don't think I was
> breathing very good at all for a very long time. *I feel so much
> better now in terms of breathing. *I also really notice and appreciate
> good smells. *I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
> smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
> life! *It isn't masked by my smoke smell.
>
> I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
> quitting smoking. *I've bought some lovely little things and some big
> things with my no-smoking $$$. *This has been fun, too! *I have a goal
> now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
> further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
> Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
> "healthy". *Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
> eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
> ( and...I was never hungry.
>
> Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
> rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
> remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
> didn't want to do that.
>
> Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. *I
> also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. *These both are very
> helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. *I always ALWAYS
> dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
> down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. *And...it almost
> always worked. *It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
> deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. *I am able to
> relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
> presence of smoke! *Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
> smoking. *A miracle. *I'm grateful for that!
>
> As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
> the world of smoking. *It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
> and on...Marlboro Reds. *That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
> to her until I am blue in the face. *I don't know what else I can say
> or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
> cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
> same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. *A
> bittersweet victory to be sure. *Quite a bit of guilt as well. *But, I
> will not let it affect my smoke-free status. *It is another
> inspiration to stay smoke free. *I will continue to try to stop my
> daughter from going too far down this road. *Any suggestions are
> welcomed.
>
> Well, *for the most part, all is well in my world.
>
> I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. *I'm not
> having any major craves. *Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> certainly manageable.
>
> Thanks for listening to my many ramblings *
> PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> 22 hours, 15 minutes.

PKK - What a great post. I love those old noir films. Everyone, male
and female, smoked in the 40's and 50's and even the 60's. Bogart,
Crawford, Bette Davis, Cagney, Stanwick, Hayworth, E.G. Robinson, etc.
You weren't "American" unless you smoked! What a difference 50 years
makes! (But I still love those movies.)
Stay strong and stay quit.
Hugs,
Pam

On Feb 12, 4:31*pm, robbb <robbREMOVE...@CAPSciggyfree.org> wrote:
> Thank you for an interesting and very thoughtful read!
>
> Jeanne Moreau - looks fantabulous at age 80.
>
> Yori Bertin - 67 and still with us!
>
> Georges Poujouly died at 60
>
> Jean Wall died of a heart attack at 58
>
> Elga Andersen died at 59
>
> Maurice Ronet died at 56
>
> Cheers & hugs,
> robbster
>
>
>
> PreciousKitty...@gmail.com wrote:
> > I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> > why I quit. *This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> > to watch some old favorite movies. *One of which is Elevator to the
> > Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). *It is a French subtitled movie
> > made in 1958. *I dig that stuff. *Anyways, as I sat down to watch it..
> > I cleared out the room when I put that in. *The husband went upstairs
> > to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> > head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? *She then promptly
> > removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> > So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> > jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! *EVERYONE IN
> > THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! *They all smoke, the young,the old,
> > the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. *All these old
> > '50's French films are that way. *And you know what? *The first thing
> > I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". *HUH?!? *I
> > didn't think...ewwww gross. *I thought..."Damn. *Jeanne Moureau sure
> > looks sexy smoking...how cool". *Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> > that at 6 months. *And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. *I really
> > do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> > way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. *I
> > think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> > call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> > attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> > I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> > It was a little moment of reality.
>
> > Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> > going to be smoking within days...NOT. *Here are some other things I
> > thought of...
>
> > In regards to the above-mentioned film. *They are frozen in time.
> > Frozen in 1958. *Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> > their cigarettes. *BUT...this is 2008. *I wonder what they look like
> > now, if any of them are alive? *I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> > health? *their looks? *I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
> > Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
> > notice within the past month. *I am now able to take nice, big deep
> > DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
> > oxygen. *Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. *I don't think I was
> > breathing very good at all for a very long time. *I feel so much
> > better now in terms of breathing. *I also really notice and appreciate
> > good smells. *I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
> > smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
> > life! *It isn't masked by my smoke smell.
>
> > I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
> > quitting smoking. *I've bought some lovely little things and some big
> > things with my no-smoking $$$. *This has been fun, too! *I have a goal
> > now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
> > further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
> > Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
> > "healthy". *Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
> > eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
> > ( and...I was never hungry.
>
> > Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
> > rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
> > remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
> > didn't want to do that.
>
> > Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. *I
> > also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. *These both are very
> > helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. *I always ALWAYS
> > dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
> > down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. *And...it almost
> > always worked. *It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
> > deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. *I am able to
> > relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
> > presence of smoke! *Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
> > smoking. *A miracle. *I'm grateful for that!
>
> > As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
> > the world of smoking. *It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
> > and on...Marlboro Reds. *That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
> > to her until I am blue in the face. *I don't know what else I can say
> > or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
> > cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
> > same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. *A
> > bittersweet victory to be sure. *Quite a bit of guilt as well. *But,I
> > will not let it affect my smoke-free status. *It is another
> > inspiration to stay smoke free. *I will continue to try to stop my
> > daughter from going too far down this road. *Any suggestions are
> > welcomed.
>
> > Well, *for the most part, all is well in my world.
>
> > I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. *I'm not
> > having any major craves. *Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> > certainly manageable.
>
> > Thanks for listening to my many ramblings *
> > PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> > Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
> > cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> > 22 hours, 15 minutes.- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

It was interesting to hear about the folks that played in that film.
I noticed many died relatively young (from smoking?). I am glad to
hear that Jeanne Moureau is still lookin' good at 80! Good for her!
I wonder if she still smokes? Oh...the things I wonder about! Thanks
for the update on the actors/actresses in that movie
PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
Six months, two days, 22 hours, 11 minutes and 7 seconds. 3738
cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,121.80. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
23 hours, 30 minutes.

I am willing to guess that they died young from smoking-related
diseases. If you click on her picture here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeanne_Moreau
you will see that for 80 years young, she is still hot! She probably
has great genes, eats good food, takes loads of vitamin C, has good
sleep each night, and exercises
I think she did smoke when she was young but eventually quit.
Keep writing the good reads!

hugs,
robbster


PreciousKittyKat@gmail.com wrote:
> It was interesting to hear about the folks that played in that film.
> I noticed many died relatively young (from smoking?). I am glad to
> hear that Jeanne Moureau is still lookin' good at 80! Good for her!
> I wonder if she still smokes? Oh...the things I wonder about! Thanks
> for the update on the actors/actresses in that movie
> PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> Six months, two days, 22 hours, 11 minutes and 7 seconds. 3738
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,121.80. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> 23 hours, 30 minutes.
>

On Feb 12, 3:39*pm, "PreciousKitty...@gmail.com"
<PreciousKitty...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> why I quit. *This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> to watch some old favorite movies. *One of which is Elevator to the
> Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). *It is a French subtitled movie
> made in 1958. *I dig that stuff. *Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
> I cleared out the room when I put that in. *The husband went upstairs
> to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? *She then promptly
> removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! *EVERYONE IN
> THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! *They all smoke, the young,the old,
> the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. *All these old
> '50's French films are that way. *And you know what? *The first thing
> I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". *HUH?!? *I
> didn't think...ewwww gross. *I thought..."Damn. *Jeanne Moureau sure
> looks sexy smoking...how cool". *Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> that at 6 months. *And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. *I really
> do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. *I
> think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> It was a little moment of reality.
>
> Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> going to be smoking within days...NOT. *Here are some other things I
> thought of...
>
> In regards to the above-mentioned film. *They are frozen in time.
> Frozen in 1958. *Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> their cigarettes. *BUT...this is 2008. *I wonder what they look like
> now, if any of them are alive? *I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> health? *their looks? *I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
> Another thing...a lovely benefit I have really just now started to
> notice within the past month. *I am now able to take nice, big deep
> DEEP breaths and really feel like I am getting a good supply of
> oxygen. *Feels...deeply satisfying and relaxing. *I don't think I was
> breathing very good at all for a very long time. *I feel so much
> better now in terms of breathing. *I also really notice and appreciate
> good smells. *I like the smell of freshly laundered clothing, the
> smell of my vehicle now, smells of food, smells of cologne...smells of
> life! *It isn't masked by my smoke smell.
>
> I've been able to do some very nice things for myself all due to
> quitting smoking. *I've bought some lovely little things and some big
> things with my no-smoking $$$. *This has been fun, too! *I have a goal
> now of buying a treadmill (I know, not so fun)...to help me along
> further with my health, my breathing...and...my newly gained weight.
> Although I was skinny before, I was never what you would call
> "healthy". *Not, that I was sick, either, but...just didn't
> eat...preferred to smoke, smoke smoke to anything else in life :
> ( and...I was never hungry.
>
> Oh...I guess I had a couple other little odds & ends...this is a
> rambling, random post again...I just think of things and I want to
> remember to post them...if I don't, I might forget them...and...I
> didn't want to do that.
>
> Anxiety...I do a lot of pursed lipped breathing to control anxiety. *I
> also do a lot of deep breathing exercises. *These both are very
> helpful, as I always ALWAYS feel anxiety in my chest. *I always ALWAYS
> dealt with anxiety in my chest by sucking deep lungfulls of smoke deep
> down into my lungs to relieve that anxious feeling. *And...it almost
> always worked. *It is suprising that the pursed lipped breathing and
> deep breathing techniques work as well as they do. *I am able to
> relieve much of my anxiety by doing those two things without the
> presence of smoke! *Amazing...I can breathe...and relax...without
> smoking. *A miracle. *I'm grateful for that!
>
> As I begin my smoke-free journey...my daughter begins her journey into
> the world of smoking. *It breaks my heart...I know she is smoking off
> and on...Marlboro Reds. *That, is a whole other topic. I have talked
> to her until I am blue in the face. *I don't know what else I can say
> or do...it is heartbreaking for me...I am so glad to be free of the
> cigarettes, and am so happy being clean and smoke free...yet at the
> same time...my daughter begins her love affair with cigarettes. *A
> bittersweet victory to be sure. *Quite a bit of guilt as well. *But, I
> will not let it affect my smoke-free status. *It is another
> inspiration to stay smoke free. *I will continue to try to stop my
> daughter from going too far down this road. *Any suggestions are
> welcomed.
>
> Well, *for the most part, all is well in my world.
>
> I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. *I'm not
> having any major craves. *Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> certainly manageable.
>
> Thanks for listening to my many ramblings *
> PreciousKittyKat =^..^=
> Six months, two days, 4 hours, 32 minutes and 50 seconds. 3723
> cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,117.38. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days,
> 22 hours, 15 minutes.

You have a way of saying things that I am thinking/feeling but don't
know how to say

BTW, do you remember the ads that Yul Brenner did that aired after his
death from cancer? He said, "Whatever you do, don't smoke. Just don't
smoke." It was so sad.

GN TG08
One month, three weeks, four days, 21 hours, 0 minutes and 35 seconds.
568 cigarettes not smoked, saving $85.31. Life saved: 1 day, 23 hours,
20 minutes.

On Feb 12, 2:39*pm, "PreciousKitty...@gmail.com"
<PreciousKitty...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I am not smoking and have absolutely no desire to smoke. *I'm not
> having any major craves. *Things aren't always perfect, but, they are
> certainly manageable.

Jeanne Moureau has nothing on you.
Keep setting a good example for that daughter.

PKK! Thanks for an interesting topic! I do notice smoking when I
watch movies or TV. While I expect to see it in stuff pre-1970, I
totally am distressed how often it is still portrayed in today's
stuff. While I would think some smoking, depending on the topic,.
could make sense, to have smoking when it is not a necessary part of
the storyline really is a disservice, IMHO.

Thanks for the post and bootyful meter!

FlatironMike
1Y+

On Feb 12, 3:39�pm, "PreciousKitty...@gmail.com"
<PreciousKitty...@gmail.com> wrote:
> I always question reasons why I smoked and try to reinforce reasons
> why I quit. �This weekend, it was so cold here in Minnesota, I decided
> to watch some old favorite movies. �One of which is Elevator to the
> Gallows (Ascenseur Pour L'Echafaud). �It is a French subtitled movie
> made in 1958. �I dig that stuff. �Anyways, as I sat down to watch it.
> I cleared out the room when I put that in. �The husband went upstairs
> to play an XBOX game with our son and my daughter walked by shook her
> head and said, "what is that you're watching"?!? �She then promptly
> removed herself and went down to her room with her friends.
> So...there I am, really getting into this movie...all film noir, cool
> jazz soundtrack by Miles Davis...and then...holy smokes! �EVERYONEIN
> THIS MOVIE IS SMOKING UP A STORM! �They all smoke, the young,the old,
> the kids, the main characters...smoke smoke smoke. �All these old
> '50's French films are that way. �And you know what? �The first thing
> I thought was...and "Damn do they look good smoking". �HUH?!? �I
> didn't think...ewwww gross. �I thought..."Damn. �Jeanne Moureau sure
> looks sexy smoking...how cool". �Uhm...I'm NOT supposed to think like
> that at 6 months. �And, I don't think it is junkie thinking. �I really
> do think that is why I started smoking...because it, in my own warped
> way, think it looks very classy, sophisticated, sexy, whatever. �I
> think I just have to accept the fact that no matter how much I want to
> call them disgusting, ugly, sh*tsticks, whatever...I still see an
> attractive person smoking, and I still think it looks attractive, and
> I think I am only deceiving myself to pretend I don't think that way.
> It was a little moment of reality.
>
> Now...before everyone goes all crazy and thinks...PreciousKittyKat is
> going to be smoking within days...NOT. �Here are some other thingsI
> thought of...
>
> In regards to the above-mentioned film. �They are frozen in time.
> Frozen in 1958. �Looking all cool and sexy...with them dragging on
> their cigarettes. �BUT...this is 2008. �I wonder what theylook like
> now, if any of them are alive? �I wonder how cigarettes impacted their
> health? �their looks? �I'm sure it isn't a pretty picture.
>
Dear PKK, I really identified with your passage about smoking in old
movies. One movie I saw when I was quite young was Now Voyager with
Bette Davis and Paul Henreid. There was a very lovely scene in which
they were on the deck of a ship and he lights 2 cigarettes and hands
one to her. It was so romantic. And it stayed with me for years.
Oh, I had plenty of other cigarette influences to deal with. At that
time, almost everyone smoked and very few cigarettes were filtered.
Every adult in my family smoked. And of course I took it up in high
school. I tried so many ways of quitting: Cold turkey never worked.
Hypnosis seemed like a scam. Biofeedback had no effect at all. Tried
the gum, but I found myself smoking and chewing at the same time. I
got a prescription for a tranquillizer, Librium I think it was. Just
took all my energy away but did nothing to help me quit.

It wasn't until I got a computer and was learning how to go online
that I got a clue. I wanted to find out if there was anything out
there on the internet that could help me quit. I had no idea what the
internet was or what was available on it or how to go about searching
it. So I went to my local Barnes & Noble bookstore, to the computer
section and found a book called The Internet Yellow Pages. I no
longer have this book; by now it's way outdated. But I opened it up
there in the stacks and found AS3 as if by magic. I didn't know what
it was but I thought it coiuldn't hurt. I bought the book because I
thought there might be many other things I could use and learn from in
it.

That was a little more than 10 years ago. I am so glad I found that
book and AS3. I never found anything else in the book that was at all
useful. And the whole online experience has changed and grown so much
since then that no book could possibly contain a directory of
everything. But then there's Google.

PKK, you really have got a handle on your own quit process. Six
months is a good place to be. Just keep on keeping on, one day at a
time, and you will prevail. It's not easy, and sometimes it's very
difficult, but it can be done.

But don't give up your old French movies. I love them too. I love
almost all movies. Next to AS3, I rely on Netflix to keep me sane.

Be strong. Don't smoke. Not even one. Especially not one.

Joyce TOF