So grateful I don't smoke!

It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.

I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
right now.
Thanks for letting me share.
You guys rock!
Angie

sorry you and your sister are having a tough go.

--
Lynn <---VOF Leaper

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegro ups.com...
> It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
> firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
> week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
> She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
> year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
> hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
> is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
> probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
> all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
> best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
>
> I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
> sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
> activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
> value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
> person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
> right now.
> Thanks for letting me share.
> You guys rock!
> Angie
>

On Jul 4, 8:34 pm, "Lynn" <lynn.sc...@ns.spammenotsympatico.ca> wrote:
> sorry you and your sister are having a tough go.
>
> --
> Lynn <---VOF Leaper
>
> "Angie" <agwins...@cox.net> wrote in message
>
> news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegro ups.com...
>
>
>
> > It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
> > firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> > If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
> > week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
> > She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
> > year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
> > hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
> > is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
> > probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
> > all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
> > best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
>
> > I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
> > sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
> > activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
> > value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
> > person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
> > right now.
> > Thanks for letting me share.
> > You guys rock!
> > Angie- Hide quoted text -
>
> - Show quoted text -

Angie - but you ARE doing this - not smoking. That's what it's all
about - good for you honey. Keep it up. Bad things happen to good
people - we don't know why - just keep up the good fight and DON'T
SMOKE!
Hugs to you & family,
Pam

On Wed, 04 Jul 2007 16:59:27 -0700, Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
>firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
>week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
>She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
>year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
>hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
>is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
>probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
>all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
>best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
>
>I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
>sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
>activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
>value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
>person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
>right now.
>Thanks for letting me share.
>You guys rock!
>Angie

Best wishes and healing thoughts to both you and your sister.
Sue

{{{{{{{{{{{{Angie}}}}}}}}}}}}} I am sorry to read about your sister's
medical conditon and am confident it must be hard for you to watch her
dying. Yes, sickerettes are resilient in their ongoing drive to get
to you but you know that is NOT an option. Hang tuff & don't puff.
It does get better.

FlatironMike
FSS
Four months, three weeks, two days, 23 hours, 16 minutes and 31
seconds. 2879 cigarettes not smoked, saving $863.57. Life saved: 1
week, 2 days, 23 hours, 55 minutes.

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegro ups.com...
> It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
> firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!

(((((((((Angie)))))))))
Stay focused on the good things Angie.....you are doing great.

> If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
> week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
> She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
> year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
> hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
> is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
> probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
> all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
> best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.

Does your sister still smoke? Hopefully both of you will stay smoke free
and heal up to have more time together. Your sister has probably bought
your freedom from the Nico-Demon don't let her down and don't let yourself
down. Stay strong and I am sending all the good thoughts and healing vibes
to you and your sister.
>
> I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
> sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
> activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
> value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
> person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
> right now.
> Thanks for letting me share.
> You guys rock!
> Angie

Thanks for sharing Angie. I'm sure your hard times will help some people
to firm their resolve and stay smober. You are the one who rocks for
sharing something so personal to help other people on the road to being
smoke-free.

Steve and Sarah
Best wishes and lots of love

On Jul 4, 5:44 pm, Pam <PFa...@Fortune-Johnson.com> wrote:
> On Jul 4, 8:34 pm, "Lynn" <lynn.sc...@ns.spammenotsympatico.ca> wrote:
>
>
>
>
>
> > sorry you and your sister are having a tough go.
>
> > --
> > Lynn <---VOF Leaper
>
> > "Angie" <agwins...@cox.net> wrote in message
>
> >news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegr oups.com...
>
> > > It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
> > > firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> > > If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
> > > week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
> > > She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
> > > year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
> > > hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
> > > is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
> > > probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
> > > all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
> > > best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
>
> > > I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
> > > sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
> > > activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
> > > value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
> > > person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
> > > right now.
> > > Thanks for letting me share.
> > > You guys rock!
> > > Angie- Hide quoted text -
>
> > - Show quoted text -
>
> Angie - but you ARE doing this - not smoking. That's what it's all
> about - good for you honey. Keep it up. Bad things happen to good
>
Thanks Pam....I am so so happy I can look myself in the mirror and
know that I don't smoke!!!!!!
Angie

Thanks , I think she still is smoking believe it or not. It's
disappointing knowing she does even in the face of death///but then
again I have no control over people, places and things so I can't
stress out about it. It will be challenging when I go back there to
keep from smoking but I am taking my laptop with me and will be
posting often!
Angie

Thanks Lynn......It is a tough go but we also have alot of laughs. My
sister is such a funny person....even now she finds the humor amidst
the tears!!!

Yes Pam, I hold to that. Smoking is killing my sister and I don't
smoke. I hold that thought when I have my urges. Smoking is no ones
friend!
Angie

Thanks Sue. Yes I will be doing my best to bring some healing food and
company .....Peace is what we seek....and laughing of course! My
sister is a big comedian which is of good use now!

Mike!
Thank you for letting me know about AS3! I will be constantly
reminding myself that smoking is not an option when I'm visiting my
sister...I'm hoping that witnessing the pain that comes from the
consequences of a career in smoking will help. That is if I combat the
'fuck its' which seem to horn their way in, in situations like
this....at least for me. Ya know....life is so so sweet. I find myself
treasuring its simple gifts every day. Not smoking is such a different
way of being!
Angie
I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 5 Days, 22 hours, 18 minutes and 20
seconds (26 days). I have saved $118.48 by not smoking 538 cigarettes.
I have saved 1 Day, 20 hours and 50 minutes of my life. My Quit Date:
6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Angie,
This post really caught my attention.
You have summed up my quit after the first month.....
*Combatting the fuck its*
Ya know, after 9-10 months, the 'fuck its' went away. I had invested too
much into my quit to blow it.
You will get there, I promise. Hang in there, take good care of yourself.
Sending prayers for your sister,
Cat-who's mom had smoking-related cancer surgery yesterday. BAH




"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1183605510.671137.135440@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> Mike!
> Thank you for letting me know about AS3! I will be constantly
> reminding myself that smoking is not an option when I'm visiting my
> sister...I'm hoping that witnessing the pain that comes from the
> consequences of a career in smoking will help. That is if I combat the
> 'fuck its' which seem to horn their way in, in situations like
> this....at least for me. Ya know....life is so so sweet. I find myself
> treasuring its simple gifts every day. Not smoking is such a different
> way of being!
> Angie
> I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 5 Days, 22 hours, 18 minutes and 20
> seconds (26 days). I have saved $118.48 by not smoking 538 cigarettes.
> I have saved 1 Day, 20 hours and 50 minutes of my life. My Quit Date:
> 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

((((Angie))))
and ((((Cat))))

I know it's hard to watch someone you love go through this. But it's
also a very powerful motivator to quit!

You guys hang in there.

Love
Ashley

Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
>sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
>activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
>value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
>person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
>right now.

Angie! Thank you for being with us. You do know that without you
around it wouldb't be the same, do you?

I wish you all the best in your quit and in your life, and also that
your dear sister gets as much out of life as is possible. She could
not have wished for a better sister than you!

--
Tihomir
*I don't smoke anymore*

You can't have everything, where would you keep it?

Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
>firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
>week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
>She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
>year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
>hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
>is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
>probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
>all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
>best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.

These are some things I tucked away for "God forbid" times. I pray it
does help!

http://www.treat-cancer.nl/

--
Tihomir
*I don't smoke anymore*

Kill them all! ... Let God sort them out.

On Wed, 04 Jul 2007 20:14:02 -0700, Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>Thanks Sue. Yes I will be doing my best to bring some healing food and
>company .....Peace is what we seek....and laughing of course! My
>sister is a big comedian which is of good use now!

Laughter may not be the *best* medicine, but it's really close. Good
for your sis!!
Sue
One year, three months, two weeks, 8 hours, 34 minutes and 40 seconds.
15554 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,589.87. Life saved: 7 weeks, 5
days, 10 minutes.

On Wed, 4 Jul 2007 20:02:17 -0600, "Steve And Sarah"
<sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote:

> Your sister has probably bought
>your freedom from the Nico-Demon don't let her down and don't let yourself
>down.

That is a GREAT thought!

Interesting! Flavinoids? I'm definitely looking into this....thanks
for sharing Tiho!
Angie
I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 6 Days, 9 hours, 59 minutes and 42
seconds (27 days). I have saved $120.62 by not smoking 548 cigarettes.
I have saved 1 Day, 21 hours and 40 minutes of my life. My Quit Date:
6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Angie, you rock!!!
Just keep doing what you're doing.
You're going to be free.
:-p~~~~~~~ Keven OOF
Don't ever forget why you quit.

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegro ups.com...
> It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
> firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
> If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
> week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
> She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
> year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
> hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
> is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
> probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
> all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
> best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
>
> I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
> sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
> activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
> value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
> person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
> right now.
> Thanks for letting me share.
> You guys rock!
> Angie
>

{{{{{{{{{Cat}}}}}}}}}}} Sorry to read that your mother had surgery
yesterday too. I do agree the longer we are smober the more it
becomes who we are NOW and the smoking self is no longer us. I'm
seeing that transition happening a lot at this point in my quit and
know it will be even more so the longer I'm smober.

FlatironMike
FSS
Four months, three weeks, three days, 17 hours, 17 minutes and 28
seconds. 2894 cigarettes not smoked, saving $868.07. Life saved: 1
week, 3 days, 1 hour, 10 minutes.

"THISTime" <nope@notonusenet.him> wrote in message
news:sftp83tec2ujia1upjh3353f521jet6rs5@4ax.com...
: On Wed, 4 Jul 2007 20:02:17 -0600, "Steve And Sarah"
: <sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote:
:
: > Your sister has probably bought
: >your freedom from the Nico-Demon don't let her down and don't let
yourself
: >down.
:
: That is a GREAT thought!

He has one or two a year.......bwahahahahahaha!

Sarah, who will be in big trouble when Steve reads this.

BTW, THIStime, has anyone ever told you that you look like Steve Perry?
That's who came to mind when I saw your quitbuddies photo. Do you fly
often? My Steve would love to become a pilot.

"CuckooCat" <silly@laughing.net> wrote in message
news:6pWdnXZxO-6s9BHbnZ2dnUVZ_uSgnZ2d@comcast.com...
: Angie,
: This post really caught my attention.
: You have summed up my quit after the first month.....
: *Combatting the fuck its*
: Ya know, after 9-10 months, the 'fuck its' went away. I had invested too
: much into my quit to blow it.
: You will get there, I promise. Hang in there, take good care of yourself.
: Sending prayers for your sister,
: Cat-who's mom had smoking-related cancer surgery yesterday. BAH
:
(((((((((Sweetie))))))))))

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1183593567.905305.145970@e9g2000prf.googlegro ups.com...
: It's 4th of July and I'm having thoughts of smoking counteracted by
: firm reminders of how happy I am about my meter!
: If I need any other reminder of why I don't smoke it will be next
: week when I go to be with my sister for her second chemo treatment.
: She's 47 and has smoked for about 30 years. She is divorce with twin 8
: year olds and a 14 year old. She called this morning to tell me her
: hair has started to fall out in clumps. The small cell cancer she has
: is nearly 100% linked to smoking. It's fast and deadly and she
: probably doesn't have but a few years at most. This SUCKS.....and it's
: all because of those hot, death sticks we have all thought were our
: best friends. Hell I still sometimes think I want one.
:
: I don't mean to post gloom and doom and I don't want anyone to feel
: sorry for her or me. I love this site and believe the humor and
: activity is responsible for the success of my quit. If there's any
: value to hearing how smoking is killing a loved one that will keep one
: person quit... I'll share here....it's what's going on in my life
: right now.
: Thanks for letting me share.
: You guys rock!
: Angie
((((((((((Angie)))))))))) I couldn't imagine dealing with what you are
dealing with. Be strong, honey. And humour is very helpful for you and
your sister. Sending healing thoughts your way.

Hugs

Sarah and Steve

Steve Perrry?!!!? (drool) I loved me some Steve Perry back in the 80s.Hell I
loved Journey period!! What page is he on?? I gotta see!!!
Becky

"Steve and Sarah" <sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote in message
news:f6ng51$44r$1@utornnr1pp.grouptelecom.net...
>
> "THISTime" <nope@notonusenet.him> wrote in message
> news:sftp83tec2ujia1upjh3353f521jet6rs5@4ax.com...
> : On Wed, 4 Jul 2007 20:02:17 -0600, "Steve And Sarah"
> : <sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote:
> :
> : > Your sister has probably bought
> : >your freedom from the Nico-Demon don't let her down and don't let
> yourself
> : >down.
> :
> : That is a GREAT thought!
>
> He has one or two a year.......bwahahahahahaha!
>
> Sarah, who will be in big trouble when Steve reads this.
>
> BTW, THIStime, has anyone ever told you that you look like Steve Perry?
> That's who came to mind when I saw your quitbuddies photo. Do you fly
> often? My Steve would love to become a pilot.
>
>

"Becky" <sobern2003@nospam.comcast.net> wrote in message
news:Ad-dnYRlGZuUGRLbnZ2dnUVZ_jWdnZ2d@comcast.com...
: Steve Perrry?!!!? (drool) I loved me some Steve Perry back in the 80s.Hell
I
: loved Journey period!! What page is he on?? I gotta see!!!
: Becky
:
OMG I am with you girlfriend. And that voice! Mmmmmmmm......huh?? Oh
yeah, page number.......31. Tell me if you agree with me.

OMG remember the Jeans Steve Perry used to wear.....MY Steve used to wear
jeans like that when I nabbed him........Ahhhh the memories!

Sarah

"Steve and Sarah" <sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote in message
news:f6ol6m$jlg$3@utornnr1pp.grouptelecom.net...
>
> "Becky" <sobern2003@nospam.comcast.net> wrote in message
> news:Ad-dnYRlGZuUGRLbnZ2dnUVZ_jWdnZ2d@comcast.com...
> : Steve Perrry?!!!? (drool) I loved me some Steve Perry back in the
> 80s.Hell
> I
> : loved Journey period!! What page is he on?? I gotta see!!!
> : Becky
> :
> OMG I am with you girlfriend. And that voice! Mmmmmmmm......huh?? Oh
> yeah, page number.......31. Tell me if you agree with me.
>
> OMG remember the Jeans Steve Perry used to wear.....MY Steve used to wear
> jeans like that when I nabbed him........Ahhhh the memories!
>
> Sarah

Oh fuck yeah!!!!! the stuff fantasies are made of!!! Id have done him in a
heartbeat!!!
Becky

"Becky" <sobern2003@nospam.comcast.net> wrote in message
news:5eadnYU8XZa6tw3bnZ2dnUVZ_ualnZ2d@comcast.com. ..
:
: "Steve and Sarah" <sandskrieger@NOSPAM.yourlink.ca> wrote in message
: news:f6ol6m$jlg$3@utornnr1pp.grouptelecom.net...
: >
: > "Becky" <sobern2003@nospam.comcast.net> wrote in message
: > news:Ad-dnYRlGZuUGRLbnZ2dnUVZ_jWdnZ2d@comcast.com...
: > : Steve Perrry?!!!? (drool) I loved me some Steve Perry back in the
: > 80s.Hell
: > I
: > : loved Journey period!! What page is he on?? I gotta see!!!
: > : Becky
: > :
: > OMG I am with you girlfriend. And that voice! Mmmmmmmm......huh?? Oh
: > yeah, page number.......31. Tell me if you agree with me.
: >
: > OMG remember the Jeans Steve Perry used to wear.....MY Steve used to
wear
: > jeans like that when I nabbed him........Ahhhh the memories!
: >
: > Sarah
:
: Oh fuck yeah!!!!! the stuff fantasies are made of!!! Id have done him in a
: heartbeat!!!
: Becky
:
Notice that THIStime hasn't said a damn thing, Becky? Hmmmmmm Maybe we're
on to something here. LOL

Sarah - listening to Faithfully and drooling.