Tearful RANT

On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
This is valuable time to spend with her children.
Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
=I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Oh damnit ((((((((((Angie)))))))))))
I don't know what to say, and if I even tried, it would come out all wrong.
Be strong and please please please don't smoke.
It's. Just. Not. Worth. It.





"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

((((Angie)))) I am so very sorry about your sister.I lost my dad last May
due to these fucking cigarettes,so I know how it hurts to lose a loved one
.. I will keep yur sister in my prayers that the chemo will help her live
awhile longer to be with her loved ones. Please come here often and rant and
cry and talk all you need to. We are here for you. and PLEASE dont
smoke.Stay strong and post often. Congratulations on your 4 days. You are
off to a great start.

Love
Becky

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

(((((((Angie))))))))

Sorry to hear this, Angie.

Stay strong.

Hugs,
Marvin

Angie wrote:
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>


--
I don't smoke. I smell like bread. Life is Good.

((((((Angie))))))
Big hug for you and yours.
My heart goes out to you.
Please don't give in to that damn nicodemon, please.
Keep up the good fight and eventually there is no more fight, you will be
free.

Sending prayers for your sister & your family.
Cat




"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

You guys are great. I am feeling resolved about not smoking about this
or about anything. Hopefully this story will touch someone else and
help them stay quit. Breathing deeply here! Thanks for your
support.

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

We make choices and sometimes this is the result, but it doesn't have to be
for you. Stay strong and be there for your sister and her children.
Words cannot make you feel any better so I won't even try.

GregB
7 years + some

So sorry to hear this Angie. Stay strong,
Robin.

--
Batman: "You're far from mod, Robin. And many hippies are older than you
are."
-
"Angie" <> schreef in bericht ...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

Get it out there Angie. At least if you can put it into writing, you know
you've said it.
Your sister will be relieved by your quit. Tell her how you're doing. It
might help to keep a journal. But, look at it this way... if your sister
could still smoke after having surgery for cancer that nicodemon will not
let you off the hook easily.
We're here to listen and try to help because we can relate to your fear.
This quit is for you... and your sister will be proud.

I have been freed from tobacco for 5y 4d 21:34,
which means I haven't smoked 40,278 cigarettes.
That's not one puff, toke, drag, draw, hit, or large dose of
2nd hand smoke! (Note: In the event of a relapse, this meter
would be reset to zero, but that's just not going to happen!)
:-p~~~~~~~ Keven
Don't ever forget why you quit.



"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

On 13 Jun, 02:21, Angie <agwins...@cox.net> wrote:
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Hi
Sorry to hear of this. I went through a similar thing with my mother
(ovarian) which had a positive outcome, she was given the all clear
(surgery and chemo). She was very lucky, she used to be a theater
sister and by chance she was at a dinner with an old gynecologist
friend she mentioned her symptoms, he had her in the next day.
Then be Fucked if the wifes mum didn't get the same thing she hung on
going to the doctors thinking she was just a bit bloated and well she
is on her second set of chemo, no point operating. I try not to think
in terms of time for my wifes sake, she is going to be devastated when
her mums time comes. So I sort of *feel your pain* .
It was while visiting the oncology clinic that I felt such a low life,
scuzz bucket, scum sucking wanker when I when outside for a shit
stick...well I had an epiphany. I got talking to this guy while I was
waiting at oncology, we hit it off like a house on fire cracking
jokes, having a lot off with the Nurses usual barrack room stuff, by
the time we had finished the whole room was shattered. I looked
forward to seeing him every three weeks or so, one time he just didn't
turn up. That cut the fucking legs off me I will NEVER smoke another
of those fucking rotten things again.
Stay strong
Regards Chris

Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
>year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
>A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.

((((((((((((((((((((((Angie))))))))))))))))))))))) )))


--
Tihomir

Pity the man who knows everything,
for he can never learn anything.

(((((((((((((((((Angie)))))))))))))))

I am so sorry to hear this. We're all here if you need to talk. Be gentle
to yourself right now.

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"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

I am sorry, your sister has a hard road to walk right now. palliative chemo
sucks but it will give her time to say goodbye to her children and make sure
she has funeral prep done.
Be with her and don't smoke

--
Lynn <---VOF Leaper


"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

Awww I'm so sorry to hear this, Angie.

Please don't smoke...you know better than to start up again. You have to be
alive and healthy to support both you and your family right now.

Keven is right ... start a journal to document your feelings ... maybe later
you can show it to your sister's kids.

joy
5y+

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

On Wed, 13 Jun 2007 00:33:02 -0700, eightpans
<chrisconro@googlemail.com> wrote:
>
>Hi
>Sorry to hear of this. I went through a similar thing with my mother
>(ovarian) which had a positive outcome, she was given the all clear
>(surgery and chemo). She was very lucky, she used to be a theater
>sister

Chris, what is a theater sister? My guess is an operating room nurse?
Sue

On Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:21:56 -0700, Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
>removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
>who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
>believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
>the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
>determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
>We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
>survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
>requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
>finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
>of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
>this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
>guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
>box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
>received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
>She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
>This is valuable time to spend with her children.
>Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
>is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
>squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
>I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
>smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
>I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
>directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
>So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
>cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
>absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
>going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
>year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
>A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
>=I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
>days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
>8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Angie, this is very sad to read. Stay strong in your quit and stay
strong for your sister and her children.
Sue
One year, two months, three weeks, two days, 10 hours, 27 minutes and
33 seconds. 14831 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,469.42. Life saved:
7 weeks, 2 days, 11 hours, 55 minutes.

On 13 Jun, 15:26, Sue <sebr...@thegrid.net> wrote:
> On Wed, 13 Jun 2007 00:33:02 -0700, eightpans
>
> <chrisco...@googlemail.com> wrote:
>
> >Hi
> >Sorry to hear of this. I went through a similar thing with my mother
> >(ovarian) which had a positive outcome, she was given the all clear
> >(surgery and chemo). She was very lucky, she used to be a theater
> >sister
>
> Chris, what is a theater sister? My guess is an operating room nurse?
> Sue

Yep Sue got that right. I think I'm right in saying that Nurses in
charge of wards and operating rooms (theatres cos folk used to come
and watch...uggh) are called sisters over here. Might have changed cos
they are always buggering about with our NHS. But in my mums day (shes
72) she was a sister, and treated like a Sargent major so she tells
me.
Chris

((((((((((((((((((((((((angie))))))))))))))))))))) )))))))





"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>

(((Angie)))

Lots of love and hugs to you. I'm so sorry to hear about this. You
guys will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Stay strong! You can do it!

Ashley

Yes, Chris, Yes. I have the same resolve. Never again, ever....for any
reason.

I too found myself in a similar situation, going outside the hosipital
to smoke when last month when my sister was recovering from surgery.
Just didn't sit right......Good people die because of their addiction
to this nicotine devil....Breathing deeply because I still 'think' I
want a cigarette.........


Thank you and all for your support. It is so helpful to be able to
read and post here.

I have been quit for 5 Days, 21 hours, 49 minutes and 50 seconds (5
days). I have saved $25.99 by not smoking 118 cigarettes. I have saved
9 hours and 50 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM

Thank you > Tihomir.........nice embrace........

"ok2bwild"
> Keven is right ... start a journal to document your feelings ... maybe
> later you can show it to your sister's kids.

Thanks Joy!
And, now that you've given me that confidence... what if I suggested to her
to get a recorder and keep her sisters words in her own voice?

I got a digital recorder and kept conversations with my parents that I will
listen to again someday. But, I'm glad I have them.

The nicodemon is a liar and a thief!

:-p~~~~~~~ Keven
Don't ever forget why you quit.

"Angie" <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote in message
news:1181697716.546589.100790@a26g2000pre.googlegr oups.com...
> On May 1, my 46 year old sister had the upper right lobe of her lung
> removed because of a cancerous tumor there. She is a 35 year smoker
> who sadly still could not totally give up the habit even after surgery
> believe it or not. The surgeon had two fucking jobs....one was to get
> the tumor out and the second was to evaluate the pathology report to
> determine her treatment plan. He's batting 500.
> We were told on May 3 that it was non small cell cancer and an 80%
> survival rate...localized only in her lung. Well my sister kept
> requesting to see the pathology report because she was curious. They
> finally sent it to her yesterday and she reads that the tumor is a mix
> of small cell (47%) and large cell and emails the surgeon to ask what
> this means. She knows what it means. She's never been to college! I
> guarantee you that no human read that report - they just checked the
> box on their computer that said 'pathology report ordered and
> received'. Small cell is deadly and can kill you in a few months.
> She can extend her life with chemo but she's 36 days late starting.
> This is valuable time to spend with her children.
> Bottom line is that he fucked up, admitted that he "missed it" and she
> is going in tomorrow morning to start chemotherapy to see if she can
> squeeze a few more months out of this journey we call life.
> I know that anger at the surgeon is misplaced because I'm angry at the
> smoking that will kill my sister likely within 16 - 24 months by what
> I read on the net. It is incurable. It is the only cancer that is
> directly attributed to smoking cigarettes.
> So what do I think as I hear this news.....First it's I need a
> cigarette to deal with this. Fortunatelly it also hits me that this is
> absurd....so I need a cigarette to console me because my sister is
> going to die because of cigarettes. I am sad, worried (she has twin 9
> year olds and a 13 year old) and am FUCKING SURE THAT I WILL NEVER PUT
> A FUCKING CIGARETTE IN MY MOUTH AGAIN DAMMIT.
> =I have been quit for 4 Days, 20 hours, 17 minutes and 10 seconds (4
> days). I have saved $21.31 by not smoking 96 cigarettes. I have saved
> 8 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 6/7/2007 10:00 PM
>
I don't know what to say. I am sorry that your family is going through
this.

(((((((((((((((((Angie)))))))))))))))

Sarah and Steve
Eight months, two days, 5 hours, 22 minutes and 40 seconds. 6130 cigarettes
not smoked, saving $2,452.24. Life saved: 3 weeks, 6 hours, 50 minutes.

Angie <agwinslow@cox.net> wrote:

>Thank you > Tihomir.........nice embrace........

If you can, please let us know how your sister is doing.
You just made her and you a part of our lives.

There is always hope!


--
Tihomir

The easier it is to do, the harder it is to change. - Principle, Eng'S
This signature was made by SigChanger.
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{{{{{{{{{{Angie}}}}}}}}}}

You and your entire family are in my prayers.

You will always have friends at AS3.

--
LeslieB
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Hey I know this is an old post but I found it anyway and so its my
turn. My 46 yr old sister smoking cowboy killers(Marlboro RED 100's)
for 30 years ended up in the hospital with Pneumonia on June 17th.
Well, prolonged pneumonia usually means LC so they did a
bronchioscopy. Sure enough small cell of the extended found in her
lungs, liver and Brain.(5 lesions). Second opinion confirmed the
results. Docs their told her 30 days w/o treatment, 12 months with.
She went for a second opinion. Doctors told her she'd get through it.
10 rounds of radiation. Lost all her hair and she cried. She did not
want to die. She was afraid of death. 1 round of Chemo. Docs said she
looked good. Went to have a stent installed, but they postoned it a
week. Spoke to her Friday noght. She had friends over, ordered some
clothes over the internet, sounded great. Yesterday Aug 4th. We found
her dead laying on her bed. Next to the bed on the nightable 2 packs
of Marlboro lights(Guess she either couldn't handle big red, or
thought the lights were "better". My first inclination was to rage,
how could she do this!! then I realize, she just couldn't help
herself. She never wanted to smoke, no one wants to smoke. They have
to smoke because the withdrawal is so painful. Well, the whole ordeal
from diagnosis to death has been a nightmare. Tests, Drs's, Chemo,
pharmacies. every day all day trying to buy time. I know she's at
peace now and will not have to go through another grueling regimine to
hopefully buy a few years. She is no longer in pain. I found a memo
that she wrote.. "Cancer everywhere, lungs, brain, liver". "Does
anybody want to die". Right below that she drew a sketch of an unhappy
face, and she wrote below it"Cigarette people". So its over now. of
200,000 lung cancer deaths 170,000 either smoke or were heavy smokers.
30,000 never smoked. the numbers are convincing. She knew what they
did to her. She was embarresed because she let it happen to her.
I don't think we'll ever get them off the shelves, but smoking is
decling in the US so the bastids crank up production in Russia, and
other countries. Anyone that will buy them so they can reward their
investors. I can't support this so I doubt t I'll ever smoke again.
Seeing what I did in tha past 6 weeks. I had good luck with the patch,
but know I'm getting rashes from the adhesive..used them 4 weeks no
problem now all the sudden rashes.. go figure.. if it gets out of hand
I'll use the lozenges. I won't pick up a smoke. I hope all the
Cigarette companies go to zero. I hope the fed tax rate makes them
150.00 a carton. It costs us billions in health costs for a habit
nobody likes but just can't get through the withdrawal, and so they
are helpless.

Hey I know this is an old post but I found it anyway and so its my
turn. My 46 yr old sister smoking cowboy killers(Marlboro RED 100's)
for 30 years ended up in the hospital with Pneumonia on June 17th.
Well, prolonged pneumonia usually means LC so they did a
bronchioscopy. Sure enough small cell of the extended found in her
lungs, liver and Brain.(5 lesions). Second opinion confirmed the
results. Docs their told her 30 days w/o treatment, 12 months with.
She went for a second opinion. Doctors told her she'd get through it.
10 rounds of radiation. Lost all her hair and she cried. She did not
want to die. She was afraid of death. 1 round of Chemo. Docs said she
looked good. Went to have a stent installed, but they postoned it a
week. Spoke to her Friday noght. She had friends over, ordered some
clothes over the internet, sounded great. Yesterday Aug 4th. We found
her dead laying on her bed. Next to the bed on the nightable 2 packs
of Marlboro lights(Guess she either couldn't handle big red, or
thought the lights were "better". My first inclination was to rage,
how could she do this!! then I realize, she just couldn't help
herself. She never wanted to smoke, no one wants to smoke. They have
to smoke because the withdrawal is so painful. Well, the whole ordeal
from diagnosis to death has been a nightmare. Tests, Drs's, Chemo,
pharmacies. every day all day trying to buy time. I know she's at
peace now and will not have to go through another grueling regimine to
hopefully buy a few years. She is no longer in pain. I found a memo
that she wrote.. "Cancer everywhere, lungs, brain, liver". "Does
anybody want to die". Right below that she drew a sketch of an unhappy
face, and she wrote below it"Cigarette people". So its over now. of
200,000 lung cancer deaths 170,000 either smoke or were heavy smokers.
30,000 never smoked. the numbers are convincing. She knew what they
did to her. She was embarresed because she let it happen to her.
I don't think we'll ever get them off the shelves, but smoking is
decling in the US so the bastids crank up production in Russia, and
other countries. Anyone that will buy them so they can reward their
investors. I can't support this so I doubt t I'll ever smoke again.
Seeing what I did in tha past 6 weeks. I had good luck with the patch,
but know I'm getting rashes from the adhesive..used them 4 weeks no
problem now all the sudden rashes.. go figure.. if it gets out of hand
I'll use the lozenges. I won't pick up a smoke. I hope all the
Cigarette companies go to zero. I hope the fed tax rate makes them
150.00 a carton. It costs us billions in health costs for a habit
nobody likes but just can't get through the withdrawal, and so they
are helpless.

Steve honey, I am SO sorry about your sister. I am so sorry. This just
about moved me to tears.

Don't pick up a smoke. Don't do it. Keep the quit for your sister.
She'd want it, don't you think? And it's a good way to honor her.

Oh honey. Let me know if there is something I can do. Really.

Ashley

Steve honey, I am SO sorry about your sister. I am so sorry. This just
about moved me to tears.

Don't pick up a smoke. Don't do it. Keep the quit for your sister.
She'd want it, don't you think? And it's a good way to honor her.

Oh honey. Let me know if there is something I can do. Really.

Ashley

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing such a personal
story.



"steve-o" <igt123@optonline.net> wrote in message
news:1186349323.955718.289510@19g2000hsx.googlegro ups.com...
> Hey I know this is an old post but I found it anyway and so its my
> turn. My 46 yr old sister smoking cowboy killers(Marlboro RED 100's)
> for 30 years ended up in the hospital with Pneumonia on June 17th.
> Well, prolonged pneumonia usually means LC so they did a
> bronchioscopy. Sure enough small cell of the extended found in her
> lungs, liver and Brain.(5 lesions). Second opinion confirmed the
> results. Docs their told her 30 days w/o treatment, 12 months with.
> She went for a second opinion. Doctors told her she'd get through it.
> 10 rounds of radiation. Lost all her hair and she cried. She did not
> want to die. She was afraid of death. 1 round of Chemo. Docs said she
> looked good. Went to have a stent installed, but they postoned it a
> week. Spoke to her Friday noght. She had friends over, ordered some
> clothes over the internet, sounded great. Yesterday Aug 4th. We found
> her dead laying on her bed. Next to the bed on the nightable 2 packs
> of Marlboro lights(Guess she either couldn't handle big red, or
> thought the lights were "better". My first inclination was to rage,
> how could she do this!! then I realize, she just couldn't help
> herself. She never wanted to smoke, no one wants to smoke. They have
> to smoke because the withdrawal is so painful. Well, the whole ordeal
> from diagnosis to death has been a nightmare. Tests, Drs's, Chemo,
> pharmacies. every day all day trying to buy time. I know she's at
> peace now and will not have to go through another grueling regimine to
> hopefully buy a few